CamliaEvergreen - Hello Poetry

If distance makes the heart grow fonder Then we are really ******* far away And I know that this is what you wanted But my heart pulls me further down each day I thought that maybe in the jungle Rain and mist would wash away my pain But even in the heart of the blackest night I’ve ever seen That flame blinded and raged inside of me Another flame burns when I think of that other night The darkest night I’d ever seen When your eyes were clouded with so much doubt So I couldn’t see you anymore And I hated the way you looked at me When you told me you didn’t want me to be part of your life Sitting here now, a million miles away, these words are still hard to write But I can’t ignore it I wish that we could be together today, on our anniversary And I wish we could be with eachother everyday Even though I know “every” is a word I’m not supposed to say Anymore Every, always, never, right, forever What do these words even mean? I’m not sure they mean anything Anymore But I miss the way we used to say these words And I miss the way you used to pull me in so cluse Instead of pushing me away We are so far away Dearest I fear that if I get too close to you Love will congeal to terror again in your eyes And I’m afraid of hearing your voice rise To say you don’t want me Anymore

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Jan 21, 2018

Jan 21, 2018 at 7:01 PM UTC

If distance makes the heart grow fonder

If distance makes the heart grow fonder Then we are really ******* far away And I know that this is what you wanted But my heart pulls me further down each day I thought that maybe in the jungle Rain and mist would wash away my pain But even in the heart of the blackest night I’ve ever seen That flame blinded and raged inside of me Another flame burns when I think of that other night The darkest night I’d ever seen When your eyes were clouded with so much doubt So I couldn’t see you anymore And I hated the way you looked at me When you told me you didn’t want me to be part of your life Sitting here now, a million miles away, these words are still hard to write But I can’t ignore it I wish that we could be together today, on our anniversary And I wish we could be with eachother everyday Even though I know “every” is a word I’m not supposed to say Anymore Every, always, never, right, forever What do these words even mean? I’m not sure they mean anything Anymore But I miss the way we used to say these words And I miss the way you used to pull me in so cluse Instead of pushing me away We are so far away Dearest I fear that if I get too close to you Love will congeal to terror again in your eyes And I’m afraid of hearing your voice rise To say you don’t want me Anymore

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In my season most bitter cold your love did flicker but never died

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Nov 25, 2017

Nov 25, 2017 at 2:53 PM UTC

Thanksgiving

In my season most bitter cold your love did flicker but never died

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Is a boring circle better than a broken heart?

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Oct 27, 2017

Oct 27, 2017 at 9:35 AM UTC

Pancakes

Is a boring circle better than a broken heart?

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my legs your hand between my legs oh my

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May 1, 2017

May 1, 2017 at 6:40 PM UTC

Untitled

my legs your hand between my legs oh my

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One tree composes the entire sassafras grove Vegetative manifest destiny propels its growth Even as the green leaves turn black I searched for that sinful seed That began this unchecked growth Of endless reproducing replicates Fatigue, distrust, remorse Anticipation, heartache, shame Every emotion I encountered Claimed to be a person with that power Yet feelings are false and can be fallen The bark I’ve scratched, the leaves I’ve torn Some I’ve even overcome Still the forest only thickened more Then I fell myself Now my ambition, once unjustified and diffuse Sprouts with the vigor of sassafras Reclaiming land thought lost with a green And very visible hand that holds onto mine The forest continues to densen Sweet sinful confusion still conceals the heart Beating the path has only become harder But in your eyes I see my pain Irrelevant as the means to the end We will find the root And steep its very core We will drink it And we will see more

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Apr 14, 2017

Apr 14, 2017 at 8:28 AM UTC

Searching

One tree composes the entire sassafras grove Vegetative manifest destiny propels its growth Even as the green leaves turn black I searched for that sinful seed That began this unchecked growth Of endless reproducing replicates Fatigue, distrust, remorse Anticipation, heartache, shame Every emotion I encountered Claimed to be a person with that power Yet feelings are false and can be fallen The bark I’ve scratched, the leaves I’ve torn Some I’ve even overcome Still the forest only thickened more Then I fell myself Now my ambition, once unjustified and diffuse Sprouts with the vigor of sassafras Reclaiming land thought lost with a green And very visible hand that holds onto mine The forest continues to densen Sweet sinful confusion still conceals the heart Beating the path has only become harder But in your eyes I see my pain Irrelevant as the means to the end We will find the root And steep its very core We will drink it And we will see more

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They grab at the sunset spilling over the tops of the Parking garages, office buildings, and apartments Red-violet, sunflower, spring shoot, to blue sky The backlight to their upwards web Litter decorates stray branches I love the city trees Not a forest, but a friend Isolated - But not alone

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Feb 18, 2017

Feb 18, 2017 at 6:07 PM UTC

City Trees

They grab at the sunset spilling over the tops of the Parking garages, office buildings, and apartments Red-violet, sunflower, spring shoot, to blue sky The backlight to their upwards web Litter decorates stray branches I love the city trees Not a forest, but a friend Isolated - But not alone

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About one year ago We sat side by side on Storrs first floor You put your arm around my shoulders And then asked me what I wanted What I wanted from our relationship I looked aghast I felt the fool I do not remember my response Something along the lines of I did not know Just to be with you, I suppose? I did not, do not, know a lot of things But now I at least I can say this: I wanted winter, spring, summer, fall To brush fine snowflakes from your hair Stroke fuzzy plants on the verge of bloom To meet new rabbits named Hlao-roo I wanted even more to trust you To cry my heart into your hands And know you wouldn’t let it go Even though I’m not sure you understand How difficult it can be I know, I know This hasn’t been easy We’ve slipped on the ice Been burnt by the sun’s passionate light And yet it seems we still command A love more natural than the passing of time So that a year falls like sand Through your fingers laced with mine I could not have asked that this all be fulfilled Certainly, I may have wished it, but still My first answer, though weak, was true All that I desire is to be with you

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Feb 13, 2017

Feb 13, 2017 at 9:38 PM UTC

About One Year Ago

About one year ago We sat side by side on Storrs first floor You put your arm around my shoulders And then asked me what I wanted What I wanted from our relationship I looked aghast I felt the fool I do not remember my response Something along the lines of I did not know Just to be with you, I suppose? I did not, do not, know a lot of things But now I at least I can say this: I wanted winter, spring, summer, fall To brush fine snowflakes from your hair Stroke fuzzy plants on the verge of bloom To meet new rabbits named Hlao-roo I wanted even more to trust you To cry my heart into your hands And know you wouldn’t let it go Even though I’m not sure you understand How difficult it can be I know, I know This hasn’t been easy We’ve slipped on the ice Been burnt by the sun’s passionate light And yet it seems we still command A love more natural than the passing of time So that a year falls like sand Through your fingers laced with mine I could not have asked that this all be fulfilled Certainly, I may have wished it, but still My first answer, though weak, was true All that I desire is to be with you

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Some kind of Crazy ******** Beautiful

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Nov 13, 2016

Nov 13, 2016 at 9:50 PM UTC

Trains at Twilight