When the depression hits
I suddenly become empty
It's like the world around me has stopped spinning
Life becomes dull
And at this point
I would do anything to feel something
Because the nothing is killing me
But then after awhile
When the nightmares start to fade
And my world resumes its rotation
All of the emotions start rushing back
And at this point
I would do anything to go back to feeling
Nothing
Nov 30, 2020
Nov 30, 2020 at 10:31 AM UTC
My question isn't
When do I start?
But rather
When do I end?
Nov 30, 2020
Nov 30, 2020 at 10:26 AM UTC
Do you know what it's like
Not knowing what's fake
And what's real
Sitting all alone in a dark room
Shaking
Having creatures tear open your skin
Yet not having a mark on you
Hearing voices screaming
Pounding on the walls
Yet being in complete and utter silence
No you don't
So shut the **** up
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:34 PM UTC
I just want to be held
To be loved
And cherished
I just don't want to be alone anymore
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:29 PM UTC
Take a walk through my head
Listen to my thoughts
Spend a day in my shoes
You'd start drinking
Smoking
*******
Anything to make it stop
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:28 PM UTC
I have nightmares
And not the kind that leave
Once you wake up
The kind that follow you everywhere
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:25 PM UTC
My body smells of ash
Because I one had this fire
That consumed me
And left nothing else
But ash
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:23 PM UTC
The smell of death
Wafts through the air
Yet no on died
Tell me
How can that be?
Nov 29, 2020
Nov 29, 2020 at 4:21 PM UTC
I used to think
I was living a nightmare
Now I think I'm becoming
One
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 7:40 PM UTC
Sometimes I get chills
Not because I'm cold
Because I can still feel
His hands on me
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 3:43 PM UTC