People will hurt you and then act like it was you who hurt them.
Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 4:16 AM UTC
Most days, I feel alone
Most days, I can feel it in my bones
The way the dark wind blows
It’s like I’m the only one against the flow
I wake up each day in a twilight zone
I look to my left and my right, I’m on my own
But when I look up to the sky, there you’re aglow
Be with me, in this land down below
May 29, 2019
May 29, 2019 at 10:28 PM UTC
I just want everything to stop
It's all becoming too much for me
Climbed too high, now I fell from the top
I don't want all of these, just let me be
I want to get out of here
Rise up in the sun and let it swallow me
Let the winds carry me somewhere unknown
All I ever wanted is to be alone
I'd throw everything away in a heartbeat
If I could just be on my own and free
Let the snow sink me in
I'll be happier than I've ever been
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 9:23 AM UTC
Let’s stare into the abyss and never look back
For then I would grow and never be struck
By the lightning of fate and cruel luck
I would be free from the reins of life,
Away from all these lights,
That put me out of sight
For only in the darkness you could see me
And there I would find what I’d truly like to be
Into the abyss, there I will be free
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 5:43 AM UTC
I’m less of a woman because I’m fat
I’m treated like one of the guys
No doors were held for me everyday
And most of the time, I’m fine with that
No gentleman was ever gentle to me
No girl was ever a friend to me
All these empty spaces they left me
I decided to put doubt and insecurities in
They say it’s okay
They say love yourself in a way
That itself should be enough for the light of day
But they don’t know how it is for me each day
I just want to feel loved and wanted
I just want to feel important and painted
I’m tired of being black and white
All I need is a little color on my sky
I’m less of a person because I’m scarred
I’m less of a human because I’m “ugly”
That’s what they said to me
I’m less of a woman because I’m fat
Mar 8, 2019
Mar 8, 2019 at 7:33 AM UTC
I act like I’m fine
I act like everything’s alright
I tell people I don’t feel a thing
I tell people I’m not hurting
Every day is the same
I put up a mask to cover the flame
Trying to keep up to this facade
I’m tired of having nothing to have
Should I let myself come out of the flame?
Show people my real face and name
Would they choose to stay,
When the shadow becomes the light?
In this world where I could trust no one
Would you hold my hand as I run?
Let’s figure out who we are together
Two people finding themselves, isn’t that better?
In this place where I hid,
You’re the person I wanna be alone with
You are the only thing that was ever real
Would you spend some years with me?
Mar 2, 2019
Mar 2, 2019 at 6:11 AM UTC
Hard to admit that it’s all over
Our time together is anything but forever
Been five years since we’ve part
But it feels like yesterday, the way you broke my heart
I guess after all this time, I’m still hoping
That what we had is more than just a thing
That at the very least, I meant something to you
You were my first everything and you haven’t got a clue
But last night, I’ve reached my end
The song you made me, you gave to someone else
That was the first time I heard my heart breaking
With every beat it made, it was aching
For the first time, in a long time,
I’m choosing myself, and I’ll take this as a sign
I’ll move on and forget about you
There’s no sense in being hungover for you
I’ll try to find my old self
That whole person I was before we met
I won’t let another like you break me
Even if I’m alone, I’ll be as happy as I’ll ever be, you’ll see
Feb 25, 2019
Feb 25, 2019 at 6:58 AM UTC
To this day, I don’t know
If what I really wanted was to leave and just let go
Or if I was just scared of the speed of the flow
What feels like yesterday, is a million years ago
I wonder if I’m just a coward
People always saw me as strong and hard
But now, I’m crying alone in the dark
Maybe, I’m just human or maybe just a fraud
Outside, I’m an unbreakable wall
No words, no stones could ever make me fall
But that’s just what they saw
Inside, the pain has taken it’s toll
The cuts I have is not seen with the eyes
It’s buried deep in my chest, cold as ice
I chisel them out of the cold when I write
It’s messed up I know, but it’s my vice
No matter what you think, I don’t care
Because emptiness is something I can’t bear
I’d rather be hurt and pay the fare
It makes me feel alive, I swear
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 8:02 AM UTC