I can't find the child I was once familiar with
With the swollen cheeks and a face that beamed with energy
It was simply a temporary gift
One that radiated glee
One that wished to find everyone's interests and mold into one
One that lead down to multiple positive paths
But nowadays, I find myself within my own wrath
Lost within myself
Lost within a haze of what I can assume a assumption of a play
I find myself playing with myself like I'm a double sided tape
I used to understand everything like it was as clear as the spring's water in the day
But now lost within a maze with no exit
Yet, I'm on display like an animal's exhibit
The fragile mindset of a child's lingers deep inside of me
Tired of waking and letting the whole world view and see
And they're too good for me anyways, you see?
All these monsterous prophecies can't see the light it me
They all like me until I act out in front of them and they dislike me being a normal human being?
I look down the road
There lies the toad
I can see the path ending
My death pending
Goodbye. :)
Aug 15, 2025
Aug 15, 2025 at 6:52 AM UTC
Hey Mr Light Switch!
How do you do?
"You make me itch"
"Does that make sense to you?"
No Mr Light Switch!
Care to explain?
"You manage to make my eye twitch"
"You carry the aura of disdain"
Oh, I'm sorry Mr Light Switch!
I thought you loved me!
"It's okay little switch"
"I do love you, can't you see?"
"You're growing to become just like me!"
"To my eyes, that's so great to see!"
You're such a ***** I don't want to be like you!
You end up flickering just like a switch too!
"Oh little switch, I hate you too!"
"And I swear, I always want to be like you!"
Jul 23, 2025
Jul 23, 2025 at 9:15 PM UTC
**** that M0NST3R that's chasing me!
I'm tired of running like a guinea pig on a spinning wheel
It yearns for the tears that smells like steel
It swallows my words
And sometimes walks in herds
Chasing the sense of VVLN3R@B1L1TY
I don't give a **** if that M0NST3R has voice lines and looks hot
I'm more worried about trying to find the keys while the M0NST3R is trying to eat me alive!
The house is secured, as if I were playing Granny
The locks in the house says I have to wait until the next decade
To use them!?
Don't stop running when I need to be medicated, hello?
M0NST3R has bitten my neck
And it won't give me another sec
Before it comes for another B1T3!
"faint
faint
faint
sleep
sleep
sleep
my dear child
let the bed bugs bite"
IT KEEPS TELLING ME IN WHILE THE WORLD IS BLURRING TO A HAZE
and the water drops
.
Jul 10, 2025
Jul 10, 2025 at 6:33 AM UTC
This isn't what I learned
The lesson still isn't learned
Why?
Because I'm forced to be near and enjoy time with you
I'm one of the two
No blood connection
But your father decided to cross my mother's intersection
How you ignore me
Complete different personality
From a few seconds ago
I guess it's better
But I hate being sent sarcastic and unapologetic letters
I get that you're trans and all
But it isn't fair enough to make my ego fall
It isn't fair on how you can just ***** me on places where the sun doesn't shine
I can't even imagine you getting the male genitals
I'm terrified, that's all
I'm scared what you'll do with that small thing
I haven't learned my lesson
Went through this before
Thou has committed sin
Yet I still haven't let the ocean reach the shore
Jun 28, 2025
Jun 28, 2025 at 5:50 AM UTC
I hate myself
I hate how I look
When I look at myself
Smiling
With my crooked teeth
With cavities filling my teeth
If one looked at me from afar
They'd think I had golden crowns
I hate how I look
With stars circling my eyes
Bags resting beneath my eyelids
With my double chin
Not making me comfortable until I be uncomfortable with it
With my chin with the ****
I look like the handsome Squidward
But uglier
I hate how I look
With the nose that magically grows hairs upon its head
And how the same stars from my eyes
Weren't turning into styes
No—
They're forming on my nose
Little glistening bumps
That won't quite turn into a pimple
And die down
No—
They stay for years on end
No matter what I do
I hate how I look
I hate how I grow hairs so fast on any part of my body
My unibrow somehow keeps coming back
The hair from my scalp
Keeps chasing my eyebrows
Which I didn't know it could happen
But I've seen me
How I have to shave my hands to reduce the judgement from my classmates
My friends I say
And how there's dirt constantly underneath the confines of my nails
No matter what I do
Anything doesn't do anything
I hate how I look
How everytime I bend over
I see the stomach fat
Like it's always there when I stand up
I keep comparing myself to those picture perfect social media girls
How there's no hair on their stomach
And how I can see their ribcage
And how... THIN they are
And my thighs-
They look like a **** triangle
I feel my thighs touching at the top
While down below, it's like I magically turned Korean
And how my calves
Are twenty shades lighter than any part of my body
I hate how I function
How my stomach produces excessive gas
And how my brain automatically wants to turn the batteries off to my body
And how my muscles ache
And how I can only run on motivation
Which causes my lack of dental hygiene
And how I'm getting rapidly addicted
To the drug that every kid loves
Makes sense cause I'm a kid that is racing to highschool
But everyday
I contemplate
How I keep up
Living five years in dream jail
Because everything IS a fever dream
It's tiring
Painful
I hate everyone... I-
.
.
.
Well not exactly everyone
Just people that **** me off
Which is about everyone
Because of my belief
People can't drive,
Park,
Use proper grammar in their native language,
Can't help but body shame
To feel better about themselves,
Can't help anyone
And never put themselves in other's shoes,
They can't use their own brain cells,
Basically inconsiderate ignorant fools
Sorry! 💋<3
Jun 9, 2025
Jun 9, 2025 at 5:47 AM UTC
The flowers you left in my hands
The bouquet wrapped in ribbon and bands
Once left with healthy petals
Came back every time to water the flower
Yet somehow
Something that's rational
Is now filled with uncertainty
The petals are dying
There's no cure
The sighing
The crying
Yet, I can't help but still try to salvage the flowers you gave me
May 25, 2025
May 25, 2025 at 1:34 AM UTC
The maturity I feel over my parents
The freedom I can barely rent
The wave of horror that crashes over me
Just like a tsunami in the sea
That they can do anything to me
Experiment on me
And get away with it
They act as if they don't care
As if everything I said had flown up on the air
Coaches sexualizing me for wearing a mere crop top at a young age
Men three times my age isolating me like they're locking me in a cage
Manipulate, abuse, ****** abuse, repeat
Choke, **** eat
Maturity at a young age
Rub me across your skin like Sage
Treat me as a child
No—
Treat me like it's mild
No—
Treat me like an adult
Get rid of my freedom like it was in a cult
Bounded by these shackles of shame
Then I no longer know your name
Sad how I'm supposed to consider you two as my parents
Yet you don't do anything when someone who lives with me currently used to touch me inappropriately and has done attempted ****** on me
All I can watch you do is just throw a childish tantrum
May 16, 2025
May 16, 2025 at 11:16 PM UTC
I could never say it
People get me jealous
“Jealous, jealous girl"
Just only because
They got your attention
Your attention is supposed to be on me
At all times
I am your girlfriend, correct?
Is it bad that I don't want you talking to other girls?
Is it bad that I want to cling onto you and cuddle you just to prove that you're mine?
Is it bad that I want to feel your lips on mine relentlessly till we pass out just to prove you're all mine?
Is it bad that I want those girls dead?
Is it bad I want you in my bed?
Is it bad that those thoughts of mutilation was on my mind?
I just want you
Why do you enjoy your “homies" holding your hand?
Why do you enjoy your "homies” to touch you in ways that only I should?
I'm sorry I'm boring
I play the same jokes over and over again
I just want you all over me over and over again
So…. If you want to play that game
I'll be kind and take my aim
I'll shoot fire
I'll tell you someone gave me a hickey
I'll tell you someone was touching my ****
I'll tell you someone had kissed me
All just to make you jealous
Love ya!
Apr 29, 2025
Apr 29, 2025 at 11:49 PM UTC
Tired of fighting
I just want to get along
I'm sorry that I joke around with you
That's the only way I know how to cope
I'm sorry that I'm too weird
I'm such a ******* creep
I'm sorry that I threaten to touch you everyday
I'm sorry that I touch your thighs everyday
I should change myself
I'm too stupid to notice that's clearly SA
I'm probably too used to it
I probably thought it was normal from all the groping
I know how it feels
Yet I keep doing it
I can't change myself
I can't handle it
Slap me across the face and tell me to be quiet
Go on
Please
It'll help me
Go as hard as you can
Leave red marks on my cheeks
Allow it to bruise
I'll do this for you
Apr 28, 2025
Apr 28, 2025 at 10:49 PM UTC
The words
I can say
What I can't express
The feelings I get
When someone
Or something
Makes me excited
Makes me want to tell others
I can no longer keep anything to myself
For now
I'm a talking machine
I'm giving people free vouchers for secrets
I'm simply giving and never taking
Talking to the wrong people
And these people
Are leaking my words everywhere
Now
Everything is biting me
Painfully
Apr 17, 2025
Apr 17, 2025 at 11:32 AM UTC