Here I go again on this merry-go-round
Never knowing when it's going to stop
I feel like a spinning top
I used to find it so fun and exciting
But after falling off more than a few times it's not so inviting
It left me feeling dizzy and sick even though it ended so quick
Jul 11, 2015
Jul 11, 2015 at 12:52 AM UTC
My mind in one place and my heart in another
How do I let this go when I still wonder
About you, about us, and where it all went wrong
Could it be fixed?
Am I wrong to still think like this?
I'm holding onto the good memories and blocking out the bad
You have a piece of my heart that I'll never get back
How can I hate you, but still love you?
I can't construe these emotions
I feel like I'm constantly battling myself in this commotion
I keep thinking you'll have a breakthrough
That we'll redo and start new
If only you knew how much I loved you
Apr 29, 2015
Apr 29, 2015 at 8:21 PM UTC
I love you I really do, but sometimes it's just too hard
And I feel we won't make it through
You've said and done things that have hurt me to the core
You ignore my feelings because you've heard it all before
It seems we fell into a routine
Makeups and breakups
We're always right in between
This is getting so obscene
Tired of fighting over who's right or wrong
Different opinions that are too strong
Why can't we just get along?
I love you I really do, but sometimes it's just too hard
And I feel we won't make it through
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:29 AM UTC
Should I leave or should I stay?
This question is on my mind everyday
The fear of losing everything just to restart really breaks my heart
Why did we build this is we were just going to fall apart?
I keep thinking you'll say let's try to get through this
Pull me in with a kiss and say I'm not someone you'd ever want to miss
But I get nothing, you're emotionless
What hurts the most is knowing you're okay while I'm left feeling gray
Two and a half years we threw away
Should I leave or should I stay?
I think it's time to walk away
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:20 AM UTC
Sleep eludes me yet again
My worries and mistakes are keeping me awake
All I do is ache anymore
For god sakes, give me a break
I feel like I have a ton of bricks on my shoulders
They weigh me down and leave me feeling much older
I wish things could come easily to me
Then I could finally be free,
Free from this misery that I carry daily
These words are trite, but there the only ones I know
I need to swallow my sorrows in order to grow
It’s time to move on, time to let go
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
I can’t seem to move on no matter how hard I try
I just don’t want this to be goodbye
My heart feels bruised
I’m left broken and confused
I don’t know what to do
Memories run through my head
I can still remember everything you said
You left me feeling misled
I keep pouring my heart out to you
Thinking we’ll start new
But it doesn’t matter to you
There’s nothing more I can do
I can’t wait on you anymore
All you do is ignore
Leaving my heart so sore
So therefore I’m closing the door
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:05 AM UTC
These bad memories come and go
That happened long ago
But the pain remains the same
I can still feel the shame
Dad comes home and we all flee from the scene
Always following his same old routine
The fighting and yelling is all we can hear
Locked away and filled with fear
We’re crying out for help to get out of here
But it’s not too long before another bruise appears
We suffered for years and cried so many tears
So much hate has filled our ears
We taught ourselves from right and wrong
We learned from each others mistakes
With no guidance from our parents the decisions were ours to make
Dad got away and left us again
But mom gave in and let him back in
I don’t know if that’s something I can let go
Even though it happened long ago
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 1:03 AM UTC
I always stood up for you when people would decry
You made me believe you were different than most guys
How could I have been so stupid to believe in all your lies
You must of always been in disguise because I realized
I could never get past those beautiful brown eyes
After an outburst of cries and giving you a number of tries
You didn’t even have the decency to say goodbye
You have really became something I despise
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:44 AM UTC
As I lay my head on my pillow
I look outside my bedroom window
I see the slow falling snow
Gently drifting to the ground below
Covering the grass and trees
That once used to be so evergreen
Untouched and pristine
Making all that is different the same
What a beautiful scene it became
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:43 AM UTC
I know you think I’m being mean
But trust me I know what it was like being a teen
I’m just trying to watch out for you
I don’t want people to take advantage of you
I know you want to grow up and leave
But that’s just you being naive
I don’t want you to regret not getting to be a kid
Cause that’s exactly what I did
I know you’re trying to fit in
But just try to be more comfortable in your own skin
Life’s not all about how you look and what you wear
Materialistic things will get you nowhere
I’m writing you this to show you how much I care
If you need me I’m always there, I swear
Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 12:41 AM UTC