Such an irony. Now this investment really looks dumb. All those things I bought, did you keep any of them? Did you know how much it meant? Even after all this time, did you know what I did?
Working all those extra hours meant nothing. If you didn't grab my heart, I would be so much better now. Especially in those rough times where money seems to be tight.
I always told myself that it would be okay. That it was fine. I was making you happy, it was all that mattered to me. To see you smile and to never worry about anything.
Look who is worrying about it now. What a pathetic choice I made. I should have known that it would come back and haunt me
1d ago
Jun 2, 2026 at 11:28 PM UTC
Today was the day. A year ago I met you. We were so innocent, barely knowing each other, slowly falling in love. It was instant; it felt like fate. Immediately, I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.
How could you tell me all of that? How could you say that I meant nothing? Was our ritual this cheap? Was the moonlight illuminating our world this weak?
For the first time, I felt something truly break inside me. Even after I tried so hard just for our anniversary, just for our day. Nothing came out of it.
You are still the same as ever. I am done. I give up.
3d ago
May 31, 2026 at 7:58 PM UTC
Painful rejection, the way that you just gave me hope from a couple words. I knew to be better, but to fall for your breadcrumbs makes it even more devastating to deal with.
Showing you the journal that I used to keep for your eyes once more was my biggest mistake. I won't be vulnerable again with you. You break my heart each time. I should know by now.
Tired, very tired, so tired to deal with it. Dumb, so very dumb. Too dumb to listen to my brain instead of my heart. Forced to admit that I still feel some way, but I am the one standing in the ruins of our relationship.
You left the house to burn with me in it; I couldn't bring myself to pull myself out of it. In the process, I am burned out. In the process, I am an idiot for hoping to still have you close to me.
Six days until our anniversary. Six days until I can hopefully be free
May 25
May 25, 2026 at 9:14 PM UTC
Murky, heavy, this smell feels dreadful, this stench smells like death. Never in my life would I have thought I'd be the one producing it.
Chemical, toxic, unnatural. This room feels like a laboratory. All these drugs to **** the pain, and yet not a sign of a single relief.
While I fight for my life, the looming shadow of the person I love keeps popping into my mind. I want to tell her that I love her one more time. I want to hear her soft and delicate voice once more.
But I know I'll never get this privilege again. Seven days is all that is left. Seven days until the fated anniversary. I thought that we would celebrate it together, but it turns out I was already in an illusion from the start.
May 25
May 25, 2026 at 12:31 AM UTC
Proud, strong, peaceful. All by yourself, you were ready to face it all. Nothing could ever stop you.
Arrogant, cocky, boastful. You used to be able to laugh in the face of everyone without a care in the world.
Sad, depressed, weak. Now look what you have turned into. Was love really that worth it?
Chaotic, enraged, hateful. That's all you can feel after being treated this way. Left in the mud like a dead fish. Your heart was never meant to be open.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 2:58 PM UTC
Falling back into addiction, I need to get away, but I am trapped by my own body, I am trapped by my own feelings. Let me escape, let me be. I know I shouldn't be doing it. I know I shouldn't be begging.
You don't want it, you don't need it. Just heal your poisoned body, just heal your poisoned heart. Can't you see what you are doing? Can't you control yourself?
Those tears are real. Those aren't what you need. This pain is excruciating. This isn't what you need. Listen to me, I can't see myself in you any longer. You are not me; you are not us.
So many times you tried, so many times, but it's always the same. She will play with your heart, she's playing with your mind. Look at me; hear me. You are better than this. Stop it. Don't reach out again.
May 23
May 23, 2026 at 6:30 PM UTC
Cold, hard truth, it hit like a truck, and even harder in this state. You didn't care when I was mourning my family.
Why are you so set on breaking my heart? Each and every time, your words get sharper, your actions get meaner.
bro go to hell you say. I was seeking comfort in my sickness, but you just intensified the pain even more.
How could you wish that? Out of everything, out of all of it, this one hurts me the most.
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 10:59 PM UTC
Exhausted mind, broken heart, soulless life, blurry mind. Make it so that I can just forget it all. Make me forget, anything, I just need anything to take me out of it.
Loveless reality, meaningless goal, stupid fantasy. I tried giving my all for us, I worked each day for a better future, for you and for me.
Unhappy smile, intoxicated laugh, fake peace. Nothing could ever make me forget. One month, two months, three months. Where's the answer I have been seeking?
Time heals everything. What a bunch of ******** It was never true, a lie that I tried to believe in, a lie that I want to work. Never in my life have I clung more to an idea. Please time, take it all with you.
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 4:11 AM UTC
Stop me before I make another mistake, stop me before I regret it. This virus got the best of me. I shouldn't be surprised, but it still hurts.
Even when I tell you about my bare heart, you still decide to ignore everything I say.
Don't look at me, just tell me that you love me. Please tell me that you care for me. Anything would be better than just being treated like a stranger.
After all we went through. I don't care, just for today, when the world feels so painful, I need you by my side.
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 9:56 PM UTC
Bedridden, sick to the bone. Even in those moments, you are the only one I can think about. All by myself, no one to take care of me. Am I just doomed to be forever alone?
I don't get it. Is it just me that is unlucky? Is it just the world that hates me? God was never by my side. It was clear then, and it is clearer now.
Falling under this feeling, I want my mind to be dull. More than ever, I miss you. I thought about a grim future. I thought about the worst.
Would you be there if I were to be taken? If I were no longer in this world, would you mourn me? Or just stay silent and cold like you are currently
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 2:16 PM UTC