They say I am not me
Then who am I ?
They tell me to take the shoes from off my feet,
And throw them away
They ask me what I am wearing
I know they are mocking me
“Why is your hair in braids?”
“You are not the right shade”
They tell me to go wash my makeup off
That I can’t wear too much on my face
They tell me that’s not how a white girls suppose to dress
They tell me to act my race
They tell me to stop talking how I talk
Don’t I talk how everyone talks ?
Don’t I walk how everyone walks ?
They are trying to lock me in a box
Throw away the key that makes me,
Me
They try to make me change to fit in with society
They are creating my anxiety
Forcing my insobriety
An impropriety to my surroundings
So I won’t wear my ***** “white girl” hair out
I wont check out “American Indian” on my applications
“My skin is white”
“It’s too light”
So I can’t check my race ? Right ?
Society will be the destruction of my soul
A tsunami that gets drained by a black hole,
Whole
Another soul wasted,
The word “variety” with no meaning
Judgement with no ending
Was that too straight forward?
Was that not okay to say?
Why pay attention to your words when u can just pray it away
But praying does not fix it and make it okay
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 7:02 PM UTC
These friends are not my friends
But yet I’ve never known any others
I would catch a thousand bullets for them
Thinking that we would die for one another
These friends are not my friends
Finally realizing
while I die here
All alone
With these bullets penetrating my bones
Were the fun times not real ?
What happened within these years ?
I am slowly slipping away
Cold and afraid
Memories of the good old days
Tears reminding me of the pain
Loving them
Not noticing my ego is sprained
My heart is slowing down
I can’t give away too much love
theres too much pain
I guess I was easy
easy to dispose of
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 6:18 PM UTC
I see now
The lies you told
Just to fill your crown
touching her
Kissing her
Loving her
Breaking my heart
blood fills my chest
my gullible veins pop
Trying with everything I have left not to let the illusion stop
But
I see your true face
monster of hearts
You’ve played mine so well
So claim my body
But erase my mind
Just make it stop
I give up
for our souls
will forever be intertwined
Apr 8, 2020
Apr 8, 2020 at 3:49 AM UTC
The feeling of forever pulling me back to the night tear drops were falling from the sky
Drops filling the ears of our souls
As if the music was created just for us
You took my hand and said we would never part
My mind making you a beautiful form of art
Apr 8, 2020
Apr 8, 2020 at 3:47 AM UTC
Watch out!
this ground is sharp
my heart has turned into glass
you will cut yourself and never sleep
Stay clear from me
Because once you choose to walk this path
I cannot save you anymore
Watch out!
I am broken
and I cannot pick up the pieces
but if you look at the glass you can still see the memories
the love that I once gave
you can feel the passionate kisses
hear the music to the exotic dances
melt to the butterfly’s that laughed inside my stomach
Once in a while i’ll step on a piece of glass
and remember
trying to take it all in
I can’t
so i’ll break it again
and again
and again
until there are no memories at all
Dec 24, 2019
Dec 24, 2019 at 2:35 PM UTC
Like a bee
You were my wings
The thing in my life that made me fly
Made me laugh
Made me trust
Made us one
Flying with nothing holding us back
Breathing in the love that made us feel free
But you made the decision to sting
Listened to the other bees and cut off my wings
You made me love
Revived my trust
Just enough till you could make me bleed
You ripped off my beautiful stinger
Framed it in a glass for everyone to see
laughed with all your friends and humiliated me
What I thought once was destiny
Was the thing that ended up killing me
Jul 14, 2019
Jul 14, 2019 at 6:19 PM UTC
I’m lost in the dark
Cold
Shivering
And nobody is trying to find me
I’m alone
All alone
I’m trying to help myself but I can’t
MOVE!
But I can’t remember how
I’ve been here before
But now
It’s permanent
MONTHS
I have been here
Weak
Not able to get up
JUST GET UP AND RUN!
But I can’t..
Why can’t I run ?
CAN’T I REMEMBER HOW TO RUN?!?
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 4:27 AM UTC
You left me in the desert
It was dry
I felt dead
You were the water that had vanished
that I had longed for
I needed you
And you left me behind
So how can I go back to that desert?
Knowing how much it traumatized me
Remembering the pain I went through
Feeling my organs shut down
Drinking my own tears
So that I could drown
What if..
What if the water disappears again?
Decides I’m too dried up for its use
What if..
What if you leave me again ?
Apr 5, 2019
Apr 5, 2019 at 4:53 AM UTC
Don’t talk to me
Don’t say hi
Follow everyone else’s example
leave
without saying goodbye
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 2:22 AM UTC
At this moment I am happy
I never want you to leave
I know we are different
But thats just another ****
It’s been 6 months
That you’ve been away
The people of this country needs you right?
Or at least that’s what they say
I don’t know if I can handle this but for you I always will
I’m sad but I’ll be strong for you
These are just tears
I wonder how many people cry for you
or if they ever will
I mean YOU ARE fighting for them
Wouldn’t they care?
“Baby don’t leave me”
I don’t know if I can bare
“Baby don’t worry, I only have 6 more years”
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 12:33 PM UTC