Since I can't have you
I'll write essays
On Richard Gansey
The III
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 7:56 PM UTC
I haven't known you long enough
To be in this much hurt
And yet
You've gripped my heart
You won't let go
Even when you say
"I'm empty"
You say
"I have nothing"
You say
Except for your fingers drip
With my blood
My tears
Did you take those
Or did I hand them over?
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 7:53 PM UTC
I'm embarrassed that
All my poems are
About how I struggle
Over you
Over the past
Over you
How dare you?
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 7:48 PM UTC
You're the first person I've met
Who doesn't move their arm at night
You pulled me in and closed your eyes
Straight away fell asleep
There are no terrors in your nights
As certain as night brings slumber
The sun will rise again for you
If I could have a thread of that security
It would be warmer than any blanket
I've wrapped my lonely self in
Mar 4, 2019
Mar 4, 2019 at 7:46 PM UTC
i wrote you a letter
and now i stare at
it, terrified to let
it go, untrusting
of the mailman of,
the planes, of the
weather, of releasing
control
i have all these
chains. i wish you
could see me slowly
sawing away. one
day, love, i'll stand
on my feet
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 3:08 PM UTC
even if we never get
to touch again
do not think i won't
wish for it
in my desperate heart
nothing was braver
than you
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 2:51 PM UTC
shaking hands mean nothing
this is one of the things i've
learned
since being with you
don't look for things which
aren't there
like hope
or a future
everything will be fine
nothing is trembling
except my soul
trying to balance
on a mashed heart
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 2:49 PM UTC
I want to write
About suns and moons
Stars
Being strong
Of rising above it all
But
It always comes back
To you
And you
And sometimes you
Rage and grief
Confusion
Neuroticism
Jealousy
So
I'll start there
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 2:39 PM UTC