I’m such an awful person
And I’m so sorry
You deserve so much better
Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 1:02 PM UTC
The smell of cigarette ashes
is for me.
Musty, slow, deep and strong,
Breathe in gradually,
But breathe.
The scent reminds euphoria,
of smokers long past.
A past even more so.
So if you catch me breathing in deep,
When you let out a lung of smoke,
Remember I am just remembering.
Sep 24, 2013
Sep 24, 2013 at 2:04 PM UTC
It was my first time
In the city.
It was very loud,
And very crowded.
I was a grain of sand
In an ocean of salt water.
No one looked at me.
No one smiled.
I wandered aimlessly
Through the mass of people.
I bought a slice of pizza
That tasted like grease and tomatoes,
Leaving four dollars and 38 cents
In my pocket.
As I left the pizza place
I noticed a man.
He was very sad looking,
And horribly thin.
He was all alone
With only a plastic grocery bag.
I looked at him
And the city died.
My interest in buildings
And shops
And pavement,
Gone.
Lost in the broken eyes
Of one man.
I went up to him
And I said "hello."
He looked at me
And gave me a smile,
But his eyes were still empty.
I asked him
If I could give him a hug,
And it seemed that his eyes
Exploded.
He nodded yes,
And I took him in my arms.
He was very cold
Under two jackets
And the hot Boston sun.
As I pulled away,
He said to me
With tears in his eyes
"Thank you."
I simply extended my hand
With four dollars and 38 cents in it.
Sep 7, 2013
Sep 7, 2013 at 11:46 AM UTC
Can I have you?
Can I have your morning eyes
and late night yawns?
Can I have your deep sighs
after long days of work,
and joyous laughter
from watching your
favorite shows?
Can I have your frightening
holler when you’re angry,
and your low moans when
you feel pleasure?
Can I have the tears that
streak your face when
you’re down,
and the heart that beats
within you to keep you alive?
Can I have every part of you
Sep 1, 2013
Sep 1, 2013 at 10:30 PM UTC
I romanticized you
to the point where
the knives you pressed
into my skin
began to look
like Cupid’s arrow
Aug 16, 2013
Aug 16, 2013 at 12:03 AM UTC
They say it's
depression.
I say it's
not.
I am not sad
Or blue
Or even
Slightly
Despondent.
I am just
here.
Nothing.
E m p t y .
N u m b .
Jul 20, 2013
Jul 20, 2013 at 8:09 AM UTC
I remember a day
When you hurried over to me
In quite a rush.
"Have this."
And you extended your hand.
A single die fell into my palm.
It was cold, and hard, and a plain cube,
White, with 21 black dots on it.
Lifeless and inanimate,
It meant the world to me.
I remember a day
When you hurried over to me
In quite a rush.
"Have this."
And you extended your hand.
Your heart fell into my palm.
It was warm and barely beating,
A sloppy mass of tissue and life.
Broken and battered,
It meant the world to me.
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 3:06 AM UTC
If I am to never have love again,
To be plagued with the inability to love,
Do not let me be alone.
No, if I can not have love,
Let me have the next best thing.
Allow me the courtesy of building up a wall of your kisses,
Separating myself from the harsh reality.
Wrap me in oblivious arms as I close my blind eyes.
Pretend to love me, whisper me sweet nothings,
And I will return the lies.
I will be just as unloving and numb as you, my dear.
And we will pretend to be the happiest two you ever did see.
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 8:31 PM UTC
As the deposit in my shoulder begins loosening, visions of a paradisiacal oasis reveal themselves. I can almost hear the pina coladas being poured atop the pool bar’s island countertop. Cabana chairs, shaped like beds, perfectly host kissing parties within the nighttime’s ocean breeze. There are businessmen purchasing cigars outside of taxi stops and ******* within the depths of knick knack shops. Everybody’s stocking up for tonight’s white wrist band karaoke bash on the top floor of each and every all inclusive resort and nobody’s holding back any expenses.
“Where are we?” I ask.
“Dreams, visions, hopes.” replies the Preceptor.
Jun 30, 2013
Jun 30, 2013 at 5:37 PM UTC
and i think when they see me on that stage
they see something you could have been
had your sickness not swallowed you whole
and i think when they see the light hit my face
they see a beacon that illuminates the cages of
lost souls
and i think when they see me open my mouth
they see butterflies and bats and birds and brand new constellations
and i think when they look into my eyes
they see oceans and flowers and dreams of a child
waiting to be born.
Jun 23, 2013
Jun 23, 2013 at 12:52 PM UTC
