it's a pillow for me to rest on when I place my head on it.
it's my comfort for my anxiety when I stroke and pet it.
it's a warm ocean i swim in for fun and never bores me.
it's my distraction from the evils of the world when i stare at it.
it's my reminder that you're stunning no matter how hard you don't believe so.
it's a stimulation for my senses when I smell the luscious locks.
so brown, so course, so soft, like the mane of a horse.
it's just one of the minimal out of one hundred other monumental things.
I Love About You.
Jan 26, 2018
Jan 26, 2018 at 10:48 AM UTC
Your eyes swaddle me and keep me warm. They’re a warm ocean I dive into and when i emerge i’m saturated in your satisfying and nurturing love. Oh i love how your hugs make me feel protected from the apocalypse, as if God himself is the one and only thing that can rip me from your grasp. You’re warm soft fingers intertwined with mine remind me that i’m apart of something bigger than myself, bigger than this universe. I’m apart of your life and every time you speak my name a chill goes down my spine, lifts my body, and enhances all my senses so that I may feel, touch, taste, hear, and even smell the radiating adoration you have for me. Just to know that I’m something that crosses your mind is a privilege, a gift, and a blessing. I am so lucky. I don’t know why you share your animal crackers with me, but know that i will push you on the swing whenever your arm is broken. Know that whenever you get a cut i will always place a band aid on the bruise and kiss it to make it feel better. I will be your teddy bear and comfort you when the thoughts in your head get too much to handle. All because you shared your animal crackers. The animal crackers you’ll never get back, the ones you can never give to anyone else, the crackers that give you dangerous ownership of my heart but ownership you treat with respect. I’m a flower that you watered with your tears and you have full permission to pick me out of the ground at anytime but instead you choose to just watch me grow and admire my plump petals.
Our overwhelming love will last for eternity. All because you shared your animal crackers.
Jan 17, 2018
Jan 17, 2018 at 3:48 PM UTC
The heart wants what it wants right?
Well....the heart is an involuntary muscle working non stop without you even thinking about it. So therefore whatever the heart wants is not logically thought out and does not align with with reality. Your desire could be a fabrication and is pushed aside behind everything else that happens in the universe that actually matters and has significance. What the heart wants is not what you need and although it may feel as if you might die without it...you will live. Pain is nothing but the mind sending signals telling you to stop doing what is causing said pain. So stop chasing figments of your imagination.
Dec 13, 2017
Dec 13, 2017 at 3:55 PM UTC
Stop your lying, quit your hiding, I know you feel bad when you see me crying.
Don't act like you don't care because I know you do, stop pretending like all i am to you is a piece of gum stuck to the bottom of your shoe.
You're always watching and always listening but when it comes to confrontation, you become a ******* chicken.
You're confusing me, and that's not fair, I told you how I felt, and your false security is thick in the air.
I'm here for you, all you have to do is ask for me.
I love you...............but I'm not sure how much longer I can wait.
Nov 27, 2017
Nov 27, 2017 at 6:21 PM UTC
I wanna cry.
I hope I die.
I wish my soul would drift off into the ******* sky.
You wanna know why?
Because I'm way too tired to even try.
Nov 27, 2017
Nov 27, 2017 at 6:11 PM UTC
My eyes awake.
It's another day......
Another day of disappointment.
Another day of false confidence.
Another day of torment.
And another day of.....hey why don't I just not have today.
If I don't have today, pain will go away.....right?
No more isolation.
No more tears and prosecution.
If I take my life.....I'LL FINALLY BE FREE FROM IT!
No more dealing with ********
Only....I can't....
These people have.....imprisoned me in life......with all their "feelings" and "love".....
Well. I guess I'll live another day.
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 2:14 PM UTC
I fell for you.
Now I can't get up.
Who's to blame? You, me, or my undying love?
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 9:16 PM UTC
it's dark in there and i can not see.
when i step inside i feel like i'm drowning in a sea.
no one really wants me there but they say they do.
i know i'm in the wrong place.
why doesn't it work, what's wrong with me?
am i the problem, was i right? i am a mistake?
the people don't know they don't get it.
i know i'm not alone but mentally i am.
there is no one for me i can't explain why.
i want to leave but i'm required to stay.
can someone shine a light? i cant find my way.
i've lost my will i put myself in those who care...
those people aren't there.
they're just a figment of my imagination.
i'd like to think i'm important but it always stays the same.
i'm not compatible i'm just "nice".
it's a persona i put on to make people think they like me.
it's okay....i dont wanna fit in.
its no good anyway, once you're thrown out you see the truth.
the truth isn't as satisfying as i thought it would be...
is there a point in life? if there is i'd like to see.
this poem is probably trash, it's just high-school drama.
i tried to be something but........nothing works.
Oct 19, 2017
Oct 19, 2017 at 1:05 PM UTC
Friends see it and know it's a lie
A curve is what it is, not a sign of happiness you can't deny
Kind spirit kind heart, it shields you from my dark
Everyone suspects it's all okay until I let out my vicious bark
Saving isn't what I need what I need is something to stop this craving
Makes me crazy how much i crave the attention I keep escaping
I cry a selfish tear alone silently begging for someone to come
Let them near me, the second they care I start to run
Even I don't know what I want or what I mean
Send help please or soon this knife won't be clean
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 2:50 PM UTC
Secrets I'm holding.
My head it's hurting.
My friends, they're leaving.
My sanity, it's fading.
Reality, it's fleeting.
Trust....where is it?
You told me not to share.
That I'd be dead if I dared.
You're suicidal I have to, I care.
Don't you care if I cry?
If I tell people you need help you'll leave me scattered.
But if I don't.....your soul will be shattered...
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 12:05 PM UTC