Feelings driving me insane
You’re always on my mind
Do you ever notice me?
I’m here and you’re there
And I know it’s wrong to stare
But you said you didn’t care
So, I did it, I got lost in your eyes.
But you wanted to talk to other guys,
and feed me all those lies.
And to think I was in love with you once.
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 9:40 PM UTC
Hey, it was good to hear from you again
And I'm sorry I didn't say stay as my friend
And sorry that I didn't want to be holding your hand,
You need to let go
And yes I know
"I'll stay till my last breathe,
Even it's your death first".
Sorry to you and to us.
But this is a final goodbye to this,
So here have one last kiss.
Mwah
Mar 1, 2019
Mar 1, 2019 at 8:05 AM UTC
I wake up in the morning and
I look into the mirror wandering why I'm still alone
You used to be the most familiar face
And now you're gone
And I'm thinking back on all that
I've done trying to remember what I did wrong
But you know that I can't cause I did nothing to you, you just gave up
I'm curled up in the middle of the room,
sitting on my knees, my face in my hands, my heart begging please...
'Someone fill me up I'm incomplete'
And my daddy never liked you but you's still got along
He warned me bout you, but I thought he was wrong
Babe you had me fooled right from the start,
I hate you for breaking my heart
One day, one day I'll get you back.
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 6:29 PM UTC
Not a day goes by that i don't think about you,
Think about us,
Knowing how we thought our thoughts were true
Now wishing i could find that trust
Everything we had
Everything we were
Everything we weren't
You treated me like crap
But i loved you,
Wish you could see that still
You were my only,
My trooper,
My lover.
Now we can't even have a chat
Without lashing out at one another
You ****** with my brother (not a real brother, my best friend)
Now we can't even speak
Without lashing out at one another.
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 10:39 PM UTC
So many times I’ve faked
Many times I’ve held back,
I’ve been told
Lied about everything
Ending this with a smile more
Nov 1, 2018
Nov 1, 2018 at 12:47 AM UTC
You told me you loved me,
but you really mean it?
All those "You're the one to be"
How did i fall for that?
You fed me up on false
Making my heart pulse
Shoot like the stars in the sky.
I just don't know why
Why you lie?
About your love for me
Love for us
And all my trust is gone,
So is my heart that is torn.
Oct 24, 2018
Oct 24, 2018 at 9:45 PM UTC
If only you knew
How much I love you
And all the things that you do
I thought I might as well write a song
So, if something turns out wrong.
Baby you should understand
I want to be that man
Who can also hold your hand
I’ll be your number one fan
I just have one question for you now
Will you be my girl?
Wishing you knew
All the things I’d do
To be with you
In a heartbeat
To be that guy that can be your treat,
to walk next to your feet,
You don’t understand what you’ve done for me
You’ve made me think about things I forgot
I’d be there whether I had to travel by land or sea
Just to spend a day with you is a blessing
No need second guessing
Never can think of words to say
Afraid I’ll say something wrong
Even if it’s just for a song.
I fear losing you
My heart is begging for us
Even if you lose my trust
I’ll love you till the end of times
And I know this isn’t about to rhyme
But just hold on to me.
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 7:40 PM UTC
Cryin my eyes out, hurting
Grippin my pillow, lonely
Long, cold nights, unworthy
Lonely dark corners, safeplace
Missing that connection, broken
Thousands of thoughts channelling in my head, restless
Holding myself in unbalance, fearing
I’m me,
Expect I’m not, I’m not the thing I see in the mirror
I’m cold, dark, empty, a lost boy
Please find me
Before the real me is… gone
Love and hold me, don’t break this fragile soul,
I’m one in 7 billion, don’t lose me.
Please don’t abuse or misuse.
I’m cold and empty today,
And I’m just hoping you will stay.
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 7:30 PM UTC
Should have thought this through
It was too good to be true
And next thing I knew
I was in the hospital, completely blue,
Fighting for my life
Cause you stabbed 4 times with that knife
And left me to die,
I don’t want any goodbye
I just wanted to be happy
And I’m sorry, work made you ******
It doesn’t mean you take it out on me,
I was there to help you
Not to be your punching bag.
Now I’m in this bed
Breathing blood in through my lungs.
Is this where it ends?
Was warned by both our friends,
Didn’t listen cause my heart told me otherwise.
Should have thought twice
Your eyes blinded me with the embrace
And caught me off with a slow yet powerful pace,
Should’ve known the catch to this chase.
You lied to me every day and night
Even after we had a fight
“I love you, babe, sorry for the fright”
You didn’t frighten me till last week,
I guess that’s when works pressure hit its peak
So now you prey on the weak,
You snapped off the little birdies beak
Till that red started to leak.
You run to the kitchen,
And that where I sink,
Back into my bed,
Want to get you out of my head.
But my heart keeps pulling me closer to you,
Even after you pulled my hair and smashed my head till blue
I was stuck to you like a stick of glue
I should of ******* knew,
Us together was too good to be true.
And I ****** miss you.
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 6:22 AM UTC
It’s been 5 days
I’m still getting over the pain,
It hurts remembering your ways,
All the times you said “I love you”
and was blinding me with your blue
But I stuck to you like glue,
Next thing I knew you were asking for my body
Not in marriage but use,
I was afraid of the abuse
Told you no way,
I got the abuse I expected.
Punches to the stomach,
Thrown into the corner
This pain I can handle,
Cause my dad was like this.
The drinking controlled and brought out the evil
But you weren’t drinking the demons out
They were you,
You beat me down,
Smashed my head into the ground
Till no sound
Unconscious, light to no breathing.
You left me for dead
Right beside our bed.
But I still loved you.
Further and further we pulled apart
Yet you still had my heart,
I don’t know how you still had me
And how I couldn’t see.
You blinded with your presence,
Or was it just the absence
Or true love.
You fed me lies and ******** to keep us
And now I have zero trust
My heart falling to pieces like rust.
Here is my goodbye,
Thanks for those twisted lies
And for putting out my fire
I should of knew it was too good to be true
**** you.
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 11:48 PM UTC