BoBlue - Hello Poetry

I am glass. Glass is a strange thing. Thick enough It can with stand more pressure than most things can not Refusing to break It is strong. Transparent. Bullet proof even It lets all the light in And even more light out It can be smooth Beautiful However when damaged, As I am now It becomes weak in places So Fragile the wind can shatter it Thin and rough Holding itself together with cracks Trying not to show it’s chips. When burned, Glass turns black. Smokey Changing the transparency dark. No longer letting one see inside. Not showing what once shined through. Casting shadows on everything around it. Glass tries to trace the scars life has left behind. Tries covering those cracks. But they are forever Reminding glass that at one point, It fought for something. It believed in something Even if it left it scared, cracked. I am glass.

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Dec 4, 2019

Dec 4, 2019 at 8:06 PM UTC

The Difference

I am glass. Glass is a strange thing. Thick enough It can with stand more pressure than most things can not Refusing to break It is strong. Transparent. Bullet proof even It lets all the light in And even more light out It can be smooth Beautiful However when damaged, As I am now It becomes weak in places So Fragile the wind can shatter it Thin and rough Holding itself together with cracks Trying not to show it’s chips. When burned, Glass turns black. Smokey Changing the transparency dark. No longer letting one see inside. Not showing what once shined through. Casting shadows on everything around it. Glass tries to trace the scars life has left behind. Tries covering those cracks. But they are forever Reminding glass that at one point, It fought for something. It believed in something Even if it left it scared, cracked. I am glass.

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Mental Physical I want you wrapped around me I want your fingers between mine Your breath over my body Breathe life into me I beg you I want your name engraved on my lips Your sweetness covering every piece Molded together I need you Inside me, my mind, all of me Fill my missing parts Smooth my broken edges I surrender Put me back together with your body With your words Force me to be hole again Blow, break, burn, cool and make me new Wrap your name tight around my insides Brand me I can be what you need Never ending cravings I’ll fulfill your needs Euphoria I was born to make you feel it Mentally Physically

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Sep 15, 2019

Sep 15, 2019 at 5:28 PM UTC

Broken Edges

Mental Physical I want you wrapped around me I want your fingers between mine Your breath over my body Breathe life into me I beg you I want your name engraved on my lips Your sweetness covering every piece Molded together I need you Inside me, my mind, all of me Fill my missing parts Smooth my broken edges I surrender Put me back together with your body With your words Force me to be hole again Blow, break, burn, cool and make me new Wrap your name tight around my insides Brand me I can be what you need Never ending cravings I’ll fulfill your needs Euphoria I was born to make you feel it Mentally Physically

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And she whispered to the moon “You promised to stay wild with me. I didn’t know then, the wild would take you so far away from me. Don’t worry my love, I’ll carry your secrets until you return. Distance doesn’t break our bond. Forever is still to come.”

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Jul 13, 2019

Jul 13, 2019 at 8:50 PM UTC

She called him the moon

And she whispered to the moon “You promised to stay wild with me. I didn’t know then, the wild would take you so far away from me. Don’t worry my love, I’ll carry your secrets until you return. Distance doesn’t break our bond. Forever is still to come.”

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What I imagine Who I imagine That kept my heart safe It isn’t fair You were supposed to be happy I kept going Because you had a good life I was okay Because you got everything you wanted. I didn’t matter You mattered Above all, your happiness But now Now that I know the truth Who can survive that? How am I supposed to go on? Knowing you’re not a fraction Of the person You were supposed to be. How could you do this to me? Your smile is gone Your fire blown out Your light covered in shade Where are you now? How will I survive?

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Jul 12, 2019

Jul 12, 2019 at 11:30 AM UTC

What about now?

What I imagine Who I imagine That kept my heart safe It isn’t fair You were supposed to be happy I kept going Because you had a good life I was okay Because you got everything you wanted. I didn’t matter You mattered Above all, your happiness But now Now that I know the truth Who can survive that? How am I supposed to go on? Knowing you’re not a fraction Of the person You were supposed to be. How could you do this to me? Your smile is gone Your fire blown out Your light covered in shade Where are you now? How will I survive?

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I keep seeing Hawks On the way to work Souring through the sky On the way home Diving towards the earth I saw a Hawk outside my window Sitting on the neighbors roof I saw one at my parents house Perched beneath the trees Each Hawk looks right at me With little movement we lock eyes The Hawk knows me, Recognizes my soul Seeing a Hawk could mean many things Protection You need perspective Representation of a memory But overall It means following your intuition Intuition Intuition always leads me To you Then again Seeing a Hawk could also be a warning That evil is near Be aware and ready to defend yourself I guess when it comes To Hawks To You It means the same thing.

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Feb 9, 2019

Feb 9, 2019 at 8:50 AM UTC

Guided by a Hawk

I keep seeing Hawks On the way to work Souring through the sky On the way home Diving towards the earth I saw a Hawk outside my window Sitting on the neighbors roof I saw one at my parents house Perched beneath the trees Each Hawk looks right at me With little movement we lock eyes The Hawk knows me, Recognizes my soul Seeing a Hawk could mean many things Protection You need perspective Representation of a memory But overall It means following your intuition Intuition Intuition always leads me To you Then again Seeing a Hawk could also be a warning That evil is near Be aware and ready to defend yourself I guess when it comes To Hawks To You It means the same thing.

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Life never stopped, No matter what happened. Life never stopped moving forward. It didn’t care that I missed you. It didn’t matter That “my plans” were ruined So I moved on. I fought, When all I thought I was capable of Was falling to pieces. I fought. Life kicks you when you’re down You kick back I lost some days I lost some weeks but I never once gave up. Life doesn’t stop. So neither did I. It never allowed me to stop, I never thought I would get here But I’m thankful For both the grief and the grace.

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Nov 20, 2018

Nov 20, 2018 at 10:09 PM UTC

Grief and Grace

Life never stopped, No matter what happened. Life never stopped moving forward. It didn’t care that I missed you. It didn’t matter That “my plans” were ruined So I moved on. I fought, When all I thought I was capable of Was falling to pieces. I fought. Life kicks you when you’re down You kick back I lost some days I lost some weeks but I never once gave up. Life doesn’t stop. So neither did I. It never allowed me to stop, I never thought I would get here But I’m thankful For both the grief and the grace.

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He will never know He will never make me feel as you did He will never love me enough He will never know my soul I will never be mesmerized by him I will not love him as much as I once loved you Because that much love It no longer resides in me He will never get to experience it all I will always have that part of me hidden He’ll never see my truest smile Hear my fullest laugh My eyes will never shine as they did those years ago He’ll never know your girl Maybe that’s a good thing Maybe that’s just fair Because If he did If he new that version of me He’d know what a fraud I was That in your back pocket You still carry around my happiness Every piece of my heart. Every night my heart breaks for you No one even knows The people I know now They don’t even know you exist That we existed The fire we held between us. How incredible Incredibly sad People in my life That don’t know you That never will They never witnessed our beauty They never witnessed our fall from grace You are centuries away Miles upon miles Valleys and rivers divide us now Yet in the middle of the night I still close my eyes I pretend I can hear it Hear your car coming to take me away I meet you every single night In my dreams it worked out In my dreams we found our way back We always go back to our park I get the smallest taste of happiness again Waking up is excruciating But my heart has come accustomed I know how to push it down Shake it off and smile I know how to put you back in that box That’s where you stay in the daylight Wrapped tightly up in the smallest box I could find That’s how I survive I survive by settling My life is good I have a lot I am blessed upon blessed I am the happiest I could be The absolute happiest I could be Without you.

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Nov 16, 2018

Nov 16, 2018 at 11:22 PM UTC

The definition of Settling

He will never know He will never make me feel as you did He will never love me enough He will never know my soul I will never be mesmerized by him I will not love him as much as I once loved you Because that much love It no longer resides in me He will never get to experience it all I will always have that part of me hidden He’ll never see my truest smile Hear my fullest laugh My eyes will never shine as they did those years ago He’ll never know your girl Maybe that’s a good thing Maybe that’s just fair Because If he did If he new that version of me He’d know what a fraud I was That in your back pocket You still carry around my happiness Every piece of my heart. Every night my heart breaks for you No one even knows The people I know now They don’t even know you exist That we existed The fire we held between us. How incredible Incredibly sad People in my life That don’t know you That never will They never witnessed our beauty They never witnessed our fall from grace You are centuries away Miles upon miles Valleys and rivers divide us now Yet in the middle of the night I still close my eyes I pretend I can hear it Hear your car coming to take me away I meet you every single night In my dreams it worked out In my dreams we found our way back We always go back to our park I get the smallest taste of happiness again Waking up is excruciating But my heart has come accustomed I know how to push it down Shake it off and smile I know how to put you back in that box That’s where you stay in the daylight Wrapped tightly up in the smallest box I could find That’s how I survive I survive by settling My life is good I have a lot I am blessed upon blessed I am the happiest I could be The absolute happiest I could be Without you.

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I wonder What God values more How we treat others Or How we treat ourselves?

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Nov 14, 2018

Nov 14, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC

For you, anything

I wonder What God values more How we treat others Or How we treat ourselves?

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Therapy Is that all I am? All I will ever be? His therapy Never the one he’ll love Always the one he’ll run to Will you ever notice the storm behind my eyes? The best kind of therapy Used up but useless His therapy Never the one he’ll miss at night Always the one he’ll “need” come sun light Will you ever feel this heaviness in my soul? Destined to never be heard But always be listening Everyone’s therapy Fixing all your problems Forever your sounding board Morning, noon or night You could never be an inconvenience right? You’ll take all my advice Soak up every word Yet you’d drop my heart on to the ground Walk away Wipe your hands of the blood on your ***** jeans All you’ll ever want from me Is free therapy

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Aug 13, 2018

Aug 13, 2018 at 9:52 PM UTC

To you, I am.

Therapy Is that all I am? All I will ever be? His therapy Never the one he’ll love Always the one he’ll run to Will you ever notice the storm behind my eyes? The best kind of therapy Used up but useless His therapy Never the one he’ll miss at night Always the one he’ll “need” come sun light Will you ever feel this heaviness in my soul? Destined to never be heard But always be listening Everyone’s therapy Fixing all your problems Forever your sounding board Morning, noon or night You could never be an inconvenience right? You’ll take all my advice Soak up every word Yet you’d drop my heart on to the ground Walk away Wipe your hands of the blood on your ***** jeans All you’ll ever want from me Is free therapy

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It consumed my soul, Every single day Begun with you Ended with you You were so heavy to hold up, All this disappointment building inside Why wasn’t I enough? Why her? Or her? Or her? Each time I kept the pain to myself I told you I understood Mistakes happen right? You’d never hurt me again? I still “believed you loved me” I was so young back then A fire raged in my heart, Slowly burning it up You tore me apart I let you Because I actually loved you.

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Aug 12, 2018

Aug 12, 2018 at 8:39 PM UTC

First “Love”

It consumed my soul, Every single day Begun with you Ended with you You were so heavy to hold up, All this disappointment building inside Why wasn’t I enough? Why her? Or her? Or her? Each time I kept the pain to myself I told you I understood Mistakes happen right? You’d never hurt me again? I still “believed you loved me” I was so young back then A fire raged in my heart, Slowly burning it up You tore me apart I let you Because I actually loved you.

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