Nights used to be mom, brother, sister and dad
Now brother and sister have traded places with me
Nights are now mom, dad and me
Dads old school movies screaming in the background while mom scrolls through her social media and I work on an essay.
Dads bellowing laughs always bring me comfort
Oct 30, 2019
Oct 30, 2019 at 8:25 PM UTC
I feel like I'm tiring
Taking everyone's time,energy and oxygen
They promise I'm not
I don't think I believe in promises anymore
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 11:00 PM UTC
I've lost myself
I don't quite remember how
All I remember was looking in the mirror and regretting
What was it I regret
I can't remember anymore
All I know is that,
I don't understand
May 27, 2019
May 27, 2019 at 2:31 PM UTC
It's late at night; I'm supposed to be dreaming
I want so badly to go into the bliss of unconsciousness
I can't bring myself to
I've let a river of red flow once again while sloppy rain drops created puddles
I've done it again; its all my fault
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC
Things are much worse I presume
I cried a bit, cut a bit, and promised that I swear
It won't happen again
But I slipped again you see
I messed up and the blade went right to my hand
Like a magnet
There was a bit of blood not much I swear
But there were a lot of tears even so
So I guess today I cried a bit, cut a bit,
And broke a promise
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 5:55 PM UTC
He's gone
He's gone
He's gone
Was it my fault?
Was I too ugly and fat
Or too loud and daring
These are the things I wonder as I empty my stomach
So it won't be my fault again
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 7:34 PM UTC
I've made a mistake
I realized that starry night
It chanted in my head like people performing a ritual
Should I let it happen
Voice my chords
Be honest with myself
I couldn't be honest with myself
Because if I did
I would be admitting that I never stopped loving you
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 8:52 PM UTC
I just stopped.
Smiling
Laughing
Wearing a mask
They said I had changed, I'm no longer who I once was,
Really, I just stripped myself of my protection.
I put on a short sleeve shirt
Took off the bracelets, the fake smile
Stripped my vocal cords of that pained laugh
Let them witness my scars
They say to be you, show your pain
Why was I mocked for it then?
So I just gave up....
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 7:56 PM UTC
She was like a diamond hidden in rock
Hard to break through the rock but once you did
She was worth a million bucks
Dec 7, 2018
Dec 7, 2018 at 9:35 PM UTC
She wanted to be someone
Everyone said she couldn't
She wanted to save lives
Wanting to be important
She studied late at night
Trying to ace every test
Win every fight
She couldn't ace every test
Win every fight
She was the girl that tried to save every life
But could not save her own
Dec 7, 2018
Dec 7, 2018 at 9:29 PM UTC