And here i am again
Because the messes
Of "men"
Or people just in general.
Making me feel
Less than
Small.
For a good time
Gimme a call.
But not enough
In the long run.
There is no end game
There is no such thing
As
Soul on soul.
There is no
Taking care
There is no
Getting wrinkles
And growing old.
Trust is non existent
In this generation.
And love
Has become a
Foreign concept.
Speak in tongues
Of silence
When you think youre
Too much
Just shut the **** up!
Halt!
Dont go there!
Dont let them see
How fragile
You really are.
Questions
Come
With consequence.
God forbid
You
Say "too much"
"Too soon"
Too *******
In depth.
Deep diving
In to prisms
And prisons
Four walls
Confining.
When all you
Need
Is someone
To
Confide in.
I cant keep sky diving
Without a parachute
Free falling
To my death.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 3:37 AM UTC
I'm really trying
To play things
"Cool"
But alas
My emotions
Are taking control.
Every spark
Inside my bones
Misfiring.
Your kiss
Is electric,
Sending shivers
Down my spine and
Making my toes curl.
I have to catch my
Breath
Every time
You pull me in
For more.
Your hand
On my face
Like a puzzle
Ive never solved.
This feeling
Is a foreign
Language
I haven't
Quite learned.
Is this what
Its like
To be "reborn"
Ive died a thousand times
And I'd die
A thousand more
To hold on
To this
Euphoria.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 3:34 AM UTC
Too deep.
explosions of emotion
Pushing people away.
The test of time
To stay.
Vomiting words
To test limits,
A ticking
Time bomb.
Exploding brain waves.
Just stay
Just stay at arms length
Ok?
Or maybe come closer
Cuz this feeling
Flows through
My veins
Like the test of time.
Are you mine?
Will you stay for awhile?
This feeling scares me.
Complete new territory.
Its terrifying.
Nothing compares.
To anything
Ive ever felt
Before.
Your abundant blank
Stares
Pierce
My soul.
I cant hold your gaze
Too long
Cuz it feels like
Falling.
With no end in sight.
Stuck in outer
Space.
Shooting stars
Comets
And bright lights.
Every reason
To find the
Exit sign.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 3:32 AM UTC
There's no solidity
In silence.
The waves
Are
Crashing.
And
I'm constantly
Being ****** into
The current.
My boat has
Capsized
And I find myself
Drowning.
Suffocating
On thoughts of you.
Gasping for air
Between
Screaming
I'm sorry's
And the
Elusive thought
That
Its all my fault.
Addiction
Is easy to blame
When
You dont have
The backstory.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 3:27 AM UTC
Haven't posted here for a hot minute...which essentially is years apparently.. bare with me, my notes folder is filled with **** I need to add.
😅 gonna give you a taste of what's to come right now. Loading, loading, loading. Anddd go!
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 3:24 AM UTC
I want to reincarnate as a tree.
And have my limbs cut off
One
By
One
For evey time
My hearts been
Broken.
May 1, 2024
May 1, 2024 at 10:32 AM UTC
Seeing red again.
That eloquent drip
The first slice of skin.
Seeping sorrows syloquently sedudct me.
I dont want to exist in this universe
Anymore.
I'm surviving,
Purely
Out of spite.
May 1, 2024
May 1, 2024 at 10:32 AM UTC
Lack of sleep has me writing.
That mixed with jack and coca cola.
Sitting in the chaos of a bar.
Silent.
Writing.
This.
This is what I live for.
And I wonder why
I constantly hold on to people
Longer than I should.
I give too many chances.
I take too much abuse.
But there's this secret,
About me.
I'm addicted to pain.
So I surround myself with
People
Who just ******* destroy me.
And I keep coming back for more..
Like a good little girl.
Keep your mouth shut and ******* obey.
Pray.
Pray
To a higher ******* God than yourself,
For a change.
I pray every day.
Just to breathe.
I feel insane.
Like I said,
Lack of sleep.
I hope I breathe.
Tomorrow..
May 1, 2024
May 1, 2024 at 10:29 AM UTC
You'll think I'm all in,
When I'm really 1 foot out the door.
Building myself up,
So I can close it for good.
And lock it away.
Never looking back.
There is no going back
After this.
Hopes loves lost.
I believed you.
I believed in you. In us.
Only for you to betray my trust.
You're only after lust.
Hope you're happy with yourself.
You've lost the family we were building.
And for what?
Oct 14, 2023
Oct 14, 2023 at 4:50 AM UTC
I'm losing.
Again.
But the loss is drawn out.
Time is precious
Because all we have is the moments
Between when you found out you were dying
And the moment you'll forget me.
And I regret losing time.
I regret the nots
I regret the enoughs
When I should have kept my mouth shut.
I regret not having time
Enough.
Oct 14, 2023
Oct 14, 2023 at 4:46 AM UTC