My brain,
a mess, when u visually see;
it looks like a scrambled mess,
All the wires confused,
No messages seem to be getting through.
No sense is made, going backwards and forwards and everywhere inbetween.
I feel like my brain is full of wool,
tangled ball, a ball of wool.
Needs pulling through
Unwinding,
Writing,
Helps with this.
Enables a process.
Unwinds the tangled heaped mess.
As I write, the wool is being pulled out my head.
A finger on either side, carefully guiding it out,
Pulling the scramble from my brain, making it tidy again,
All the perfect colours are coming through; purple, pink orange and blue, these are the colours of the wool.
The colours of my heart come too, come oozing out in the wool.
It is being pulled so fast, I see pink, red, more red too.
It feels like I am bleeding for you.
Changes to Yellow bright in the sky, remembering all the beautiful times;
I hit a knot, then it turns black,
like being trapped in a dark scary spot.
The black continues, then its green, full of envy and jealousy, jealous of me, my friends and job. So sad, it really was.
I keep pulling at the wool;
the colours are coming, more sense is too;
unwinding the wool from between my ears.
Poetry such a beautiful art,
Feeling calmer now,
a sense of serene,
The feeling coming over me,
Thanks to my love of thee.
Dec 17, 2020
Dec 17, 2020 at 1:33 AM UTC
Beautiful
It hurts, cuts like a knife
**** like its worse...
I dance, feel free,
Feel beautiful
Look vile
Who cares
No emotional care
Emotions gone
Damaged
Closed
Wish for luck
Kindness
Patience
Ongoing
A beautiful person
You know you are
I want to love, hurts to much...the pain.
Stabs me in my veins, lightheaded...gone.
Gone again.
Who cares...
Couldn't give a ****
Pure *****
Sorry
Forever sorry
Dec 22, 2018
Dec 22, 2018 at 12:30 AM UTC
I feel passion,
Its all over me
Burning
Like fire
The injustice
People falling
The devils rising
The heat so hot
People panicking
Crash
Screaming
Crying
Injustice
Wounded
Let down
Lied to
Souls dying
Celebrate the life you live
Live it your way
Enjoy who you are
Be free
Mind body
And of course your
Soul
Jan 14, 2017
Jan 14, 2017 at 1:16 PM UTC
My minds eye is making a film,
It begins with you
Making a debut
Your velvet like skin
It makes me grin
I am in a spin
I see you **********
I embrace every curve
Your arms so strong
I take a detour
Imagining
The strength
As you bend me over
In front of you
Pulling me closer
And its sends
Shivers through me
Prickling every part
Butterflies fluttering
So high
You make me so shy
The film continues; our eyes
They collide
My eyes glide,
Gliding down
Slowly
Over
Every part
My heart
Stop, starts
They meet again
Our eyes
The passion in you is sea blue
Its see through
Excite me from within
You radiate
Pure passion
Its unexplainable
So sweet
My mind,
Takes hold,
cant breath
I watch you bathe
Watching all of you
Taking in
Your sparkling skin
Sparkles as bright as your eyes
Shining
even in the darkest night.
You give me your hand
Lead me in
I slide so high
With you
Our fireworks;
They begin
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 4:56 PM UTC
Acceptance is important
Accepting things will never change
Accepting the jealousy he feels for mum
Accepting this will never going away
Accepting he transfers the disappointment that he feels about himself onto to me
Accepting he listens to the witch and when He does
Sees me in a different way
Hears me in a different way
Misunderstands
Accepting he is unable to
Standstill
Alone
Accepting he will never stand up for his Children
He has already lost one to the witch
Accepting he needs to belong
To her
So he must agree
With her
Accepting you allow her to be so vile
To you
To every one
Accepting if the pain is explained
You fire
Like a spit fire
Rage, anger
Disappointment
Like darts to the heart
Accepting you allow her
To be your master
Jun 22, 2016
Jun 22, 2016 at 5:06 AM UTC
I knew you cheated
Found out today
Exactly how and in what way
You disgust me
At her baby's funeral too
Unbelievable
With him
What a sin
Disgusting
Makes me want to spew
Pure unadultared lies
Come out of you
But I knew
I knew in my body and my being
You knew I knew too
Unbelievable
You made it not be true
Made me
Mad
So sad
I knew, I felt it so bad
Your eyes they told the story
In shock at a loss
Confused
Bemused
Shouldnt be cause I knew
Saw through your eyes and into
Your lies
Why didn't I listen to my intuition
I realised recently
You were dark
But that dark
Please
Its true,
I am better off
Rid of you
Poison that you rattle round
Without a sound
But it does come out
Oozing out of every pore
You're be feeling it for sure
Bitter sweet
The day is today
It's the grand finale
We have finally parted
Emotionally
**** heartless
Extreme starckness
But no more darkness
The truth will set you free
You should try it maybe
Jun 13, 2016
Jun 13, 2016 at 6:34 AM UTC
Driving me wild
words running though
Day dreaming
Dreams
flying through my thighs
I want to devour,
brown beautiful eyes
eye to eye
Searching
feeling
the soul behind your eye;
Finding beauty
I want you to hold me,
Kiss me,
devour every inch
eyes
touch
mouth...
caressing slowly
Whisper to me,
describe
wonderful words
nibble on my ear
feel what I feel;
Come with me my dear
Souls combined
Rhythm is devine
I taste you
Flickering like a bird
over a berry
Moaning
Fireworks within
You ride me
I feel you, smooth
beautiful taste...
**** you
**** you
******* Immense
I want to
Consume you
Swallow you.
Grabbing all of you.
Push me
to euphoria
out of control
Arched
I let you take me
Higher
into your soul
You give to me
let me know
Noise
Animalistic
Hot
Dripping
*******
Exilerating
Two into one
how you turn me on....
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 10:49 AM UTC
Under your spell,
mesmorised
hypnotised
The deep low monotone
with a cute little giggle,
fascinating mind
free flowing
intriguing,
Aye
I want to understand
swim freely through your mind
And find
New thoughts
Inspiring my mind
opens up
the endless red vibes
Pouring through
My mind into my thighs
Pure desire
on fire.
You affect me like a vibrant flower
Opening to the sun
Seeing the light and feeling the heat
Touching without touching
Feeling without feeling
Magical
So much beauty is within
Beats playing
Gyrating
Sowing seeds
Oil dripping
Down,
Body's entwined
slowly gliding
Wet silky beautiful.
Rhythm increasing, slowly decreasing
Teasing
Sweet feeling...
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 9:35 AM UTC
The wonderful woman
Who would bash her head against the wall in pain,
Scream, agonising
Over why
Why her,
Why did she deserve the pain
The pain of her husband the love of her life
Doing it again...
This time he did it better and had a mate to play with her mind.
She was strong
Really now,
I know she disclosed
Such small things
Her love for me is immense
She wanted me to have what she had
Prayed for it
Prayed for us both
My sister chose a different path
Mum didn't agree
She wanted us to be loved
Equally
She knew it was possible and hoped
With every ounce
The pain we were in
Broke her
How did she find this man
marry him
be persuaded to have babies to him
For him to leave and abuse
Not just her; but she watched over as he destroyed her innocent babies.
We watched her fall apart
rebuild herself
Back together
All the while getting abuse
Watching us hope and pray with her
that
Eventually
He would realise
Wonderful woman you are to me
My beautiful mum
Jun 4, 2016
Jun 4, 2016 at 5:21 PM UTC
Why do you feel unloveable...you are a beautiful soul...so kind and giving to all that you meet. They don't appreciate what they have in you; the forgiveness you have shown to them all....its unreal. Protect yourself from harm now, please.
Its not the way you were born to be feeling unlovable....I understand they have broken you in two, lied to you and made you feel guilt for it all.
Its so wrong little lady because they are the ones who created you and should have protected u from pain, not created a stain, feelings of guilt, like ur not good enough.... You are...your perfectly perfect as you are.
They were wrong to put u in the middle, all you were trying to do was stop the pain, create love but you got accused of creating a mess, they misunderstood called you two faced...you weren't you loved them both and wanted them to be kind to each other and about each other...
That is definitely not too much to ask
Just because they didn't listen and thought you had bad intentions, you know the truth....it was done innocently because you wanted to be surrounded with love...like you were used to...
You didn't like the hate.
But its fine to have a distain of hatred and negativity.... You were not born this way...you were born to love not deal with misplaced hate that they felt about themselves.
Not born to take on the guilt in all that you do... Believe little one that you deserve to be loved unconditionally not disrespected, lied to, shouted at, ridiculed, bullied by the grown up witch, picked up and dropped often dependant on your reaction to the words of the witch.
Your dad was wrong in what he has done...he should never have made you second best, but its his loss as he will of lost so much of your kindness although he has basked in your forgiveness.
Your a beautiful soul, you know. Its OK not to agree, feel free, be who you want to be.
You are not unlovable little one, cause I love you, so very deeply, your amazingly strong.
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 12:55 PM UTC