And at the end of the day
We are all left our own devices
To plot the peaks and highs of our lives
And mend the bridges we have broken along the way
To destroy ourselves once more
Each day at dawn
And resurrect what has already begun to Decay
To follow the clock
On and on
And become mechanized thereupon
To wash off the scars
That have soaked in our skin
And look up to the stars
And pray that we do not wear too thin
But every now and again,
Through the cracks of the asphalt
And cement
A blossom will sprout.
And the clouds will begin to part
So that the forgiven misgivings and
Misfortunes of the past shine through
And when the world stops
And we are suspended in time
We are reminded of what is up above us
We are made to marvel
at the wonders of the Sky
Jul 30, 2015
Jul 30, 2015 at 11:09 AM UTC
I try to express you what I've been feeling
But this wretched rush is coming up my throat again
This must be you..
I need you to **** off.
******* *****
Should I swallow the bile In hopes it descends deeply and lies in the depths of my ever aching belly?
Or shall hack you up and spit you out and flush you down the drain
Then wash my hands of you?
My finger tips are stained with the nicotine that has been nursing my anxieties lately. How therapeutic these Cigarettes Have been to me.
Scorching my throat as the air fills my lungs
When my lungs finally do give out on me,
I will be numb.
I probably won't even feel it
I haven't been able to breathe in years.
Jul 1, 2015
Jul 1, 2015 at 12:59 PM UTC
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!
The alarm sounds
Yawn deeply and wipe the crust out of your eyes.
Tell your self today will be ok
That you can make it through the day,
if only this day.
Even if it may be your last day on earth,
In that moment;
between the precipice of wasting away
or facing those demons,
In that moment,
You are ready to take on world.
And you will not allow the sadness to get in the way.
Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 11:24 AM UTC
Awkwardly awkward
Awkwardly me
Walking at 4am
Through the treacherous streets
Equipped with mase
In hand and at ease
Awkwardly awkward
Awkwardly me
Lack of sleep
Lack of time
Nothing but madness
Madness of all kinds
Drearily drifting
Lonely, its true
Love that is lost
Dreaming of you
A mind of mine own
Don't worry I'm fine
Gone mad but still sane
A madness sublime
Not another to fathom
So blissfully sweet
Awkwardly awkward
Awkwardly me
Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 12:02 PM UTC
I've missed you here
I've missed you there
There's really no reason to
But I do.
I could never talk to you
You never really listened
But I miss you
Despite the distance
You were the closest thing to real
The furthest from good
But I miss you
Why? I never understood
But still I miss you and how we used to be
It was the best of times
It was the worst of times
The best type of pain
But I miss you
Despite the cold nights and rain
There's probably someone better that I haven't stumbled upon yet
But I miss you.
Jun 25, 2015
Jun 25, 2015 at 1:31 PM UTC
All this here
Has torn the curtains Of her mind.
In this,
The glass is broken, floors warped.
Distorted flashes plague my mind.
And Disfigured illusions play like a movie screen In the inner lids of my eyes.
I key the lock To my inner most thoughts
Only to find my sanity is at stake,
Nearly lost.
I tremble at my being dangling on a single thread
Oh my!
What terror!
Have I truly lost my head?
I am only escaped to tell thee
Archaic words
A literature of trust...
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 11:43 AM UTC
Undress you with my smile
Uncovering all of your secrets
Giving you more definition than ever
I ease inside your mind
to find the poetry
That you've been longing to pour out
Your mouth is wired shut
At a loss for words
But baby our brains feed together
Electric volts revive one another.
Jun 23, 2015
Jun 23, 2015 at 11:24 AM UTC
I am not the only one
Who when my back is turned,
Envisions monsters
With daggers in their hands
And a pool of blood on the floor
I am not the only one
Who sits in constant fear
That my name is being
Hacked up and spat
out of people's s mouths
I am not the only one
Who is a million pound barbell ****** upon my neighbors shoulders
Breaking them down
Day by day.
I am not the only one
I am not the only one
I am not the only one.
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 11:34 AM UTC
I am dying
To feel you crawl
Deep inside my veins
To pull them taunt
And play me a sweet melody
To smash my bones into powder
And place it under my nose
Inhale the mistakes and misgivings
I've brought upon myself
You,
Being the most important to me
The one that pulls me down
When I get too high
The one that keeps me manic
When I am too sane
The one that sleeps
With a gun
Against my tongue
To keep my words inside
Jun 17, 2015
Jun 17, 2015 at 12:34 PM UTC
I wish to
Float
Into your bloodstream
For a bit
I'm wondering
If I'll Flow along with it
Jun 15, 2015
Jun 15, 2015 at 11:20 AM UTC