
deer,
entangled,
deer with antlers touching,
us with horns,
hand in ochre hand
an ampersand.
you,
wearing the crown,
deer with antlers touching,
one head hanging
on,
you pull away
and im still here;
I end at the neck.
Apr 7, 2023
Apr 7, 2023 at 8:07 PM UTC
Are you home?
I want to beg you to sleep with me,
touch my hair,
my cheeks.
I don't think
you want me like I want you.
Nov 17, 2020
Nov 17, 2020 at 5:54 PM UTC
I want to say goodbye first this time,
can i hang up the phone on the giving end?
smash it down,
no ****** fingers or wincing.
If I cared less I could
i would've forgotten your name already,
if i could.
love is a wreck, always.
that's what it means, to be in pieces.
to love to absolute
*******
pieces.
Jun 2, 2020
Jun 2, 2020 at 10:28 PM UTC
I feel for you
halfheartedly,
over the phone.
Are you trying?
--
I'm in your t-shirt
pulling dreadfully at the creases in my sleep
burying myself so I cannot breathe
to seek some of last week's
comfort.
Maybe I don't want to be here if you're not.
--
I have been so lonely, 'I miss you' is the mouth of the well.
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 7:49 AM UTC
Closet cold,
no closure in the dark,
I wait and wait
in silence,
for some kind of
curtain call.
The dog sighs at my feet,
asleep rolling eyes around,
does anyone
see me at all
And would it matter
Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 7:32 AM UTC
A pair of shorts,
two cord strings entangled
and the pattern
my mother's hands shook
gently
to draw;
cities,
a landscape,
a cross.
"I have no eye for art,"
she'd say,
but my mother's hands
made something for him, a husband,
The Husband,
and he wore them for a while.
Perhaps childish,
the colours slightly faded,
maybe her devotion
embarrassed,
I don't know,
but he pushed them to the back
of the cupboard in a corner of their
bedroom.
My mother is unhappy,
she doesn't know it,
or why,
but maybe it has something to do with
those shorts on the shelf
collecting dust.
Jun 12, 2018
Jun 12, 2018 at 5:23 AM UTC
All we do
is say the same words
in a different order
in a different language.
I say,
I don't want to eat,
I say,
I hate myself
i say
i'm so tired
i say
i want to die.
Mar 8, 2018
Mar 8, 2018 at 9:32 PM UTC
Car rope whiplash,
the snap of my neck
to the right,
a crush of bones, a clatter
of clavicle,
all in a mash of brain fluid and grey matter.
I want to hate you when you tell me I'm beautiful
because I feel like
nothing.
I feel like flies buzzing
in a corpse.
Mar 8, 2018
Mar 8, 2018 at 9:28 PM UTC
the grey day
Beloved,
you and I at the cliffs,
holding hands over
a fervent sea.
You and I, autumnal rift,
pocketed by rocks,
swapping a storm
between our teeth.
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 5:44 PM UTC
I have nowhere to go,
afraid of my own home
and the creaks,
the way my mother looks at me,
a half starved love,
and my father with his scorn.
Do any of us sleep
besides him?
Keep our eyes open in the dark
for forming faces
over our heads.
He'll slip
like deadweight
into his reflection,
look at us like fleas and roaches,
to scurry at the sound
of footsteps.
Feb 12, 2018
Feb 12, 2018 at 10:59 PM UTC