She's been heart broken too many time before. I came in the picture, just another clone to her. She sees me, she sees heartbreak. I see her and I want to show her. I want to show her that I'm not like the women from her past. Yes,they were all an exquisite taste. Breathtaking but irresponsible with her heart. I can't say that I'm the right one for her. I don't know. What I am certain is the disservice she will be doing to herself if she doesn't see me standing there, in front of her, reaching out . Tick tock, clock is running out.
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 2:44 PM UTC
With aspiration and admiration, she was in love with me. She held me down and promised to be with me. She was everything i said I wanted. She was everything I was not ready for. I made her happy. I was her world. She could never get enough of me. Enough of us. My throat started to tighten up, I couldn't breathe. The feels were coming back, feels i didn't need. I was ready to give her my all. My mind and heart were in constant battle with each other. My mind would tell me to settle down, be the one to hold her down. My heart felt otherwise. As much as I tried, it wasn't right. I tried and tried again but to no avail, she was not mine.
Sep 3, 2017
Sep 3, 2017 at 10:52 AM UTC
It started with a note followed by a couple more. Next thing I knew I was wishing she would skip the 4th and come at me with some force. I was fifteen years young and feeling sprung. This feeling was new to me. She was 18 making me fall in love so quickly. I was just a kid not thinking adult things. Her and I was something so sweet and innocent. 10 months later my heart was broken for the first time ever. **** that **** was painful. She cheated and admitted that it was my teammate who She was dealing with
Aug 29, 2017
Aug 29, 2017 at 5:56 PM UTC
I caught you, you bounced so quickly I had to catch you on the rebound. There you were, coming up to me like you knew we would be. I should have stopped you at hello, I should have let the ball roll. Instead here I go again, catching you on the rebound, nothing new just someone new. You seemed cool, why wouldn't I fool with you. I was lonely and so were you. Now don't be mad, you knew where i stood and still stand.
Aug 28, 2017
Aug 28, 2017 at 5:20 PM UTC
How did I let this go for so long, you were the poison that ****** life out of me. I tried and tried some many times before to push you out the door but you kicked your way in. With every kick I felt the hits. I begged you please, just stay away. You begged me please, don't go away. You were poison. You had a problem and I couldn't fix it. I tried to save you but you wouldn't listen. 2 years later I see you still miss me, of course you do, I was always submissive.
Aug 28, 2017
Aug 28, 2017 at 4:52 PM UTC
t's a vibe; it's a common high. Here I go again, I see her eyes and I can tell her heart is pure and innocent. I can tell from the vibe that she's down to ride. As I lay here I realize that it's time to analyze these detailed situations I so recognized many times before. I have to slow down this time around. I can't rush this feeling based on my selfish needs. If the vibe is right, their is no need for lines of lies. With this vibe, I think I might let it be just that, a vibe.
Aug 28, 2017
Aug 28, 2017 at 3:25 AM UTC
I didn't understand how I went from one relationship to the next. I still don't know. I still don't know how I've told so many women I loved them but never really meant it though. I've got this 2 year itch I can't seem to get past it. I've gone from this to that like a **** game of chest but now I'm gasping. I would like to think that I brought some good to them but as I write this down, I know I was never for them. I'm a serial dater filled with commitment issues that I can't fix. Now I'm searching for my next fix like a drug addict looking for their next hit. I'm addicted to the thought of being in love and committed to someone who I already know doesn't deserve to find out the hurt they are about to endure. I'm a piece of **** Clearly I have too many issues that is hard to change or better yet, maintain.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 10:41 PM UTC
What's wrong with me? How have I become that person I said I would never be. Shame on me for trying to be someone who's attraction towards someone else has taken over me. Baby please, tell me who and why this has to be, is it me? Is it something I did to be dismissed. Baby please what's wrong with me? Oh **** wait, let me snap out of this funky state. Let me take a few steps back and comprehend. You know, grasp and mentally understand why I'm tripping on this ******** made believe. Ha, Yea I'm tripping so now I'm sipping on this liquid and reminding myself who I am and what she's missing.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 10:16 PM UTC
I'm hopeless.
Not hopelessly romantic just hopelessly attracted to the smile you shine upon a room. I know I'm no good for you but I can't stop lusting over you.
This feeling I'm trying to desperately shake off won't let my mind shut you off. Tell me, what is a girl like me suppose to do to brush you off? I'm already in lust, what else can go wrong. I'm hopeless. Hopelessly believing in a fairytale for us. I write this down and I can't help but smirk. I smirk because you'll never know that it's you Im hopeless for.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 10:02 PM UTC
I looked at you, you smiled at me. Let's play. I feel the need to redeem my last critique. Let's play. I asked you once, well maybe twice but you chose to tell me no. No? What an L that felt for someone pretty as me. Yes I'm that girl with no remorse. I'm that woman who's ready to roar. You're still telling me no? That's alright baby, you're just another girl.
Aug 26, 2017
Aug 26, 2017 at 10:33 PM UTC