AumaObure - Hello Poetry

Today, lowest moments of my life I needed a hug, your hug The only hug I got was called loneliness I needed comfort, your comfort Instead I was comforted by hope I needed to be showered, with your love But I'm showered by tears. I needed love Instead I tripped and fell in a pool of misery I needed you You bailed out on me I'm supposed to be composed and not break down I'm expected to not be mad, play "cool" Deep down, I feel like screaming Deep down I feel so alone I feel desperate. Desperate for your love. I wish you could show me love Even just a little bit Not just say it I wish you didn't say it instead I wish I could just feel it Honestly I don't . I don't. And it hurts my love It really hurts.

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Apr 9, 2021

Apr 9, 2021 at 12:34 PM UTC

I needed you

Today, lowest moments of my life I needed a hug, your hug The only hug I got was called loneliness I needed comfort, your comfort Instead I was comforted by hope I needed to be showered, with your love But I'm showered by tears. I needed love Instead I tripped and fell in a pool of misery I needed you You bailed out on me I'm supposed to be composed and not break down I'm expected to not be mad, play "cool" Deep down, I feel like screaming Deep down I feel so alone I feel desperate. Desperate for your love. I wish you could show me love Even just a little bit Not just say it I wish you didn't say it instead I wish I could just feel it Honestly I don't . I don't. And it hurts my love It really hurts.

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Talking to you gave me strength Strength to face anything Talking to you brought me happiness I was always in a good mood Nothing seemed to stress me at all Coz we'd talk it out and you'd make me feel lighter. Talking to you everyday made days look like seconds. I don't know where the chain broke I'd fix it Tell me what to do and I'll do it It just ended We are now strangers I long to talk to youlike before But you seeem distant. Like it was all a lie Or .... Or .. Was it just a moment to pass Are you tired of this hopeless romantic nagging person Trying to pull you back Trying to fix us Has taken everything from me My pride, dignity, self worth, ego,strength, happiness Maybe it's time I'm not ready yet, so just board I'll take the next train- If I ever get ready on time.

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Jun 29, 2020

Jun 29, 2020 at 2:52 PM UTC

I'm not ready!

Talking to you gave me strength Strength to face anything Talking to you brought me happiness I was always in a good mood Nothing seemed to stress me at all Coz we'd talk it out and you'd make me feel lighter. Talking to you everyday made days look like seconds. I don't know where the chain broke I'd fix it Tell me what to do and I'll do it It just ended We are now strangers I long to talk to youlike before But you seeem distant. Like it was all a lie Or .... Or .. Was it just a moment to pass Are you tired of this hopeless romantic nagging person Trying to pull you back Trying to fix us Has taken everything from me My pride, dignity, self worth, ego,strength, happiness Maybe it's time I'm not ready yet, so just board I'll take the next train- If I ever get ready on time.

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“I don’t understand” We have all said this word deluged by indignation, disconcertment, while we wallow in our drunken state of stupefaction. Questions keep buzzing in our heads as we ‘try to understand’ how it all happened and why. The conundrum comes in because deep down, we don’t want to hear the truth. The pain is too much, you don’t want more pain. You want the pain to stop, something to make you feel better but nothing seems to be helping. Somehow, we knew it was going to happen but denial blindfolded us. How do you move on from such dismay? When our hearts are deep into the possession of abnegation? We keep pushing, with hopes that we will mend this shipwreck Our cup of tolerance inundating to every slip we take. We find war, where there's peace, and pain where there's feast. Our hearts are conked out from tries to rejuvenate the sparks Nothing seems to work right, nothing feels potential anymore Our hopes melt into disparity, clinging on to nothing but fakes. I still don't understand, I don't get it, How did we fall right to this point?

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Jun 29, 2020

Jun 29, 2020 at 2:50 PM UTC

"I don't understand"

“I don’t understand” We have all said this word deluged by indignation, disconcertment, while we wallow in our drunken state of stupefaction. Questions keep buzzing in our heads as we ‘try to understand’ how it all happened and why. The conundrum comes in because deep down, we don’t want to hear the truth. The pain is too much, you don’t want more pain. You want the pain to stop, something to make you feel better but nothing seems to be helping. Somehow, we knew it was going to happen but denial blindfolded us. How do you move on from such dismay? When our hearts are deep into the possession of abnegation? We keep pushing, with hopes that we will mend this shipwreck Our cup of tolerance inundating to every slip we take. We find war, where there's peace, and pain where there's feast. Our hearts are conked out from tries to rejuvenate the sparks Nothing seems to work right, nothing feels potential anymore Our hopes melt into disparity, clinging on to nothing but fakes. I still don't understand, I don't get it, How did we fall right to this point?

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Yet another cold night Curled up with my head completely covered under the duvet My feet folding firmly to the back resting it's cold self on my buttocks Hoping to find some warmth My left arm making an acute angle, Forming a resting place for my head as my right fingers struggle to put down my thoughts.. Thoughts of you gives me shivers Goosbumps beautifully displayed on my arms .....

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Jun 29, 2020

Jun 29, 2020 at 2:49 PM UTC

Can we complete this poem together.

Yet another cold night Curled up with my head completely covered under the duvet My feet folding firmly to the back resting it's cold self on my buttocks Hoping to find some warmth My left arm making an acute angle, Forming a resting place for my head as my right fingers struggle to put down my thoughts.. Thoughts of you gives me shivers Goosbumps beautifully displayed on my arms .....

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Even the strongest breakdown Human nature catches up with them They try to hide their tears They say I'm strong. How can that be? When I feel suffocated with my own breath I feel cold, and empty and alone Even in a room full of people I put on a mask everytime. I'm tired of masking I'm tired of wearing that version It kills me inside. This is the only place I can be myself. The only place that feels like home The only place, I let tears flow I'm trying...I'm trying. G-o-d...I.I.I I'm try- - -

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Feb 4, 2020

Feb 4, 2020 at 11:09 AM UTC

I ain't that strong.

Even the strongest breakdown Human nature catches up with them They try to hide their tears They say I'm strong. How can that be? When I feel suffocated with my own breath I feel cold, and empty and alone Even in a room full of people I put on a mask everytime. I'm tired of masking I'm tired of wearing that version It kills me inside. This is the only place I can be myself. The only place that feels like home The only place, I let tears flow I'm trying...I'm trying. G-o-d...I.I.I I'm try- - -

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I don't feel sad I don't feel empty I don't feel angry I don't feel the void I don't feel depressed I don't feel unwanted I appreciate you being in my life With on and off breakups This last one had me reflect There's more to life than you There's more to me than you. There's more to happiness than sadness. Peace.

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Feb 3, 2020

Feb 3, 2020 at 5:38 PM UTC

Awake!!

I don't feel sad I don't feel empty I don't feel angry I don't feel the void I don't feel depressed I don't feel unwanted I appreciate you being in my life With on and off breakups This last one had me reflect There's more to life than you There's more to me than you. There's more to happiness than sadness. Peace.

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Dear God Allow me to eat the way he's eating Allow me to sleep the way he's sleeping Allow me to be unbothered the way he's unbothered Allow me to be normal the way he is Please. It's unfair.

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Feb 1, 2020

Feb 1, 2020 at 4:31 PM UTC

Dear God

Dear God Allow me to eat the way he's eating Allow me to sleep the way he's sleeping Allow me to be unbothered the way he's unbothered Allow me to be normal the way he is Please. It's unfair.

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Staring at a picture of us The longer I stare, the blurrier it gets My eyes are watery with tears I try to hold back, I try to stay strong I ask myself so many questions Are you even half human? Do I really deserve this? How do you love? Is this your way? Are you even bothered? God, give me a reflection A reflection of this man's heart. Is it a human heart? You've hurt me so deeply. This is deeper than any other. I can't pretend this time. I'm hurt, I'm crying I'm hurt, God, this hurts.

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Jan 31, 2020

Jan 31, 2020 at 12:41 PM UTC

I'm hurt! I'm hurt!

Staring at a picture of us The longer I stare, the blurrier it gets My eyes are watery with tears I try to hold back, I try to stay strong I ask myself so many questions Are you even half human? Do I really deserve this? How do you love? Is this your way? Are you even bothered? God, give me a reflection A reflection of this man's heart. Is it a human heart? You've hurt me so deeply. This is deeper than any other. I can't pretend this time. I'm hurt, I'm crying I'm hurt, God, this hurts.

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Feeling your breathe on my neck through and through, arousing my feelings and desires Desires I knew wouldn't be met by the end of the day Feelings I knew wouldn't be expressed are that time Sliding your fingers through my thighs, For a moment I thought I had worn a wet pant The wetness was something I would have loved to explore further, But that too wasn't possible. Am left with unexplored feelings, desires. Once again.

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Sep 10, 2019

Sep 10, 2019 at 2:53 PM UTC

Desires..

Feeling your breathe on my neck through and through, arousing my feelings and desires Desires I knew wouldn't be met by the end of the day Feelings I knew wouldn't be expressed are that time Sliding your fingers through my thighs, For a moment I thought I had worn a wet pant The wetness was something I would have loved to explore further, But that too wasn't possible. Am left with unexplored feelings, desires. Once again.

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What did I ever do wrong to you, That you keep hurting me Over and over and over I am patient with you I never ask for explanations, Explanations for stood up dates Explanations for unreturned calls Explanations for texts that go un answered. I love you! Probably more than a person should Do you even think about me at all? After standing me up on dates Are you even bothered at all at the thought of texts I sent and you didn't reply Do you even get the urge to return my calls at all Why, why do you do this to me Am sorry if I did anything unforgivable Am sorry if I ever hurt you Am sorry you in this relationship Am sorry that you strain to be with me I know I've tried my best, done my best I know I have loved you, still do,so much I know I have given you your space, Sorry if you felt am too much I have to hold back my tears Coz, I have cried so much, so much This love, that I feel for you is killing me When I die, don't even bring your breath to my funeral.

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Sep 10, 2019

Sep 10, 2019 at 2:52 PM UTC

Writing from the heart

What did I ever do wrong to you, That you keep hurting me Over and over and over I am patient with you I never ask for explanations, Explanations for stood up dates Explanations for unreturned calls Explanations for texts that go un answered. I love you! Probably more than a person should Do you even think about me at all? After standing me up on dates Are you even bothered at all at the thought of texts I sent and you didn't reply Do you even get the urge to return my calls at all Why, why do you do this to me Am sorry if I did anything unforgivable Am sorry if I ever hurt you Am sorry you in this relationship Am sorry that you strain to be with me I know I've tried my best, done my best I know I have loved you, still do,so much I know I have given you your space, Sorry if you felt am too much I have to hold back my tears Coz, I have cried so much, so much This love, that I feel for you is killing me When I die, don't even bring your breath to my funeral.

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