I thought I had it figured out
I thought I was finally there
I wasn’t aware that I escaped a maze
Only to enter another maze
Why cant I love my self enough
To respect my soul
That aches for a rest,
I was mistaken
I am the flowers and the water.
Only with me I bloom
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 4:06 AM UTC
And all the things that once made us alive
Eventually fades
Sad how everything must come to an end
All the memories and all the love we shared
What a waste, it’s all in vain
Nothing is forever all we have is now
And now is pointless, why do we even try?
But one thing is for sure
You cant have it all
Enjoy the happy ones, before the dark ones come along.
Aug 20, 2019
Aug 20, 2019 at 3:35 PM UTC
I’m here
Alive
I write
To leave a mark
That this pain
Is within me
I’ll die
I’ll be forgotten
My words
Will cease to exist
A proof
That I once
Was here.
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 5:00 PM UTC
Will I ever be enough?
In a world that praises perfection
Will I ever be what you want?
With every flaw I have
And every bleeding scar
Would you take me as a whole?
Would you water this dying flower?
Would you make me bloom?
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 10:53 AM UTC
In the way you look I saw misery
In every touch i felt the warmth
You cant be this cold inside
I saw the love in your eyes
Why wont you surrender to me
I can be everything you need
Just give me the word I seek
I’m by your side, I’d never leave
For all the love I have, its yours to keep
Cause I just cant be a fool
Who gave up her forever dream
Aug 12, 2019
Aug 12, 2019 at 11:53 AM UTC
Its been a while since I held my pen and wrote
It was a very difficult, long bumpy road
Nothing seems to matter anymore
Its a never ending cycle oh I’m sure
And the lie I keep telling my self
“Tomorrow is a better day”?
Oh what a waste of time when everything is gray.
Aug 9, 2019
Aug 9, 2019 at 6:38 AM UTC
I lost the ability to cry
Even when I shut my self away and try
I just can’t shed a single tear
why did you leave me with all this fear?
I thought you really loved me
Boy I was mistaken
I gave you all I could give
And now you say you just can’t forgive
In the world of your misory I was a prisoner
Suffocated me so long til I got addicted to it
And now you sat me free wondering
Have He ever loved me or I’m just fooling
My self to stay at peace.
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 6:50 PM UTC
It was one of those days, when you just sit there staring at the object in front of you.
While your mind is wandering: “What did I do to deserve to feel this way” you say to yourself.
How can everything go great and in one second it all falls apart.
Life has taught me so many things, life has taught me to never raise my hope, it was the only way to avoid getting hurt.
I was so good on my own I had everything figured out, thats what I at least thought.
Then you appeared out of the blue.
An angelic face is what I saw.
I worked so hard to build that wall, I had my self shut away.
Then you came with your sledgehammer and demolished my wall.
I desired you like you were the last man on earth.
I wanted you so bad that walking over sharp bricks didn’t bother a bit.
I was there facing you, holding your hand at last ... I never felt so alive.
Only then I did the biggest mistake of my life “I raised my hope again” cause with you I felt like I wanna face my fears.
“All good at last” is what I said while I was drowning in your features and having glimpses of our future.
I thought all is well, till you pushed me and started building your own wall.
I wrecked that wall, I walked over the sharp bricks again my legs started bleeding but I didn’t care, but you built it again and I wrecked it over & over again until my legs couldn’t function anymore.
I fell on my knees begged you to take those steps for me.
But the last image I have of you is your back getting further and further away.
“I took million of steps for you but you couldn’t take one step for me”
Now am here staring at this object and getting ready to build that wall again
I wish I didn’t have to.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 3:19 PM UTC
I cant keep doing this
Whats the point of owning your heart when everything is a mess.
You say you love me but you make me feel like ****
Every time we have a talk you just ******* lose it
They say you cant harm a heart you love
Does that make you a liar?
Or you do what you want cause you know I wont lose my desire
You got used to me always coming back
cause the idea of losing you gave me a heart attack
But I promise you I wont always be around
My absence will fill your lungs till the day you drown
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 4:14 PM UTC