I was free... Floating in a careless ocean. Swallowed up by every sweet lie you ever told me. Such a vast beautiful love to be in. You were the ocean of the deepest love I ever found.
But the more truth unraveled the more it was ******* that ocean dry and the closer I got to your deepest trenches. Now I'm left standing here in your dirt dry ocean. Looking over your darkness that you have made so cloudy and unsure of what is real. In desperation you closed the surface of your deep dark holes. You might fool yourself as to them being gone... But even if they are, I'm left here in the middle of your desert that once was a beautiful ocean.
How is it that I can be standing in the middle of a desert yet everything inside of me is telling me I'm drowning?
Mar 6, 2014
Mar 6, 2014 at 3:02 PM UTC
My eyes close
I'm holding onto
my memories
and hatred.
my slumber
all alone in my head...
so silent.
I can't explain the way
my tears run blood along my veins
if I let go of my pain
I'll cease to be, give into the plague...
war is coming,
I can hear it in my heart
blood will flow
along the grounds of the innocent,
I can't deceive
the darkness anymore...
I'm letting go, I'm losing control of myself...
you beat me down,
so low and now
I'm crying my soul
I'm losing control.
you led me to
a place where I
can't feel my face...
death is just an anesthetic
for what's to come
a body left behind with no face
feeling numb
all alone I cry here
fading into nothing
all alone I lie here
dying...
....Losing my mind...
Mar 6, 2014
Mar 6, 2014 at 2:30 PM UTC
Every feeling left unsaid
Every lie left untold
It's eating away at our hearts
Eating out are very souls
Don't tell me what you said
Silence is the key that breaks
Left to destruction every
Feeling that we make
I might as well die now
Would it matter if I left?
Would you notice what I've said?
Every sentence that you've kept
Nothing true is ever said
There is falseness in your breath
This pain that we can feel
Will only end in
Death.
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 11:38 AM UTC
I scream, I cut, I cry
Some days I don't know why
But here I am
Asking for you ma'am
To help me.
To help me see
Fight for another day
Instead of slowly fading away
Without you I'd be gone
Without you feels so wrong
I need you mom
To show me the way.
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 12:32 PM UTC
Open your eyes
Just to have them closed once again
Don't want control
As it takes me down & down again
Is that the moon lie
Or just a light that lights this dead end street?
Is that you there? Or just another demon that I meet?
... & I shake as i take it in let the show begin!
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 12:23 PM UTC