As I looked out the door and saw her.. I was scared. Its been a while since we got along and seeing what I could've stopped hurt me so much. She was so upset about everything that happened.. If I just didn't add to that fire then there wouldn't have been any fire. Why did she run out? I mean if she lived she would have still gone to jail with the rest of us either way. I couldn't see how much pain she was in until..I saw her dead. But now its too late. I'll be alone forever. What will I do? I never had another friend like her? I loved her so much. I'm scared she still hates me. I'm scared I will always be lonely. I'm scared I will never feel happy again. All I know is that if she died because of me then the best thing I could do for her to forgive me is to die. I'm not sure if she will like that but I'm tired of feeling this much sadness. I deserve it but I deserve to be sad with Nalia. Dying won't make me sad. It will make me realize I should've done it sooner.
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 11:22 AM UTC
What was your reason? You hurt me because you were fine now. You left me because you got bored of me. I should've seen the signs since they beginning. I didn't have any friends and when you were there you were embarrassed to me around me. The person who bullied me for years wasn't even like that. I still like the person who bullied me because no matter how rude she was I know that she did it because she was trying to survive in this world. Her own home didn't allow her to breathe. That was her reason. I'm not even justifying what she did to me but your reason....? Yours was because you NEED attention. Apparently I couldn't give you that much even though nothing was ever about me. My bully needed to survive. You got bored of me. You made me realize why the quote "Keep your friends close but enemies closer" is true. Thanks a lot my "friend"
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 12:53 PM UTC