Yes to everything
Yes to nothing
Yes to half
Yes to more than I expected
Yes to a burp
Yes to a laugh
Yes to sinkholes of fear
Yes to mountains of shame
Yes to stars made of fury
Yes to constellations of pain
Yes to a few hours of breathing
Yes to one to a thousand sighs
Yes to whatever waits for me
Behind the curtains of my eyes
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 6:55 PM UTC
Space-time is full of holes,
and that is why we're friends
I've got holes too,
fiery red one-way portals to infinity
Ripped through the fabric of reality
by the sheer weight of this thing itself
Space-time is full of holes
No longer stars, they hurl themselves
Across the body of the cosmos
Eating matter so fast
It burns red as it crosses
Into the event horizon
This particular bundle of star stuff
Has a black hole in its chest
Memories burn red
As they pass into the event horizon
Backward through isness
On a one way ride to infinity
Einstein balked
when he conceived of such malevolence
At first, he tried to deny it
And for this, I cannot blame him
I have done the very same
A hole in reality is no easy thing
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 12:52 PM UTC
This is for the seekers
The ones who meet
In the Great Big Nothingness
That has replaced our heads
I love you with understanding
And that is my favorite kind
This is for the ones
Who smoke and drink with gusto
After months in the cave
Who laugh as long as they cry
And do both so much of both
It all mixes together
For those who derive meaning
From the fact that there is none
Who set fire to their home
Just to see the moon
I love you with understanding
And that is my favorite kind
Let play a game
You plunge the sharpest parts
of your brain
Directly into mine
And I'll do the same
For you
Next, let's swap hearts
our darkest parts
We’ll tremble and sway
Groan but won't pray
Just hold space
Just stay
It feels the same when I'm alone
And when you are watching
It's more exciting than God
That's it, that I, the shine behind your eyes
I love you with understanding,
and that's my favorite kind
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 12:51 PM UTC
Dear guru
I see you
Pouring sugar on their wounds
I get it
But don't equate silence with salt
I'd believe you more often
If you'd admit you don't know
We may know who and what we are
But not why, and not how
We still do not know
What the **** is going on
I heard a story once
About an infinite love
That created a hole
just to fill it
I think that is a silly story
Beautiful, yes,
but not enough to be true
It scratches the itch,
but does not cure it
If we're ever going to meet the mystery
I suspect well need to learn
How to say goodbye forever
And how to sit with questions
for just as long
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 5:43 PM UTC
I met god, and she is a mushroom
She played the piano in my chest
Her giant Hammers hit my heartstrings
And never once did she let me rest
She played her frantic, tragic, magic, song
until I told her I was ready to die
I saw fireworks as she finished playing
I saw my shadow and started to cry
I curled up like I was before all this started
That's when she hit me with the love
I died that day and I didn't mind
Because It's done more than enough
I met god, and she is a mushroom
Or maybe it's just me that I met
Does that mean that I’m god
but I'm so terribly flawed
Well that is the best joke yet
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 5:03 PM UTC
For now
my tears drop only
when the inside of my face
fills with a holy perspiration
that collects with a musical tension
right until the ******
when the drops become too heavy
to cling to the ceiling
of my mind's eye
they fall into the grass
that wiggles my toes
and that's all I can handle
For now
Sep 15, 2018
Sep 15, 2018 at 6:46 PM UTC
Pain came to mind
But not to heart
In my chest was only
The small still voice
Of unconditional Love.
I cannot believe they convinced me
That Awareness gets jealous
I cannot believe they convinced me
That God was someone else.
For the first time I worry
That I may have hurt my enemies
And I am surprised to learn
That I have forgiven them.
In the mirror
I see only that which sees
I like what I see
And so does he
So we set up chairs
Cross our legs
And behold in each other
That in which we abide
Within ourselves.
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 5:05 PM UTC
Did you know
you can dance
even when you're sad?
It may seem inappropriate
to shake your hips
while your heart is exploding
But I swear-
some of my best dances
I did with my heart in a sling
and my soul in a cast.
Draw an invisible circle on any surface,
turn up music that flies in the face of your sorrow
and give it up to the sky
The worst that will happen?
you'll break a sweat
The best?
try it for yourself
moonwalk through your despair
and get back to me.
Dance.
Even when you're sad.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
The long grass flows in waves,
rippling in the suns rays,
that travel down to me.
My young mind flies,
as my old body lies,
in a soft, grassy sea.
Arriving took a while,
it was worth every mile,
now I rest my sore bones.
Listen to the chorus,
of the lively forest,
where my happiness roams.
My breath joins the breeze,
gently rustling the leaves,
of a kindly old oak tree.
I close my eyes,
feel my chest fall and rise,
how nice it is, to simply be!
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 10:16 PM UTC
The ‘Moment Of Truth’ came
I sat, alone, next to
The birds nest
It was silent
I was silent
I watched my breath walk
And then came the pain.
A smile.
The breath continued
attitudes arose
and their throats were slit
With Uncle Tejjy’s razor
We continued
It continued
And there was no problem
Tears,
And the bird left the nest
Empty.
Jun 18, 2018
Jun 18, 2018 at 12:47 PM UTC