What do I do
You're not here anymore
My rock is gone
I no longer hear your laugh anymore
Instead, I hear tears hitting the floor
I can't hold you in my arms
But now you're in the stars
Goodbye is painful, but it must be said
But I know one day I'll see you again
My love and my greatest friend
Oct 7, 2022
Oct 7, 2022 at 10:15 PM UTC
This is Me
I have been knocked down and passed over so many times
It's hard to figure out if I should keep fighting, or ignore it all and more on
People have told me that I'm not good enough
That I will never be enough
That I will fail
That I will never achieve my dreams
But they are wrong
I'm not going to give up
I'm not going to give in
I'm not going to let them win
I'm not going to let them tell me that I'm not good enough
I'm going to decide that
ME
NOT Them
I'm not going to let them tell me my dreams will fail
Maybe they feel that way because they don't dream big enough
This is MY life
I will live it by MY rule
And with every breath I take, I will fight
I will fight for a better tomorrow
I will fight for a better today
I will fight for who I am
I will fight for my dreams
I will fight to keep going
Just because I have been knocked down countless times, doesn't mean I have given up
It means I will have the strength to get up again and move on
My failure does not define me
My past does not define me
The only person who can define me, is me
Only I can make the choices that I make
Only I can learn from my past so I can make a better future for myself
Only I can decide whether or not I'm worthy
Only I can decide whether or not my dreams will fail
Only I can decide whether or not this is all worth it
After all
This is MY life
And I REFUSE to let any other people live it for me
Oct 7, 2022
Oct 7, 2022 at 10:14 PM UTC
Just so you know
I will always be here
A text
A call
And I’ll be there
Until one day
I finally say goodbye
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 10:18 PM UTC
Again and again
Out of control
Don’t know why
Emotions run wild
No remorse
No regret
Saying things you’ll never forget
Mar 4, 2021
Mar 4, 2021 at 9:58 AM UTC
Remember all those nights
The big arguments over small things
The good days and the bad
The smiles and the tears
The “hi” and then “goodbye”
The **** you” and “I love you too”
Remember that night months ago
I poured my heart out to you
Tears running down my face
Begging you to say “I love you, it’s going to be okay”
Instead, you said no
I broke you
You broke me
We shattered each other
Now it’s time to say goodbye
Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 7:04 PM UTC
It comes when you least expect it
The pain
The hurt
The sorrow
You can’t breathe
Can’t think straight
Can’t even fight how you feel
All you feel is pain
All you feel is hurt
All you feel is alone
Surrounded by people
Surrounded by laughter
Surrounded by joy
You feel nothing
No happiness
No joy
Nothing
All you can think of is the river
The river flowing red
Your grip
Your hurt
Your sorrow
It always happens when you least expect it
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 8:23 PM UTC
The hurt
The pain
The tears
They won’t go away
She’s tried to make it stop, but that only makes it worse
The feeling stays
The pain intensifies
The tears won’t stop flowing
She’s drowning
No one see it
She’s hurting
No one noticed
She’s crying out for help
No ones listening
She’s shattered like glass
No one wants to help pick up the broken pieces
So that’s how she stays
Hurting
Crying
Drowning
Shattered
And watching the world pass her by
Jan 19, 2020
Jan 19, 2020 at 4:16 PM UTC
Is it normal to feel so alone, even when you’re surrounded by people
Is it normal to want to be close to someone, but keep them at a safe distance so you don’t risk getting hurt again
Is it normal to start caring for someone, and then see them leave without a goodbye
Is it normal to pour your heart out to someone and then have them throw it back in your face
Is it normal to want to live your life to the fullest, yet still feel empty inside
Is it normal to be healing, but always still feel like you’re broken
Is it normal to hate someone, but still want to love them
Is it normal to see life going so fast, and start to wish that it would just stop
Is it normal to feel so many of your emotions, but wish that you could feel nothing at all instead
Is all of this normal?
Jan 17, 2020
Jan 17, 2020 at 2:10 PM UTC
It’s broken
My heart
It was yours from day one
Now it feels ripped apart
Torn to pieces
Thrown aside
Waiting for someone who will try to fix it
They can try
But it will never be the same
It’ll be mended, but never whole
They can try to get me to feel better
But you’re the only one who can do that
You made me smile in ways no one else could
Laugh even when I didn’t want to
And love, even when me heart was cold as ice
You melted my frozen heart
Even when I was sure no one could
But you could
And you did
So why?
Why did you play with my emotions?
Why do you get mad when we don’t see eye to eye?
Why did I give you my heart?
Did you just want something to play with?
Someone you could mess with and then leave?
Did I mean anything to you?
Anything at all?
Or was I just a phase
Something just to help you pass the time until something better came along?
I guess so
I should’ve known better
I refused to see the signs
I wanted it to be you
I had hoped it would be you
But I was wrong about you.....again
I guess I’ll never learn
My heart will stay in pieces
Until you decide to come and fix it the way only you can
Because you were the one who broke me in the first place
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 7:57 PM UTC
Give me one good reason
One good reason to fight when it feels like I can’t
One good reason to get up and face the odds
One good reason not to give up and let them win
One good reason to forgive those who have hurt me countless times
One good reason to let go of my last and fight for my future
One good reason to move on
One good reason to find a solution to all the hurt I feel
One good reason to love those who I feel like can’t be loved
One good reason to trust those who have betrayed me
One good reason
That’s all I’m asking for
......Just one
Can you give it to me?
Just one good reason will be enough for me
So please, give me one
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 7:39 PM UTC