it happened again
i relapsed
i never thought that it would happen
i seemed much better
but one single sentence
made me relapse
spirling into thoughts
only the blade could handle
May 26
May 26, 2026 at 9:03 AM UTC
So for once in my life, let me, let me, let me get what i want this time. Lord knows it would be the first time.
I want you back. i wish you would see that
i miss how you used to look at me
when we make eye contact,
it feels like you already know what I'm going to say.
i need you in my life and you know you need me in it too.
so what if we made up?
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 2:18 PM UTC
we made eye contact when you were in the hallway
walking towards my classroom
i smiled to myself, thinking of you
but i realized
it will never happen
not once,
not even in a million years.
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 7:17 PM UTC
I'm so glad you're my best friend
even though i'm a little bit crazy.
Thanks for being there when i tried to **** myself
for the third time
and you talked me out of it
thanks for letting me cry on your shoulder
when i needed to
thanks for ******** out all the rude boys and the mean girls
because i would do the same
you're my light that i look forward to seeing
and im so glad god put you in my life
so i can talk to you
your the bestest best friend i've ever had
even though i can be annoying and mean
i love you so much
and i know you're ever going to quit being
my best friend
when you turn 16, we'll drive around
with new freedom
but in the best way possible.
when we graduate, we need to get a picture of us holding our high school diplomas
with big smiles on our faces
saying we made it
out of there together, with little to no scratches.
in the future,
you'll be my maid of honor
and the aunt to my kids
and my therapist.
you'll be the one i talk to the most still
and even though they say you never talk to the friends you made in high school,
we'll be friends until the day we die.
May 16
May 16, 2026 at 4:39 PM UTC
you're all i think about when im alone
and all i dream about
i talk about you all the time
and im so glad your mine
May 15
May 15, 2026 at 10:31 AM UTC
whats so bad about being 17?
people say its life changing
and sometimes they say its terrible
but really, 17 isn't as bad as people probably think
i mean, its an age people turn
and they hate on for no reason
May 7
May 7, 2026 at 3:29 PM UTC
We have the same name
but people don't make a face when you're mentioned
We have the same name, but you're better than me
You're blond,
and you play the piano.
You also play the flute and piccolo
You do sports
like track, cross country,
and basketball
You went to state for your flute
and i got jealous
because if my name is Anna too
then why aren't i as good as you?
They always choose you
because they forget i exist
so i just sit here,
left out
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 11:52 AM UTC
I woke up early to shower
and i went downstairs
my grandpa was up early
and i got a hug
It's nice
when he wakes up early
I love to give him hugs
before i go to school
He makes my day better
just by being alive
I love you, grandpa
and im so glad i've gotten to live with you and grandma
for eleven years
even though its been hard
and i haven't been the best
i love you guys so much
May 6
May 6, 2026 at 10:06 AM UTC
This summer is going to be my summer
I'm going to spend more time outside
and I'll get a job
Maybe even get my licence
so i can see my friends
I'll get super tan
like i used to
I'll go to my church camp and have fun
Become more in touch with God
and have better faith
Before my sister gets married, spend more time with her
read more books
and maybe even take a few pictures
I might get into shape,
like start running.
I could also listen to more music
Maybe even clean my room for once
But this is going to be
My Summer
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 4:16 PM UTC
no matter how bad my day is
talking to you, even for a minute,
is the best part of my day
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 3:03 PM UTC