I feel like I have spent my life trying to keep steady on shifting sand
Never being able to relax and take a full breath
Never being able to feel like I've found a home for body or soul
Will I ever find a place to plant my feet safely?
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 2:57 AM UTC
I sit by your side and feel the creep of panic set it
I can feel myself getting distracted and feeling more than I should
More than I'm allowed
I try desperately to push it down
Pretend my heart is cold
I seem to forget that you aren't an option
You don't want this
Want me
My silly heart is going to shatter me and I can't seem to stop it
Jul 12, 2024
Jul 12, 2024 at 9:18 PM UTC
Loving you is like holding a dandelion in a storm
I cup my hands and try to keep you safe
The wind takes pieces of you away from me with every gentle breathe
Until there is simply nothing left to hold onto
Jul 8, 2024
Jul 8, 2024 at 10:27 PM UTC
I think I lost myself along the way
I spent so long putting you back together that I somehow missed that I was taking bits of myself to fill in your cracks
What is holding me together?
I simply don't know anymore
Jul 8, 2024
Jul 8, 2024 at 10:25 PM UTC
It's easy to forget I have feelings
I bury them so deep I lose all my words until it feels like I never had anything to say in the first place
Jul 8, 2024
Jul 8, 2024 at 9:12 PM UTC
Falling in love feels a lot like falling apart and falling together over and over again
Apr 24, 2021
Apr 24, 2021 at 8:32 AM UTC
Today you pulled me into you and pressed your mouth softly against my head
Your hands warm and solid against my back
Your laugh cut through my chest and I fell in love with you
I don't think I'll ever tell you but it scares me
I want to tell you to jump with me
That you'll be okay with yourself and it's okay to find that happiness in yourself while you find it with me
But I can't push this
I wish you could see what I do
But for now I'll love you and let you give yourself what you need
It's a shame for now that isn't going to be me
Apr 23, 2021
Apr 23, 2021 at 6:46 AM UTC
You gave me just enough oxygen to light myself on fire
Apr 17, 2021
Apr 17, 2021 at 8:46 AM UTC
I'm sitting in my kitchen
It's dark and I feel alone
You're in my bed so close but I feel so disconnected to your sleeping mind right now
Do you think about everything I think about?
What could be or how it could fall apart?
How your fingers don't touch me the same way theirs do?
Or how your voice brings calm to my mind like nobody else could
You might be my happy place and I hope it doesn't scare you
I wish I knew what you thought about this
About us
Maybe one day you'll tell me
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 9:43 AM UTC
When you're with me all I think about is you
How you touch me
How you taste
Your sweet words comforting me and softening my chest
But when you're gone my mind pulls it all apart
Tearing the memory apart until I'm sure I was in it alone
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 9:35 AM UTC