AmyCassidyKurohoshie - Hello Poetry

I do not want you to cry Most of you Crying at my grave I don´t even know just yet At least so I hope Still, I do not want you to cry I want to die old Surrounded by family Surrounded by friends Well knowing what I did With a proud smile I want to part From my body At least for this life I want you to laugh To remember And yes... If you feel like it You may cry Though not forever Life keeps going on We have no choice No say It´s better that way I don´t know when I don´t know how I just want you to know No matter who will be there That I was proud And happy I am now I shall always be

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Nov 29, 2020

Nov 29, 2020 at 3:28 PM UTC

After Me

I do not want you to cry Most of you Crying at my grave I don´t even know just yet At least so I hope Still, I do not want you to cry I want to die old Surrounded by family Surrounded by friends Well knowing what I did With a proud smile I want to part From my body At least for this life I want you to laugh To remember And yes... If you feel like it You may cry Though not forever Life keeps going on We have no choice No say It´s better that way I don´t know when I don´t know how I just want you to know No matter who will be there That I was proud And happy I am now I shall always be

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A reflection of the self The bathroom mirror shows so much more Her eyes An ocean trapped in an endless storm Marks of heavy tears below And sleepless nights Her lips Kissed by cherries Smiling hurts some days Sobs kept falling out of it Her skin A desolate winter night The sun was always avoided The night was her only friend Her hair Colored in the same shade as the trees Sometimes short, sometimes long The bangs always straight She is beautiful Not even broken Just bent A reflection of the self The view I give myself shows so much more

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Nov 25, 2020

Nov 25, 2020 at 4:46 PM UTC

What Do You See?

A reflection of the self The bathroom mirror shows so much more Her eyes An ocean trapped in an endless storm Marks of heavy tears below And sleepless nights Her lips Kissed by cherries Smiling hurts some days Sobs kept falling out of it Her skin A desolate winter night The sun was always avoided The night was her only friend Her hair Colored in the same shade as the trees Sometimes short, sometimes long The bangs always straight She is beautiful Not even broken Just bent A reflection of the self The view I give myself shows so much more

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Time never stops For no one You can´t keep living in the past Expecting a bright future Death is close Will you dance with him? The end is the beginning Will you embrace it? You cannot run You cannot hide It will keep haunting you Until you cut all the ties The past is not your home Not anymore Let it go Or you will be drowned

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 10:00 AM UTC

Cut All Ties

Time never stops For no one You can´t keep living in the past Expecting a bright future Death is close Will you dance with him? The end is the beginning Will you embrace it? You cannot run You cannot hide It will keep haunting you Until you cut all the ties The past is not your home Not anymore Let it go Or you will be drowned

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Your inner child Is still afraid Is still wanting to play The monsters in the wardrobe The most lovely doll It´s still waiting for you Into the depth of your mind Sometimes it calls out to you But you won´t listen Only your dreams Offer ashore For the forgotten waves What will you do? Is it right, is it wrong You may wonder Where is the line? There is none There is just you And yourself Don´t suffocate yourself Others had done it enough It´s time to raise Not out of the ashes But out of the water instead Go another way And maybe you will be blessed By a children's laugh

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 10:00 AM UTC

Your Inner Child

Your inner child Is still afraid Is still wanting to play The monsters in the wardrobe The most lovely doll It´s still waiting for you Into the depth of your mind Sometimes it calls out to you But you won´t listen Only your dreams Offer ashore For the forgotten waves What will you do? Is it right, is it wrong You may wonder Where is the line? There is none There is just you And yourself Don´t suffocate yourself Others had done it enough It´s time to raise Not out of the ashes But out of the water instead Go another way And maybe you will be blessed By a children's laugh

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,,Do not cry“ But what if I want to? ,,Behave“ But what if I don´t want to? I always tried to hold back my tears My mind full of voices Which tried to blame me My feelings always drowned In the fear of displeasing others It might be my last challenge I am worthy Worthy to feel Worthy to show I will cry, scream and weep In their faces Sadness will be my guest For a moment For a day For a week As long as it takes I won´t swallow any more I will spit it all out No matter if you like it or not So take my tears Take my smile It will be different tomorrow Nothing stays the same I refuse to hide my change I refuse to hide my emotions You may leave if you dislike it Because I won´t give up on my path I won´t give up on my choices

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:58 AM UTC

My Tears Are Valid

,,Do not cry“ But what if I want to? ,,Behave“ But what if I don´t want to? I always tried to hold back my tears My mind full of voices Which tried to blame me My feelings always drowned In the fear of displeasing others It might be my last challenge I am worthy Worthy to feel Worthy to show I will cry, scream and weep In their faces Sadness will be my guest For a moment For a day For a week As long as it takes I won´t swallow any more I will spit it all out No matter if you like it or not So take my tears Take my smile It will be different tomorrow Nothing stays the same I refuse to hide my change I refuse to hide my emotions You may leave if you dislike it Because I won´t give up on my path I won´t give up on my choices

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I did not Nothing ever made sense to me Why would they do that Why would they say that I never felt like they felt I never spoke as they spoke It felt unfitting, unwanted There was always a wall between us Nothing I tried to built Just something which appeared Scars always seemed to tell a story A story I was interested in Until I carried them on my own Suddenly they felt heavy Heavier then they looked on others I thought they would make you strong They do But they are also a burden And always will be Nothing will ever let them disappear You can just learn to live with them That´s just part of life, I guess Still, I wonder why me

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:56 AM UTC

Did You Listen?

I did not Nothing ever made sense to me Why would they do that Why would they say that I never felt like they felt I never spoke as they spoke It felt unfitting, unwanted There was always a wall between us Nothing I tried to built Just something which appeared Scars always seemed to tell a story A story I was interested in Until I carried them on my own Suddenly they felt heavy Heavier then they looked on others I thought they would make you strong They do But they are also a burden And always will be Nothing will ever let them disappear You can just learn to live with them That´s just part of life, I guess Still, I wonder why me

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All I ever waited for I always waited in vain Nothing I desired Was meant to be in the end Meant to be mine Is there something wrong with me? Nothing and no one Ever could comfort my burning soul I learned to live with it It belongs to me, I accept it Though some nights I wonder How it would be To be listened to and understood To be comforted and held Like rain So sad and yet so beautiful A gloomy day Wrapped up in endless hope An endless disappointment Still, I pray My voice doesn´t even shake anymore It feels like everything is ignoring my existence Fate Oh what hate I felt towards you Ever since I can remember I tried to love you But I doubt you wanted me to A month of success But for who? My name seems to be missing On every single list Like I am outside the circle Maybe it should make me proud Maybe I should cry Or laugh But all I can think of is silence

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:54 AM UTC

Fate

All I ever waited for I always waited in vain Nothing I desired Was meant to be in the end Meant to be mine Is there something wrong with me? Nothing and no one Ever could comfort my burning soul I learned to live with it It belongs to me, I accept it Though some nights I wonder How it would be To be listened to and understood To be comforted and held Like rain So sad and yet so beautiful A gloomy day Wrapped up in endless hope An endless disappointment Still, I pray My voice doesn´t even shake anymore It feels like everything is ignoring my existence Fate Oh what hate I felt towards you Ever since I can remember I tried to love you But I doubt you wanted me to A month of success But for who? My name seems to be missing On every single list Like I am outside the circle Maybe it should make me proud Maybe I should cry Or laugh But all I can think of is silence

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How can you judge With your eyes alone? I do not care for your colorful shoes Nor your expensive jacket Even less for that long car Why would you? Is it truly all we wish for Something to please the eye with? Does it bring you more pleasure? Then a talk about the stars? I want a connection Not just attraction The excitement to meet someone new Often melts away after a day Maybe after a date I want more I want to see beyond your soul Tell me what you miss What you hope for Your story is what I long after Not your empty shell

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:53 AM UTC

No Longing

How can you judge With your eyes alone? I do not care for your colorful shoes Nor your expensive jacket Even less for that long car Why would you? Is it truly all we wish for Something to please the eye with? Does it bring you more pleasure? Then a talk about the stars? I want a connection Not just attraction The excitement to meet someone new Often melts away after a day Maybe after a date I want more I want to see beyond your soul Tell me what you miss What you hope for Your story is what I long after Not your empty shell

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It stares back at me A reflection I long thought of my own Too blind to see I cannot fix myself through you You kept adding cracks Refusing to care for yourself Ignoring your duties And pushing your problems on me Like a plague Your words sought my heart I kept tried to smile Believing you were too young Too young to understand Yet the voice inside Kept telling me the truth That it had to end No matter how far it would go Like everything in life It was no use It was no good You had to leave One way or another I ignored my own cracks for too long There is nothing I regret But maybe the last days I could have been free Way earlier than this The big stage wasn´t meant for us We both did mistakes in this play But I won´t give up Not yet at least I still have enough breath For another play All on my own Without your toxic thoughts Without you adding cracks to me A clear mirror Old but fixed Reflecting my movements This life Until another

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:39 AM UTC

Your Broken Mirror

It stares back at me A reflection I long thought of my own Too blind to see I cannot fix myself through you You kept adding cracks Refusing to care for yourself Ignoring your duties And pushing your problems on me Like a plague Your words sought my heart I kept tried to smile Believing you were too young Too young to understand Yet the voice inside Kept telling me the truth That it had to end No matter how far it would go Like everything in life It was no use It was no good You had to leave One way or another I ignored my own cracks for too long There is nothing I regret But maybe the last days I could have been free Way earlier than this The big stage wasn´t meant for us We both did mistakes in this play But I won´t give up Not yet at least I still have enough breath For another play All on my own Without your toxic thoughts Without you adding cracks to me A clear mirror Old but fixed Reflecting my movements This life Until another

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Connection All we ever wished for Since we can think of A soft touch A hearty laugh All meant for us Loneliness doesn´t suit the pretty face Neither does tears Still, it´s a part of life You cannot avoid it It all returns to you For you to cry during the night Staring at the ceiling Wondering where you went wrong Nowhere to go Nowhere to hide Yet you might feel at home Because you keep hoping A feeling more powerful than time It made you what you are You should be proud Instead of frowning at your reflection In the bathroom mirror Your body carried you Your mind shaped you Even without a friend Even without a partner It is you A choice to make Wherever you like seeing the tears Or reject their existence In the end It all comes back to you

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Nov 19, 2020

Nov 19, 2020 at 9:37 AM UTC

A Desire Old As Time

Connection All we ever wished for Since we can think of A soft touch A hearty laugh All meant for us Loneliness doesn´t suit the pretty face Neither does tears Still, it´s a part of life You cannot avoid it It all returns to you For you to cry during the night Staring at the ceiling Wondering where you went wrong Nowhere to go Nowhere to hide Yet you might feel at home Because you keep hoping A feeling more powerful than time It made you what you are You should be proud Instead of frowning at your reflection In the bathroom mirror Your body carried you Your mind shaped you Even without a friend Even without a partner It is you A choice to make Wherever you like seeing the tears Or reject their existence In the end It all comes back to you

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