Isn't it so funny how the things might change,
Only in a moment somehow,
And yes, that makes me so ******* really rage,
But all the things are different now.
And I thought the moving to California could save my life,
But I was wrong and now I'm falling, falling down in my past,
Don't want trying to get back to the one who I was,
'Cause I'm still broken and need someone really close.
And the fire ate everything's around,
But my own thoughts were screaming so **** loud,
And it made really crazy, I mean this sound,
But I'm still begging God not to leave on the cold ground.
Jul 30, 2021
Jul 30, 2021 at 11:30 AM UTC
She was my reason to life,
I was sinking in her every moment,
She was kind of a knife,
That can hurt you in any moment,
Her brown eyes and dark hair,
I fell in love but even didn't notice,
I was waiting for her under stair,
Just to her grandma didn't notice,
We were kissing at her sofa,
And I felt her soft hips and gentle lips,
With the taste of cherry coca,
And all I wanted is holding her tight,
Laying on her chest,
Hugging her waist,
And she was the best,
But I wasted her, I wasted.
Jun 29, 2021
Jun 29, 2021 at 7:25 AM UTC
I'm tired
I'm tired of waking up everyday,
Getting up and trying to be staid,
Listening to some music and feeling nothing,
Like i lost all the things to feeling,
Staring into the celling so lazy,
And hiding of the think that I'm crazy,
But I'm and it so ******* scary,
Because I lost myself many years ago,
And I don't know where I want to go,
Or the person I want to be,
Or who I'm now in presently,
My body is my prison,
My death is the freedom,
I just want some time,
To rest or death of mine,
I'm tired,
I'm so ******* tired.
Jun 29, 2021
Jun 29, 2021 at 7:09 AM UTC
I'm so tired of my living time,
My eyes are hurting because I just cried,
I'm trying to talk with people,
But nobody hear me, nobody is listening.
I hate myself more and more everyday,
It could be better if I wasn't born in that day,
And I'm so lonely, falling to pieces so slowly.
And I wanna die,
Every day and night,
And I just cry,
Because I can't see any light
Into my ******* burned life
And I know I'm so young,
But it means nothing,
When you just wanna die.
I'm sitting in my cold lonely room,
And at all I don't know what to do.
And I, I quit so many people,
Bet, they now are so gleeful.
Wish I could have a chance to leave me too,
Just like the way I left them then, I do.
And I'm so exhausted, **** I hate that august.
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 8:26 AM UTC
I only fall asleep after writing some lines,
And can stay with the open eyes for hours,
Looking for some the Universe's signs,
And my desire devours me with all of the powers.
So I do everything for fame,
I want to everybody knows my name,
But I don't want to get it 'cause of shame,
'Cause I do this all for fame,
And because of my soul' s flame,
To life this is my only claim,
This is my main, my man,
My fate's stain.
I want my fame.
I forgot all the lyrics that I've done,
But for sure I can try to improvise,
Because I ain't bad in rhymes,
And time to times,
I can do something really good for fun.
May 20, 2021
May 20, 2021 at 10:31 AM UTC
She doesn't want to lose anybody,
But in the end of the road,
She will lose herself, unfortunately.
She think about others more
Than about herself,
And that's what hurt me to the core.
Bet, every day she looks at mirror
And asks it "oh, no way, is it real me?
How can I be such bitter?"
And I'm so depressed and sad,
That I can't help you and can't fix that,
And I know that all of these thinks in your head,
Are killing you everyday, I bet.
I'm laying down on my bed,
Crying in my hands, 'cause,
I can't be you are in instead,
You make me proud and applause.
Because I've never seen the one,
Who can be the strong like you,
And, my little lady, you should know, that's enough -
Being yourself to get the love that you deserve.
May 16, 2021
May 16, 2021 at 7:30 PM UTC
Even in the crowd of people
I'm feeling so lonely,
It seems like every where is evil,
I'm falling in obscurity slowly.
I feel nothing,
I feel everything,
And that's all in the same time,
And that's how I feel it all the time.
I'm so tired of living,
I know I am nothing,
Who belong to no one,
Who don't know how to have a fun.
Here's no place in the world for me,
And I even don't know who I want to be,
No chasing for my future living,
I don't have a think who I'm being.
I'm walking down at streets in the loneliness,
In awareness that I'm truly ******* mess,
Some people have a god bless,
But I'm cursed, I guess.
I'm wearing the eyeglasses and the jacket with color of the darkest night,
The sky is middle of purple and blue,
It's a little bit cold, 'cause the sun isn't still bright as it might,
I try to think straight, but I'm ******* crazy and have this clue.
May 14, 2021
May 14, 2021 at 9:46 PM UTC
She's feeling so lonely this Monday night,
Wish someone could hold her so tight.
She's sitting in the darkness with the flashlight,
God wasn't right, she's tired of keeping fight.
She doesn't want to wake up tomorrow morning,
She doesn't want to go somewhere, she doesn't want to go,
It feels like your own soul is burning,
And you are sick of sinking in flow.
My dark queen,
My darlin',
Just lay yourself down,
Don't care about anything around,
Close your eyes and feel the skies,
You need to get some rest,
You know you did your best.
My dark queen,
My darlin'.
Even when the marble statues will come to life,
She won't want to go out her room to the light,
'Cause she was made to create strife,
She knows that and she is dead inside.
May 7, 2021
May 7, 2021 at 10:31 PM UTC
Might think I'm ******* crazy,
'Cause I'm only circling in my little room,
I said **** the exams", but truly say I'm scared.
I don't have any plan in life, I'm only baby,
But my mind is ready to war, and it's gonna boom,
I only want to break free and move to New York, but that's feard...
My sister says that she believes in me,
But I know that I'll make her blue,
Because I'm stupid little lost bee,
So I answer only "I believe in me too".
I know that this is hilarious to see,
But I really don't have a clue.
It seems like I had a glue,
But I lost someone who I even don't knew,
I wish I could say to her some things, just a few,
'Cause even my angel-protector left me, that's a blue.
My dearest friend once said "Your poetry is really awesome",
She didn't know that I'm only clown, but she's flawsome,
I really appreciate her words, but I can't make myself believe in it,
Because I think that I bring someone down and for that I need a hit.
Today I thought I was well done,
But when the sun goes down,
I think again about being gone,
Like I want to take a gun,
And take me brains out.
Outside I'm so cold skin,
But inside of me is an emotional bin,
You don't want to feel and see the things i've seen,
You don't want to know through what I've been,
It wasn't really a high quality scene,
'Cause now I want to feel
Anything else exept the fear.
I find my solace in my lyrics,
So that's how I talk to my friends,
But they don't give a **** about me,
And it makes me want to concentrate on the cheap beer,
Maybe that's how people will hear,
Because I'm tired of feeling ******* crazy,
I was born in the wrong time and place, I want ready,
So I'm just waiting to go to Father on the up,
Just to tell him about all the things that bring me on the top
To him.
And I can't stop writing this,
'Cause I want to cry, but I keep resist,
Feel like I'm in the cell, I'm beast,
Everybody watchs me, that's a ****
Apr 27, 2021
Apr 27, 2021 at 11:50 PM UTC
You've always talked with lies,
But I really liked you a lot,
Already sinked in your blue eyes,
And your stale muscles, oh God.
Honey, let's walk down at the streets,
Watching at the cold sea which is just like my heart,
We can get as far as our feets
Can carry us, I don't mind to make our lives two work of art.
Look at these gloomy skies,
Let me know if you thought about me at least once,
'Cause when I look at the sun rise,
I clearly can see you in the smile of the sun rays dance.
I've fallen in love too much long,
And wrotten a lot of poems and songs,
But I still can't forget you,
No matter how hard I try to,
I can see you in the air,
I can hear you in the sound of my guitar.
I still love you a lot,
I still guess on a flower "do you love me or not?",
I really love you a lot,
And i just can't make it stop.
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 11:07 PM UTC