I want so badly to hear you,
I want so badly to feel your embrace.
Tell me hello out of the blue,
Say that you love me too.
But then after that what?
We still can’t be together,
What was I thinking...
I wish I never let go,
But what would you have wanted though.
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 11:33 AM UTC
Why does letting go
hurt so bad?
I thought by doing this,
I’d make both of us happy.
I dunno about you,
But I think I was happier
when I had the slightest chance
to come back into your arms.
But Lord knows what is best for both of us.
Far away as we are taken from each other.
I hope you find the happiness I know you deserve.
And I hope I can find a way to be a better person.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 7:25 PM UTC
It hurts so much,
Loving one person to your max,
And one day needing to make a choice.
Stay and they are confused and tormented.
Or let go and he is free from your commitment.
I chose to let go…
Lord, watch over him please.
Give him the best in life because he deserves it.
I know he is strong but in times of weakness please show yourself to him so that he can believe in himself, the way I believe in him.
Lord, I love him.
I wish him the best.
-i
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 2:43 AM UTC
I had a dream
It started out innocent
I was running through the city
Saw some friends
Had sweets and cookies
Funnily enough
I got lost after running
Then all I remember
Is falling, falling.
Blackout then lights
Saw you lying beside me
Eyes so sweet
It made me swoon.
You looked at me
Held me
Made me feel safe.
Kissed me,
Caressed me
Touched me in many ways.
Held me close,
And grinned with intent.
But no sooner than it started.
My dream had to end.
Woke up with a start,
And a fast beating heart.
I craved for your touch
And your presence so much
But I guess that’s all it was
A dream.
Nov 16, 2018
Nov 16, 2018 at 8:07 PM UTC
There are pictures I have kept
Saving each for the feelings brought back
But I cannot send them,
I cannot right now.
There are pictures I have kept,
Kept for the memories we had.
I’d love to send them
But would it be bad?
There are pictures I have kept,
They still live in my phone.
Reminding me of you,
Is it so bad that I want old to be the new?
These pictures I keep,
Tell me of our love,
Tell my heart be strong
tell me to rise above.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 11:09 AM UTC
One of the happiest days of my life
Was seeing you again after 3 months of pining.
I can’t say I didn’t expect what happened,
But I know it wasn’t for the lack of loving.
No.
We loved so much and tried other ways,
But this is not our end.
If anything this needed to happen,
If anything we need to be friends once again.
No one is to blame, no one to be held at fault.
Heal, mend and grow.
Maybe in the future, we’ll be even closer
You never know.
My Love be happy
My Love stay sweet
My Love breathe freely
One day we will meet.
My heart is yours,
Don’t you fret.
You are the home
It will never forget.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 11:57 PM UTC
By the time you see this,
I hope we are both truly happy.
By the time you see this,
I hope I haven’t done something heartbreaking for you to leave me.
By the time you see this I hope you’ve already realized,
You are my dark
You are my light
You are what keeps me going.
We may be too young,
I may be too naive right now
But whatever happens,
Please know I love you.
From the depths of this cracked soul and heart.
I LOVE YOU
I love you for who you are.
I don’t care anymore what happened in the past.
Losing you is not worth fighting over
“who was wrong, who was right“
I LOVE YOU
I love you for the flaws you have
I love you for the moments we spent laughing
I love you for the moments we shared crying
I love every bit of you.
And I hope you know that too.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 5:32 AM UTC
"You deserve better"
I don't want better,
If better isn't him.
Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 10:01 AM UTC
I thought I could take it
and so I endured.
I thought I could make it
and so I went on.
Dismissing each thought
each farewell suggestion.
Little did I know
I was not that strong.
I've been good and I've been behaved.
I haven't had an idea like that for even more than days.
But somehow recently, I have been thinking,
planning once more,
my life which is fleeting.
I don't know why it's hard to tell others,
hard to tell those who you love and vice versa,
They tried asking when they seem to catch me,
but it doesn't seem that they take me seriously.
I'm just that extrovert who's had a bad day.
Doubtful it seems for me to wish myself away.
Some people have it worse and say I can't complain,
but this time it's different,
cause maybe you can handle it but this is my pain.
Stop calling me dumb,
Stop calling me intimidating,
Stop calling me walang hiya
please, stop calling me big,
It's not exactly a compliment,
so please stop saying it.
I thought you understood me
though maybe I'm at fault here,
for I could never show my feelings
as clear as my streaming tears.
Mar 24, 2017
Mar 24, 2017 at 11:27 AM UTC
I feel like a trophy.
Something to be won,
then thrown away once I begin to dull.
I feel like a trophy,
Paraded around when beautiful,
Left alone to rust and dissolve away.
I feel like a trophy,
loved at the start,
then kept only for the memories
I feel like a trophy,
Marveled at in the spotlight,
then slowly forced to share the shelf space.
I feel like a trophy,
naive enough to think
that that my next owner would treasure me.
I feel like a trophy,
non-living, replaceable,
and disposable.
Dec 19, 2016
Dec 19, 2016 at 7:09 AM UTC