I crave the affection of a mother that no longer exists, the mom that gave me baths, the mom that tickled my feet and cracked my toes, the mom that sang itsy bitsy spider to make me laugh, the mom who held my hand to cross the road, the mom whose arms felt like home. But you're not her anymore. You're the mom who protected an abuser, the mom who threw away her family for gambling, the mom that told me I should've killed myself, the mom I spent years trying to connect with, the mom who never opened her arms and heart to let me in, the mom that never showed love but showed hatred. I miss you, but the you I miss isn't here anymore. She died a long time ago.
Jul 31, 2025
Jul 31, 2025 at 2:37 AM UTC
I
feel like
a candle
burning
Burning away
pieces of me
I try to remember
what I was like
Before I was set afire
But I can't remember
I just burn
And burn
Till finally there's nothing left of me
Just an empty glass of who I use to be
Apr 8, 2021
Apr 8, 2021 at 5:23 PM UTC
People grow
People change
We get tired
The one thing I'll regret
Is not having enough time
Enough time to love you
Every part of you
Mar 29, 2021
Mar 29, 2021 at 12:33 AM UTC
We were just kids,
Kids who fell madly in love.
We learned each other's secrets,
We broke each other's hearts.
We promised to grow old with one another,
We promised to love each other forever.
But what happens,
What happens when that feeling disappears?
Mar 29, 2021
Mar 29, 2021 at 12:30 AM UTC
I'm hurting and I'm tired of pushing it aside to make you happy.
I'm hurting and I'm tired of pretending that I'm not.
I'm hurting and I'm tired of crying alone with no one to hold me and tell me it's okay.
I'm hurting and it seems like you don't care to notice.
I'm hurting..
I wish you'd see.. how much I'm hurting..
I wish you could feel.. how much I'm hurting.
I'm hurting, please notice before it's too late.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 8:54 PM UTC
Love is unpredictable.
It can be beautiful.
It can be terrifying.
Giving someone all your heart and trusting them could be the best or worse thing you could ever do.
It could make or break the person you are and the person you will become.
You never know what a person could do to you when you give them all of you.
When you give them all your love and trust, they could ruin you and break you beyond repair.
I know what it's like, and I'm trying with every passing day.
But I get so tired of trying, I get so tired of the pain, I get so tired of hurting.
I always say I've had enough, but when will I really have enough?
I'm afraid to know what will make me cross the line I can never come back from. I'm afraid to love, I always have been.
But here we are, I'm madly in love with someone who may never feel the same way I do.
Who may never see me as more than I am. Why am I here?
What do I do?
I'm scared and I'm terrified.
I feel stuck and lost at the same time.
I don't want to feel this anymore.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 8:51 PM UTC
Sometimes,
I just want to disappear
For a while.
Or maybe,
Forever.
Sep 6, 2020
Sep 6, 2020 at 8:44 PM UTC
It's 4:42 am
And you're sound asleep.
And you have no idea,
That I am here,
Crying over you.
Apr 26, 2017
Apr 26, 2017 at 5:47 AM UTC