I entered
You were there
I approached
You looked up
I said hi
You smiled back
I felt my heart
Racing up
And later stopping for a second or a little bit more than that
I already knew when
You hesitated
As if I were to make a choice
For both of us
Whether to go deep down
or surrender
by looking down
Jun 22, 2022
Jun 22, 2022 at 5:28 PM UTC
I don't know that
but I know for once that
I am proud,
Not glad, neither sad
Not uplifted, yet not drowned
I'm just proud,
of where I was and where it brought me,
of every defeat that comes across
of every each win however it is small
of who I am and who I am becoming
I realise now,
though I am not always fun, neither smart
Not always calm, yet not mad
that all of my past cannot define me
I am right here
Simply,
Right now
And all that I wish
is to remain
proud.
Jan 17, 2021
Jan 17, 2021 at 3:09 PM UTC
The constant dizziness were my new friend on the way up there,
I had to make a pause every each few steps.
I had to keep my hand on the wall to keep the balance, to not fall down and to be able to keep up.
Too weak,
Too fragile
and
Too hungry,
to go up
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 5:23 PM UTC
But that's okay,
less of body
makes me safe,
less of fat,
makes me proud,
cause you all want to look alike,
cause you all would want to be that tough
to get used to being hungry all the time,
to all day long and all night long
feel exceptional,
in control,
and if the hunger is the price,
that's okay,
I can starve.
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 5:09 PM UTC
We met in Hell,
We kissed on Earth,
We imagined love in our minds,
After all,
We are buried underground.
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 2:32 PM UTC
While smoking I think,
how many blows will be needed to take my breath away
for once and for all
When smoke covers me up
I look around and try to disappear in it
for once and for all
I tap it and look at how it falls down
hitting the ground just as my life is doing right now
I step at it and tread into the pavement
I am putting it out
Just as my life has already done
Feb 10, 2019
Feb 10, 2019 at 6:57 PM UTC
On one, two, three
Try to count your tears
Try to focus for once
Try to forget about us
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 8:45 PM UTC
I am okay
I am okay
I am okay
Tears dropping, eyes flooding, hands shaking but
I am okay
I am okay
I am okay
I keep telling myself
You ask me why
I don't reply
You ask me when
I can't say
You ask me how you can help
I say "It is too late"
I don't have anything else to say
Red eyes, lost sight, head exploding
I won't be fine
I already know that
BUT STILL
I am okay
I am okay
I am okay
I will be okay if I am gonna full someone else
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 1:07 PM UTC
You stole my sky
You stole my stars
Now when I look at the night sky
I don't see a hope for tomorrow
I don't find peace
I can't find the old me cause
You stole my sky
You stole my stars
You stole all I ever had
And now you are gone
You run away with my heart
You left me with few broken pieces
And I am not even able to hate you for that.
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 1:04 PM UTC