For my love is the Autumn Sun
The embodiment of intense heat and passion found in summer love
Though my words cold as a daggers edge pierce the heart will leave you undone
Your eyes only see the warm glow and recalls its passion,
You anticipate
Reminiscent you are though the warmth of your bones are quenched by the absence of my touch
A rather cold embrace
For I am the sun that made the rose you are bloom
The very one that will take every precious petal away from you
Seasons have changed yet I am the same sun
For my reasons have changed but you still long for the taste of honey on my tongue
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 1:04 AM UTC
The luxury of time is growth
However this silence is unbearable
For these lonesome nights I continue to loathe
As the love I once cherished gradually perishes
As you regress from goddess back to human
For you no longer bear the guise of home
The illusion that shoruded my vision was lifted
When my love dimished
As I spent those cold nights alone
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 3:06 AM UTC
Look into my eyes and see where the truth lies
As I waste my youth scrambling desperately looking for the truth in the lies
Trying to find love in the façade
Not mad in the lack in love but the lack of honesty
Being indecisive trying to keep me close to fall back on
You need someone spend the nights alone
Especially when you leave that message he does not respond nor does he come back home
Trying to move on and you putting hurdles in front of me
Stunt my growth trying to preventing me from bringing forth the beauty
Soul lay dormant
Weathering us that storm horrid
Rose like a rose in the concrete and bloomed and that growth cannot be stop by a mortal
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 11:50 AM UTC
Final Letter
When you look at me what do you see
Are my eyes like the surface to something as deep as the open sea
Am I a head full of dreams unable to face reality
A writer who turns his demons into a plot
Am I a crazy person crying for help
A suicidal individual trying to find to death?
Am I an empty hollow with nothing left, a shell of my former self
Or was I always empty and kept the façade so we could remain friends
You say I'm going through the motions I wish that’s how you can describe my emotions
Slow death and I still can’t get grasp for why awoken,
Waste of space I tell you lies just to save face
But under surface I am in an abyss
I use to wish my existence wouldn’t be missed
I could disappear
Without care
With no one I love having to shed a tear
Or wish I was still there
Ending it feels like my only escape
Or thats how I use to think before I became selfless
Spread the dream
To taste love and pain
To live long enough to eventually experince it again
To Become Significant Once Again
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 12:05 PM UTC
Since the days of sound
Humans have only known two voices
That of love and the lack of it
That is all we know
Humans will always rebel and humans will always love
For every act of malice, of romance, or may it be of hatred
They all were done due to the love, or absence of love in the heart of a mortal man
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 11:49 AM UTC
Before my soul had reach maturity I was told to never give a lover my heart
Thus I never did,
Instead I gave them my heart, my soul, and every fibre of my being
For the one whom I fell in love with was no lover, but a soul a divine
When they wanted the world I gave them the universe itself
I do not regret my decision
I have no remorse
For their love and loyalty made it as easy as drawing breathe
Like royalty they received without question
For they have evolved beyond the definition of lover
They are Nirvana
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 11:39 AM UTC
I’m always gravelling at your feet
The rose that I rose from concrete now has no time for me
In my depression there were wild emotions and I had to repress them
Struggling not to fall apart in front you
When I was the only person you could come to
Fear that I would explode and say things just to get at you
However I’m not like that no matter what happened I still be right back
That’s why I’m here now just for some closure
I have seen this scene over and over
In the dark waiting for part two however I feel my whole life is a wasted play if their leading role isn’t you.
Us on pause but not my emotions and honestly I’m going through the motions trying to figure what did I do to deserve it
Tears down my eyes
As you look at me and me tell lies
Then I tell those lies to a mirror
To myself hoping that my vision of you would be clearer
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 11:15 AM UTC
What if I told you a love story without a happy ending
My early demise
What if I told you that love was the most beautiful yet the most fragile flower to behold your mortal eyes
However a rose has its thorns and those thorns drew blood
What if I was elegant and vibrant
What if what I had in store was enough
For that vicious ego of yours
That ego that left scars on my heart
That ego that left tears on my pillow
That ego made me feel like leaping out this very window
What if my face was a mirror, would you finally see
How unfaithful and demeaning you were to me
I gave you my all and kiss the earth you walked upon
Yet you have no love for me in that hollow shell of yours
What if I opened my ears and listened to the truth instead of your lies
Would I still feel this cold emptiness inside?
What if I told you that I wasn’t a damsel in distress yet a vulnerable to the guise
What if I indefinitely closed these dark brown eyes
Would you even remember my name my love?
Would you even cry?
What if you could feel a fraction of the pain and hatred you cause my soul to endure inside
I assure you that you will inevitably die, for that shear agony of all my sleepless nights
What if you hadn’t hurt this lost boy hastening his eventual death
Would he have closed his eyes?
Would the thought of love make him cry?
Would he have died?
Would he be the monster of the night ?
What if he never met her?
Would that lost boy still be alive ?
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 10:46 AM UTC
Sometimes this space between us feels infinite
The cold nights of not having your warmth are liken to the cruellest torture
Sometimes I feel so cold so desolate so useless
I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you on the night you were all alone
I'm sorry that my soul took so long to find its home
To your love
To find us
I love everything about you
I accept everything about you
The good, the bad, the sin, the innocence ,
It's like you were the piece of the puzzle I never knew I was missing
The problem was love
I never knew what it truly felt like until I met you
I never knew what it meant to care about someone until you came into existence
I'm scared that this is all a dream
That one day you will up and leave
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 10:46 AM UTC
As my body grows cold where does the love and passion go
Just because of my gender I’m criticised for being emotional
So tears in my eyes are just as nonexistent as I
I have been living a lie
Honestly I knew this was my reality however this dove still cries
I was by your side
Through all of the lies
Now I just want to die inside
Close my dark brown eyes
escape from this life
Run away from the lies and chase the wasted time
The beautiful world filled with the delicate soul of a lost boy in a tragic confusion
Searching for something he will never find
Chasing the end of the rainbow with until the end of time
For the rest of his life
What is he trying to find
What goes through his mind
Knowing that it’s just a lie
Chasing the moon and running from the stars
Does he hope to heal the scars on his heart
Is this a search for the one day he can truly say that we’ll never be apart
Where did it all start
When this little persona’s world began to fall apart
What is he running to
What is he running from
Will he ever escape this confusion
Will he ever be done?
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC