5moke - Hello Poetry

I WANNA BE LIKE WILL AND JADA LIKE RUSSLE AND CIARA I WANNA BE LIKE BEY AND JAY HAHAHA OR MAYBE LIKE THE GREAT MICHELLE AND BARAK OBAMA THE ONLY THING THATS DIFFERENT IS I WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! SEE, WE WERE A TEAM THAT COULDNT BE BEAT MORESO A FORCE NONE COULD COMPETE TRY TO FACE JUDGMENT OF LOSING SOEMTHING DEAR TRY TO FACE REALITY OF STANDING FACE TO FACE WITH YOUR BIGGEST FEAR HOW DO I GET RID OF MEMORIES BUT STILL BE ABLE TO HOLD ONTO THE MEMORIES WITHOUT HURTING OR HAVING PAIN? HOW DO I SMILE AT WHAT WAS BUT NOT ENDURE THE PAIN OF WHAT IS? I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! I WANTED TO LIVE OUT OUR DREAMS WE WANTED TO MAKE OUR FANTASIES OUR REALITIES NOW I HAVE TO MOPE IN THE AGONY OF NOT HAVING YOU BUT CAN I STILL HOLD YOU LIKE YOU WANT? HOLD YOU LIKE A FRIEND HOLD YOU LIKE THE DAY WILL NEVER END HOLD YOU UNTIL DAY TURNS TO NIGHT AND UNTIL NIGHT TURNS INTO ANOTHER MORNING WHERE WE SMILE AT EACH OTHER? I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! DAYS TURN INTO WEEKS WEEKS INTO MONTHS MONTHS INTO YEARS DAM, AND ALL THIS WAS OVER STANDING FACE TO FACE WITH ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS? LOSING YOU THE ONE I LOVED AND ADORED THE ONE I ADMIRED AND SO MUCH MORE THE ONE THAT INSPIRED ME TO KEEP PUSHING EVEN IF ITS A CLEAR DISTANCE THE ONE THAT PUSHED ME WHEN I COULDNT PUSH MYSELF I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! UNTIL THEN- UNTIL MY NIGHT TURNS TO MORNING UNTIL MY DAY BECOMES CLEAR UNTIL MY DREAMS BECOME MY REALITY UNTIL MY FEARS WITHER AWAY ILL BE LOOKING HOW TO FIND MY HAPPINESS NOT WITHIN MYSELF BUT JUST HAPPY WITHOUT YOU!

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Jun 15, 2019

Jun 15, 2019 at 7:40 PM UTC

HAPPY WITHOUT YOU !!

I WANNA BE LIKE WILL AND JADA LIKE RUSSLE AND CIARA I WANNA BE LIKE BEY AND JAY HAHAHA OR MAYBE LIKE THE GREAT MICHELLE AND BARAK OBAMA THE ONLY THING THATS DIFFERENT IS I WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! SEE, WE WERE A TEAM THAT COULDNT BE BEAT MORESO A FORCE NONE COULD COMPETE TRY TO FACE JUDGMENT OF LOSING SOEMTHING DEAR TRY TO FACE REALITY OF STANDING FACE TO FACE WITH YOUR BIGGEST FEAR HOW DO I GET RID OF MEMORIES BUT STILL BE ABLE TO HOLD ONTO THE MEMORIES WITHOUT HURTING OR HAVING PAIN? HOW DO I SMILE AT WHAT WAS BUT NOT ENDURE THE PAIN OF WHAT IS? I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! I WANTED TO LIVE OUT OUR DREAMS WE WANTED TO MAKE OUR FANTASIES OUR REALITIES NOW I HAVE TO MOPE IN THE AGONY OF NOT HAVING YOU BUT CAN I STILL HOLD YOU LIKE YOU WANT? HOLD YOU LIKE A FRIEND HOLD YOU LIKE THE DAY WILL NEVER END HOLD YOU UNTIL DAY TURNS TO NIGHT AND UNTIL NIGHT TURNS INTO ANOTHER MORNING WHERE WE SMILE AT EACH OTHER? I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! DAYS TURN INTO WEEKS WEEKS INTO MONTHS MONTHS INTO YEARS DAM, AND ALL THIS WAS OVER STANDING FACE TO FACE WITH ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS? LOSING YOU THE ONE I LOVED AND ADORED THE ONE I ADMIRED AND SO MUCH MORE THE ONE THAT INSPIRED ME TO KEEP PUSHING EVEN IF ITS A CLEAR DISTANCE THE ONE THAT PUSHED ME WHEN I COULDNT PUSH MYSELF I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOU! UNTIL THEN- UNTIL MY NIGHT TURNS TO MORNING UNTIL MY DAY BECOMES CLEAR UNTIL MY DREAMS BECOME MY REALITY UNTIL MY FEARS WITHER AWAY ILL BE LOOKING HOW TO FIND MY HAPPINESS NOT WITHIN MYSELF BUT JUST HAPPY WITHOUT YOU!

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God watch me & help me In the times that I need thee I know I have done wrong But please help me to be strong I know I don't talk to you much But please answer my prayers with the feel of your touch Help me to be strong so I can stand on your word And preach the gospel that should be heard Through out the nations and people going through temptations Help Me Save Me Set Me Free In your name I do pray Amen

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Mar 6, 2019

Mar 6, 2019 at 1:54 PM UTC

Sinners Prayer !!

God watch me & help me In the times that I need thee I know I have done wrong But please help me to be strong I know I don't talk to you much But please answer my prayers with the feel of your touch Help me to be strong so I can stand on your word And preach the gospel that should be heard Through out the nations and people going through temptations Help Me Save Me Set Me Free In your name I do pray Amen

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Alone by my own Trapped away in my own home Standing with no one Never being with anyone Away in the streets With no food to eat Like a stray dog Out in mother natures blurry fog My heart tells me to move on But my mind say to never run Sted fast on the lord But with no shield nor sword Praying faithfully asking for the lords forgiveness But still trapped with the pain and stress He answers my heart And now I feel apart Joyful & grateful That he was so faithful But now I see what goes around comes around And now i'm back in a lonely state after getting shot down Alone by my own Trapped away in my own home

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Mar 6, 2019

Mar 6, 2019 at 1:25 PM UTC

Alone !!

Alone by my own Trapped away in my own home Standing with no one Never being with anyone Away in the streets With no food to eat Like a stray dog Out in mother natures blurry fog My heart tells me to move on But my mind say to never run Sted fast on the lord But with no shield nor sword Praying faithfully asking for the lords forgiveness But still trapped with the pain and stress He answers my heart And now I feel apart Joyful & grateful That he was so faithful But now I see what goes around comes around And now i'm back in a lonely state after getting shot down Alone by my own Trapped away in my own home

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You pay your bills But you don't have a job You clean up your spills Just to do the same thing all over You let the worlds words get to you Instead of moving on You brag cause you paid $200 for some shoes But wont use that money for a good cause You say your not self centered But you care more about your getting hurt than your brother You say you would give your life to be with her Yet you fuss and call her a ***** when she gets mad So I ask you where do you stand? If you're your brothers keeper His life lies in Gods as well your hand Do you really know what a man is Or do you think you know what a man is Let your knowledge back your wisdom Don't make your fist lead your way Be respectful but firm Be courteous but take the time to learn Get up and at least try to get a job Instead of making **** your life When was the last time you help someone when they fail When was the last time you told your brother you loved him Just because you never cried doesn't make you a man A man isn't a shame to cry and never questions his manhood A man is a trend setter and not the follower A real man is sensitive to woman and understand 1 is enough A man loves his family and take care of his kids Even if he doesn't have kids he is there to be a mentor to kids with no fathers and step to the plate to be a father A man is God fearing and is a shame to show or tell it A man is confidential and strives to be the best at what he does Notices his mistakes fixes them and benefits from his changes Therefore I ask you Are You A Man

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Mar 6, 2019

Mar 6, 2019 at 12:40 PM UTC

Are You A Man !?

You pay your bills But you don't have a job You clean up your spills Just to do the same thing all over You let the worlds words get to you Instead of moving on You brag cause you paid $200 for some shoes But wont use that money for a good cause You say your not self centered But you care more about your getting hurt than your brother You say you would give your life to be with her Yet you fuss and call her a ***** when she gets mad So I ask you where do you stand? If you're your brothers keeper His life lies in Gods as well your hand Do you really know what a man is Or do you think you know what a man is Let your knowledge back your wisdom Don't make your fist lead your way Be respectful but firm Be courteous but take the time to learn Get up and at least try to get a job Instead of making **** your life When was the last time you help someone when they fail When was the last time you told your brother you loved him Just because you never cried doesn't make you a man A man isn't a shame to cry and never questions his manhood A man is a trend setter and not the follower A real man is sensitive to woman and understand 1 is enough A man loves his family and take care of his kids Even if he doesn't have kids he is there to be a mentor to kids with no fathers and step to the plate to be a father A man is God fearing and is a shame to show or tell it A man is confidential and strives to be the best at what he does Notices his mistakes fixes them and benefits from his changes Therefore I ask you Are You A Man

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I never thought a love like this could be true I never had people show me the things you do Its funny how we say forever we'll be together But are you talking about for the worst or just for the better As far as our dreams have flew And as far as our love has grew I never thought this would come to be true Do you remember the day you said I DO or do you remember the day love broke between the two All the love has gone down an empty drain All because one has left and another has came I take the time to see how time flies Now its come and this day you said your last goodbye Now you sit and wonder what did you do You ask me and all I say is do you We wished to spend that one night only But that time has passed As much as we said we love each other I knew the words wouldn't last You never told me thank you for taking the time I will just sit and wait for the day you come back and ask to be mine I always knew love never lost a thing All you wanted for love was a diamond & a $200 ring I was a dummy and put out time for you But if I asked you to do something You would say for who Or maybe Who are you You ask me why I think about you Could you say the love & the pain we've been through As I bring this to a close I would like to say thank you For the unforgettable tears & pain But now its to clean up my stain I Never

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Mar 6, 2019

Mar 6, 2019 at 11:38 AM UTC

I Never !!

I never thought a love like this could be true I never had people show me the things you do Its funny how we say forever we'll be together But are you talking about for the worst or just for the better As far as our dreams have flew And as far as our love has grew I never thought this would come to be true Do you remember the day you said I DO or do you remember the day love broke between the two All the love has gone down an empty drain All because one has left and another has came I take the time to see how time flies Now its come and this day you said your last goodbye Now you sit and wonder what did you do You ask me and all I say is do you We wished to spend that one night only But that time has passed As much as we said we love each other I knew the words wouldn't last You never told me thank you for taking the time I will just sit and wait for the day you come back and ask to be mine I always knew love never lost a thing All you wanted for love was a diamond & a $200 ring I was a dummy and put out time for you But if I asked you to do something You would say for who Or maybe Who are you You ask me why I think about you Could you say the love & the pain we've been through As I bring this to a close I would like to say thank you For the unforgettable tears & pain But now its to clean up my stain I Never

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I always wished one day I could just be FREE yelling to myself to just let me be FREE FREE from pain FREE from hurt FREE from insecurities FREE from me but the FREE I want isn't the ordinary FREE FREE from oppression FREE from tears FREE from fears FREE from me just one day I just want to let me be FREE FREE to express FREE to speak FREE to love FREE to be me but if I let me be FREE I wouldn't actually be FREE because the FREE in me never tends to see itself be FREE FREE loves instead of wanting and needing to be loved FREE leans not onto own insecurities FREE isn't feared to cry tears FREE speaks and isn't afraid to express but will my FREE tend to see the FREE that needs to be FREE will FREE see the need to set FREE, FREE maybe one day i'll be FREE FREE to laugh FREE to smile FREE to believe FREE to be me maybe one day, just once, the FREE within me would acknowledge that FREE yearns to be FREE but instead my FREE tends to see FREE as FREE to be trapped within me FREE notices imperfections and embraces them unlike me FREE! FREE! FREE! but until my FREE doesn't acknowledge itself as FREE FREE will forever and always be trapped inside of me never to be FREE! i just want to let me be FREE FREE!

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Mar 6, 2019

Mar 6, 2019 at 11:05 AM UTC

Let [ME] Be FREE !!

I always wished one day I could just be FREE yelling to myself to just let me be FREE FREE from pain FREE from hurt FREE from insecurities FREE from me but the FREE I want isn't the ordinary FREE FREE from oppression FREE from tears FREE from fears FREE from me just one day I just want to let me be FREE FREE to express FREE to speak FREE to love FREE to be me but if I let me be FREE I wouldn't actually be FREE because the FREE in me never tends to see itself be FREE FREE loves instead of wanting and needing to be loved FREE leans not onto own insecurities FREE isn't feared to cry tears FREE speaks and isn't afraid to express but will my FREE tend to see the FREE that needs to be FREE will FREE see the need to set FREE, FREE maybe one day i'll be FREE FREE to laugh FREE to smile FREE to believe FREE to be me maybe one day, just once, the FREE within me would acknowledge that FREE yearns to be FREE but instead my FREE tends to see FREE as FREE to be trapped within me FREE notices imperfections and embraces them unlike me FREE! FREE! FREE! but until my FREE doesn't acknowledge itself as FREE FREE will forever and always be trapped inside of me never to be FREE! i just want to let me be FREE FREE!

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Live my life as I tell you my story My story that some people think is just a story But not my actual life as it has come A truth that hides because of pride A crying soul of stories and pages untold Events took place of long nights But luckily I’m here to make my wrongs into my rights Don’t believe a thing I say because it’s just my story When I went through this by myself you wasn’t here to indulge in this sinful glory Or were you? Things I knew I wasn’t supposed to do I did Places I wasn’t supposed to go I made priority to go People I should have never met became some of the best friends in the most unclean way I can’t say I’m pleased with where I’ve been but I sure don’t regret it ‘Cause hell look at me now! So now I write my feelings and my emotion I write my past never to rewrite my history I share my shedded tears never again do I hide fears Fears that trapped me and took me over Fears that beat me so senseless until my pain became silent Matured at age, yea that was me Head to feet you couldn’t tell me of my unclean seat The seat the harbored doubts and all my insecurities The seat that made my wounds comfortable and satisfied Judge me if you want JUDGE YA MAMA I love my life and I’m still living it Live yours but make sure your story never goes untold And be clear that your past never harbors your wounded soul comfortably Cause when the past haunts you and you have unwilling taken care of it, I just may be reading your story

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Mar 3, 2019

Mar 3, 2019 at 10:43 PM UTC

I AM A STORY !!

Live my life as I tell you my story My story that some people think is just a story But not my actual life as it has come A truth that hides because of pride A crying soul of stories and pages untold Events took place of long nights But luckily I’m here to make my wrongs into my rights Don’t believe a thing I say because it’s just my story When I went through this by myself you wasn’t here to indulge in this sinful glory Or were you? Things I knew I wasn’t supposed to do I did Places I wasn’t supposed to go I made priority to go People I should have never met became some of the best friends in the most unclean way I can’t say I’m pleased with where I’ve been but I sure don’t regret it ‘Cause hell look at me now! So now I write my feelings and my emotion I write my past never to rewrite my history I share my shedded tears never again do I hide fears Fears that trapped me and took me over Fears that beat me so senseless until my pain became silent Matured at age, yea that was me Head to feet you couldn’t tell me of my unclean seat The seat the harbored doubts and all my insecurities The seat that made my wounds comfortable and satisfied Judge me if you want JUDGE YA MAMA I love my life and I’m still living it Live yours but make sure your story never goes untold And be clear that your past never harbors your wounded soul comfortably Cause when the past haunts you and you have unwilling taken care of it, I just may be reading your story

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Look at me and glance into my eyes. Feel the power from the windows of my soul. Glare into the beaming light of my mind. Relax BUT WAIT I want full control. The conversation begins my attraction the stimulation of total interaction. Lay it on me nice and slow let the words soothe you with the warmest touch and let your mind flow. So now I begin to think because HELL its only my thoughts right or is it the emotion deep within my thoughts that DRIVE YOU CRAZY. Welcome to my mind a mind of intellect, a mind of deep passion, a mind of growth, but more a mind of mental action. I wanna lick you from your head to your toes. I wanna show your body what I’ve been craving for. I wanna lick those ***** lips like I never ate your ***** in my face before. I wanna glide my tongue across that **** until you begin to *** all in my mouth while I’m ******* on that your pleasure point. I want to gently caress your back with the slightest touch of my tongue. Kissing you from your neck to your private places while your back begins to arch with the pressure of my manhood inserting your throbbing treasure chest. I wanna change of the pattern of your breathing. Gently stroking while our bodies and minds connect in the most desirable physical form. Making love like the sun meeting the horizon. Ever flowing like the rivers and streams as I hit that spot that makes you yearn for more. CREAM! More power with a deeper attitude. Fire and desire, love making until the night is day baby I want to give you something that’s gone change ya entire life. Pleasure and pain I can just hear it now but wait, can’t forget about that gentle kiss that makes it even better. Words unspoken but through physical form let it be felt. I love you with passion ever so smoothly and intimately. Like that mental touch that glides down your spine to the gentle kiss from your lips to mine. Baby I wanna make love to you til the sun come up but now SNAP! ......... Dam it’s only just my thoughts. Now what did you say?

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Mar 2, 2019

Mar 2, 2019 at 3:31 PM UTC

JUST A THOUGHT !!

Look at me and glance into my eyes. Feel the power from the windows of my soul. Glare into the beaming light of my mind. Relax BUT WAIT I want full control. The conversation begins my attraction the stimulation of total interaction. Lay it on me nice and slow let the words soothe you with the warmest touch and let your mind flow. So now I begin to think because HELL its only my thoughts right or is it the emotion deep within my thoughts that DRIVE YOU CRAZY. Welcome to my mind a mind of intellect, a mind of deep passion, a mind of growth, but more a mind of mental action. I wanna lick you from your head to your toes. I wanna show your body what I’ve been craving for. I wanna lick those ***** lips like I never ate your ***** in my face before. I wanna glide my tongue across that **** until you begin to *** all in my mouth while I’m ******* on that your pleasure point. I want to gently caress your back with the slightest touch of my tongue. Kissing you from your neck to your private places while your back begins to arch with the pressure of my manhood inserting your throbbing treasure chest. I wanna change of the pattern of your breathing. Gently stroking while our bodies and minds connect in the most desirable physical form. Making love like the sun meeting the horizon. Ever flowing like the rivers and streams as I hit that spot that makes you yearn for more. CREAM! More power with a deeper attitude. Fire and desire, love making until the night is day baby I want to give you something that’s gone change ya entire life. Pleasure and pain I can just hear it now but wait, can’t forget about that gentle kiss that makes it even better. Words unspoken but through physical form let it be felt. I love you with passion ever so smoothly and intimately. Like that mental touch that glides down your spine to the gentle kiss from your lips to mine. Baby I wanna make love to you til the sun come up but now SNAP! ......... Dam it’s only just my thoughts. Now what did you say?

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TEXT MESSAGE‼️ You get me tight when I know I can’t have you. No I’m not talking about ****** healing, but the intimate things like hold you on a daily, kiss you like it’s my last, caress and soothe ya mind while watching a movie, laugh at stupid jokes and clown on each other for being goofy. You mean so much to me and I’m not ashamed to express it. Whether it’s in the public eye or in our private time, just the thought of your face puts a smile upon mine. Just to know that you are happy brings joy to my heart. If love conquers all then pain should be of the past and ultimately mend the broken from the start. Days past and nights slowly drift away but one thing is that I’m forever appreciative of that day when we first intervened in each other’s space. You’re like the missing piece to my puzzle that I’ve been waiting to find. A tender heart, a sweet soul and a gentle mind. The love I possess is real, authenticity at its best I just want you to feel. Feel the way my heart beats to the soothing rhythm of life, not the wounds of the forbidden knife. Day by day your love captures me more and more, for Gods mercy we can and shall endure. Endure the hurt, endure the pain, endure the lonely nights crying of each other’s name. For the pressure to love will never be too hard because through Gods grace, we can now lay off the guard. The guard that wants to hold us back and hinder our growth, never to reveal the season of our outgrowth. So point in fact is that I cherish you and I promise to love. Love with not a broken heart but a mended mind because if love conquers all then I’ve been loving you from the very start.

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Mar 1, 2019

Mar 1, 2019 at 9:53 PM UTC

TEXT MESSAGE !!

TEXT MESSAGE‼️ You get me tight when I know I can’t have you. No I’m not talking about ****** healing, but the intimate things like hold you on a daily, kiss you like it’s my last, caress and soothe ya mind while watching a movie, laugh at stupid jokes and clown on each other for being goofy. You mean so much to me and I’m not ashamed to express it. Whether it’s in the public eye or in our private time, just the thought of your face puts a smile upon mine. Just to know that you are happy brings joy to my heart. If love conquers all then pain should be of the past and ultimately mend the broken from the start. Days past and nights slowly drift away but one thing is that I’m forever appreciative of that day when we first intervened in each other’s space. You’re like the missing piece to my puzzle that I’ve been waiting to find. A tender heart, a sweet soul and a gentle mind. The love I possess is real, authenticity at its best I just want you to feel. Feel the way my heart beats to the soothing rhythm of life, not the wounds of the forbidden knife. Day by day your love captures me more and more, for Gods mercy we can and shall endure. Endure the hurt, endure the pain, endure the lonely nights crying of each other’s name. For the pressure to love will never be too hard because through Gods grace, we can now lay off the guard. The guard that wants to hold us back and hinder our growth, never to reveal the season of our outgrowth. So point in fact is that I cherish you and I promise to love. Love with not a broken heart but a mended mind because if love conquers all then I’ve been loving you from the very start.

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