I built an empire
of love
but this house was not a home
and all you ever did was paint the walls
with tears
and hang pictures
of wounding words
i got bone-tired of renovating
this place you called a home
i tried turning on the fire place
to warm up those crazy cold thoughts
i had every single night
as i heard you tear through the house
smashing vases of sympathy over your knee
i tried hanging a sign on the front door
that invited affinity
putting a name on this house as ours
together forever
but nothing ever worked
i tried believing that i could live
in this place of happiness with you
but that was impossible
because there was never any happiness to begin with
it was all just false promises and empty hope
disguised as your need to have me with you
and only you
and i wrote it all down to make sense of it
because maybe if i saw it
i would know that this was a house and not a home
but all i ever did was try and rebuild
everything you tore down
over and over
while i lived in that empty place
you called a heart
and finally, i knew it was never a home
it was just an empty house
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 11:07 AM UTC
My mind
Is a personal museum
That I wish I had the guts to show you
But you always told me I left everything unfinished
And showing you would only prove you right
You wouldn’t care about the potential I had
You would shame me for never carrying out the ideas
My mind is filled with Half-finished canvases
Paint splattered memories
Clay sculpture feelings
And Mona Lisa thoughts
Waiting for the world to see
You will never believe in me
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:11 PM UTC
I fell in love with his eyes
He turned around and fell in love with hers
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:10 PM UTC
Imagine you’re a fish
Your comfort zone is your tank
It will only let you grow so big
You’re not stuck
Stop saying you’re stuck
You’re comfortable
You don’t want to drop everything
And do what’s good for you
Because you’re scared
But when you put that fish in a lake
Sure, it might be scared to death
But **** does that fish get so much bigger
Than it ever thought it could
The potential lies within you
Your boundaries lie within you
And you must break them to grow, to learn, and to love.
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:09 PM UTC
Loving you
Is like laying at the bottom of a pool and looking up; It’s oh so beautiful
But dear,
I’m drowning
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:08 PM UTC
You’re warm whiskey
On a summer day
I’ll drink you down
I’ll drink my life away
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:07 PM UTC
You’re a world yet to be discovered
By the hands of love
You’ll meet someone
Someday
Who will make you feel
Like you’ve never been touched
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:07 PM UTC
I wish my poetry
Was half as good
As the way you write novels
Down my spine with your
fingertips
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:05 PM UTC
The butterflies’ locomote about in my stomach
I try to calm them but they insist to see you
They get so overwhelmed at the sound of your name
I tell them to hush
But they never comply
If you listen closely
When my heart skips
You can hear them flutter
They crave your presence in order to contain composure
When you’re holding me they are tranquil
But make any sudden movements and you might awake them
For some reason you’re the only person that can kindle them
I’ve never actually seen them
But I know they are there
They yearn for you
They make me a little nauseous sometimes
But it’s a wonderful thing
And I hope they never leave
Because as long as they stay
I know I’ll always love you
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:04 PM UTC
The morning after
A collection of sunrises
Sit on my collarbones
Heavy with color
Traces of love that stained my soul
But are so strong they permeated my skin
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 3:02 PM UTC