as i stand here
scrambling to find
the correct words to say you
to let you know how dearly i care for you
my heart burns with agony
knowing i am leaving you behind
i am sorry it has to be this way
deciding whether to get out of bed
and face the world
is a day to day war
looking in the mirror
and seeing nothing
but an ugly face
and an ugly soul
as i stand here
noose around my neck
chair under my feet
a single gesture
and i will be gone
please do not weep and hurt
but smile and grow
because a you once told me
not to look at life through the rear view mirror
but through the windshield
my toe gives the stool a push
and my feet start a sporadic spazm
i beg i n t o se e th e li ght
h er e i c o me
i am fin al ly
a
l
i
v
e
Oct 15, 2013
Oct 15, 2013 at 7:23 PM UTC
there are no words to describe how i feel for you
whenever i try to speak
my throat becomes enclosed
and my words get lost in a giant sea of emotion
there is nothing i want more
than to spend every waking moment by you
counting the beats of your heart
and stripping you down to reveal your inner core
i want to see all your imperfections in high definition
i want to learn what makes you laugh
what makes you cry
and how you got that scar behind your ear
everything you do
every word you say
it gives me hope for the future
presented through love and feeling
for my dear you are all that i have
and all i have am
and without you i am dead
if you were ever to leave
i would simply melt into cracks of the earth
with others i am merely furniture
i observe and i listen
and serve my purpose
but you give me a reason
a reason to live and breathe
and continue you on
my darling you give me life
you are the air in my lungs
the blood in my veins
i want to wipe away your insecurities
as someone as lovely as you
does not deserve to feel the sorrow i do
as i am nothing but an ugly soul encased in a pretty package
and i dare you to open it
there are no words to describe how i feel for you
so please allow me to show you
i love you
Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 10:35 PM UTC
the thick humid air
melts into thin nothingness
and the brightly green leaves
that once accented the bright blue sky
fall down and blanket the earth
turning it into an orangey mess
as we wrap up our necks
and let the wind style our hair
we'll overdose on caffeine
and watch scary movies till dawn
leaves will crunch under our boots
and dead blades of grass will slice up our ankles
summer has died
and autumn has been reborn
Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 5:17 PM UTC
and we were walking hand in hand
in the cool october air
after i had been crying all night
because you're stupid
and i love you
you wiped my tears
and asked to see my pretty eyes
you told me you loved me too
and i looked away in disbelief
you turned my cheek
and pressed your lips against mine
our tongues did a dance
and our lips locked
and when you stared down at me
i had believed you
and for the first time that night
i knew what it was like to be truly loved
Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 5:08 PM UTC
and i recall the night where we sat in the backseat of your moms truck
the streetlights peaking through the sunroof
contouring bits of your cheekbones and highlighting your flaws
our fingers intertwined matched together like a jigsaw puzzle
the way your eyes pierced through mine
you weren't just looking at me but at my soul
and how you made me feel so beautiful but so self conscious at the same time
and when you leaned in to kiss me
even though we had done it a million times before it felt like the first
when you whispered i love you into my ear making my ear drum rattle and a lightning storm erupt inside my body
and how you hugged me so tight i felt your heart beat
and heard your blood coursing through your veins
it was in that moment
in the backseat of your moms truck
where i realized i was truly in love with you
Oct 14, 2013
Oct 14, 2013 at 5:03 PM UTC