Life is not always what you expect
I thought I wouldn’t have any other chances
With anyone
It was taking so long to find the right guy or girl
That I thought I wouldn’t find another
But that is where you come in
You gave me the smile I missed so much
A sincere smile
Not a fake one
I have life again thanks to you

To me a perfect boyfriend doesn’t need a lot of money
The perfect guy doesn't need the biggest *****
The perfect person for me needs to respect me
And take me as I am
Love me unconditionally
And be a gentleman!

am I good enough for you mirror yet
am I pretty enough for you yet
no o ok
I have make-up and I dyed my hair
mirror am I good enough for you yet
am I pretty enough for you yet
no **** I thought that would do it
I guess not though
three years latter
I have a scared wrist
and scared theighs
mirror am I good enough for you yet
am I pretty I enough for you yet
no I guess not my skin is ugly
because you didn't accept me when I needed you to

love inside my heart
depression inside my brain
thoughts about dying and cutting

but mom and my theripist say "I'm okay"
I am just looking for attention
is the worst thing you can say to me
think about this
if all I want is attention
how is it
I've learned to fake smiles and hide my cuts...

so you see me and think I'm doing fine
but do you see all my layers
over the ones I hide the best
no you don't
why don't you see it
I won't let you
it pains me more for people to see my own pain
so I hide underneath this fake mask of happiness
so I don't put anyone else through my pain inside

depression it is all i have left
i dont want it thought
it is un welcome here in my heart
tonight it will leave me
tonight i will finally win this ******* fight
so all of the people tonight
pray for me
pray i will once and for all win this fight
if it doesnt leave by tonight
i will win this fight

i feel this knife
cutting through my heart
i never wince
even though it hurts bad