bright
inside?
wrong you would be scared to enter my mind
all of the things i think
when im on a low day
would **** you on the inside too

The red is all I see
For the moment it makes me feel good
Later I feel like **** again
Gotta do it again

It is an addiction
I’m not kidding you
So judge someone for doing it
I ******* dare you to

The addiction is real
Drugs or alcohol you ask
Well this addiction is different
How you ask
Here…

Cutting is an addiction
Once you start it is hard to stop
I did start I did quit I did relapse
But this time I was smarter
Fingers won’t scar

Let me tell you please don’t start
I’m trying to save your life here
Listen to a cutter
Please I beg don’t be like me
When I get sad anymore
That’s all I want to do
Don’t be like me talk to someone
Because I didn’t and my mom went nuts
Cleared my room of everything I had
Please listen today get out of your room
Go talk to someone

I’m glad if I caught you in time
Because no one caught me
Until it was too late…
And the addiction was already there…

drawing a picture
but with a twist
im not drawing a pretty picture
the only color is red
i dont use paper
i use my skin
i dont use a pen
i use the blade

she sees a world of hurt
she sees a pain too big for her to handle
when she tries to conqur demons
it brings her more pain

she wants to be normal
but what is it anymore
what is normal
i dont know anymore

the pain she hates
herself she hates
wants to be by herself
but is scared to be

she hates her life
wants to end it
wishes she could sleep all day all night
because sleep paralyzes the pain
that she feels on the inside

the wrost kind of pain to feel
is the pain you can easily mask
so no one else sees
whats really going on inside

she hurts
she hates
but she hates herself more than the people around her
she has done too much
she feels like a dissapoinment to her family
who has tried for so many years to help this dissapoinment
and what has she done
more than she should
but i cant continue to fight
when i keep loosing
to this pain
inside my heart
that ive gotten too good at hiding
until i have had enough
and it all comes out
in the ******* things i do
that i cant stand
but the pain inside me has gotton so bad
i do whatever the **** i can
so i can get through the pain
not my life