I live here all alone in my mind, in my lonely cell.
  For all I've did wrong is why I am sentenced to this lonley hell.
My feelings are so gone ,and all the pain leaves me numb.
    It does hurt to know death is wished upon me by some.
Love is so weak ,all it's ever worth is sorrow and pain.
   All my eye's cries have left my emotions with a dark stain.
The days here are gloomy no matter what the weather man may say.
  At some point in my journey I managed to have lost my way.
I ask "what will it take to make this sorrow stop ? "
    Seems to be the only ending will be when I bleed my last drop.
My only hope is that God will have mercy on my heart.
   But to be so lost in sadness that happiness is just another world apart ....

Loyalty...what exactly does being loyal entail? Well that is hard to put into words.
Some may say that being loyal means "down to ride " or even "Iwill never cheat " . Its easy to be loyal when what your being loyal to is at lifes mountain top...
   To me real true loyaltycomes when you see some one at there worst and/or lowest point. And you still stand tall by there side .loyalty is being there  when no one else will or even wants to be .loyalty is seeing helplessness and hopelessness and embracing it as a oppurtunity  to give a hand up instead of a kick down .
   Its loving some one the same amount wether its the superbowl or the tolietbowl .loyalty to me just comes naturally and is the absolute right thing to do. It means no matter what happens they know they have you.
    Loyalty is the foundation on which every relationship and friendship is built around . With out loyalty life is meaningless and feels as fake and lonely  as it .
   Loyalty at times can be hurting even withering but at that exact time be rewarding ..loyalty is shown at lifes highs n lows ,in all shapes and forms
..so in life if you can find another person that can be truely and honestly  loyal back to you ..it gives you the sense  that it was all worth it ..
We all need that one person. That no matter which of lifes path you journey either up or down wrong or right ..you know unquestionably  will with out doubt be there for you and when you see that the road traveled leads you to a dead end you have  them to point you  in a new direction

Its the memories that hurt the most ,

  Time only has made the real us seem like a long forgotten ghost,

We paint a picture for the world to see ,

   Since none of them could ever  imagine what its like to be thee.

Trapped in a scary place all alone in our head,

   Sometimes so sad we cant make it our my lonely bed,

Cursed by past mistakes thats the way its always been 

    Yes once we were happy only we cant seem to  remember when 

Its misery that reminds us of all the days gone by

 So numb to the pain that long ago we stoped asking why

With glimpse of happiness we think this time it will last 

   Only how can we be hopefully for the future when it looks so much like our oh so familar  past….