If I drink
Then I have a reason
If I smoke
Please excuse my freedom
If I pop a pill
Then know I'm no good
I'm just a accident on this ****** of a world
Where everyone I trust, turns
Where everyone I love,
Hates
Where all the people I'm surrounded by,
Are always late


But hey,
I'm working on getting out
I'm working on it,
You can hear it in my shout
You can see it in my shudder
You can taste it in my tears
You can smell it in my hate
You can touch the wound
But I'm still as good as a freshly new groom.

I'll be doing better by the time you get back
I swear I won't be as intoxicated as I was
When you turned your back.

I literally have no one to depend on
I'm breaking inside
I wish I could just go back to happy times
I wish I could have someone by my side
But everyone is gone
I'm always gonna be all alone
Dad I miss you
Mum needs a tissue
I need to start over
Maybe with a knife
Maybe with a rope
I swear to god I've lost all hope
Wait is there even a god?
If there is then that's kinda odd,
Its odd how I prayed
But everything is still the same
So now all my heart is filled with pain
So now all my life is a ****** shame
So now my family is a **** game
So now everything is gone and plain
So now I'll say goodbye
Maybe soon
What about I say it
Tommorow
At noon.

I'm sick
I'm tried
I'm depressed
I keep listening to sad songs
While wearing a black dress.
People keep dying
But not in real life
They keep dying in my heart
Because they cannot fight.
They try their hardest to get up and go
But that's not so easy
In the cold cold snow.
So now they're sick
So now they're ill
So now everyday
they have to take different pills.
They have to suffer while living
While living in pain
Which hurts them
Especially in the brain
It's not easy to suffer
Mentally
Emotionaly
Or physically.
Because everyone
Has their own problems
You see ?