He saved my life,
but he couldn't save his own,
He risked his life,
To be where he was goin,
5 pills took his life away,
5 pills and bein drunk won,
Now I stand at his grave,
Here lies my cousin,
Who was only 17.

I found my home,
Away from strife,
I found my place,
That is pure light,
I found my angel,
That fell from above,
But I might have found,
That you are my love.

Dont how to feel
Or how to address her
Shes ******* me up
Making my heart beat faster
I want her love
But its not the answer
Last love i had
It was a total disaster
Now she's broke *****
And ima bachelor

The saddest thing about being betrayed,
Is that it never comes from your enemies,
It comes from those you trust the most.

Love you left be broken on the floor
Left me dead heart was ripped out
How many times have a said
I'm done please let me out
Had me chained from the neck
On the floor to the waist down
Your love held me down

I can't tell if your love was supposed to send me to heaven
Or if it was supposed to put me thru hell
But in the end it doesn't matter
Because even though I'm in heaven my hearts in hell
My hearts been broken but you can't tell

You can never tell that I'm going thru hell
You can never tell that I'm well
You can never tell a no one that there some one
Cuz look at me
I thought I was a someone even though I was a no one
Then they took my heart then I turned so far beyond numb
Now I feel less than no one even though I'm someone
But it doesn't matter even though we all matter
Yea were all made of matter
But it doesn't mean we feel that we all matter.

War zone in my brain,
Nothins really the same,
Exepct my heart that’s same,
But my brains not the same,
Sufferin depresseion that I cannot tame,
Losing my mind it feels like everyday,
Drowing in thoughts and my hate,
Gonna have to break the gate ,
The gate of gratification and grace ,

Leave my devil to the grave,
But my devils immortal hes lurkin,
Every corner every crack ready to break out,
Sick of bein called a disappointment and a clown,
Bout to rain havic on this little ******  town,
But calmdown and open ur 3rd eye and face the light,
But the lights is mine,
But im not mine,
Im my devils,
Forced to do his transactions and his deals,

But its hard to open grace when ur a disgrace,
A outcast from myself and life,
Used to be a angel but now im fallin from  grace,
Fallin from grace from this race of pain and change,
Hasn’t been the same since 6th grade,
Alawys bullied pushed and pulled,
But there so much u can pull a anchor by a rope,
Before the rope breaks and the anchor stops,
Like that anchor and my gratification stopped,
And lost my grace,

Open ur 3rd eye and face the light,
But the lights is mine,
But im not mine,
I will never escape this race of anxiety and change…

https://rave.dj/u/SadBoyShit

Intro:
Humanity balances in the grasp of a belief of a higher order a belief that handicaps and restrains us from our true self and what we desire to become just for the fact to be in a nirvana that nobody has proof that it is real
For we could know we all could be going to hell for the corrupted society and government we live in

Poem:
They wanna lock me outa of sight for not recieving any contacts
That the lord and savior had givin out to me
Then i beheaded a ******* for his contacts
i hide the body where nobody could see

See the devil in my eyes with his contacts
Now my eyes are blacker than the bottom of the sea
Everybody knows that were going to hell
Everybody knows that we will never be free

I might as well count my sheep,
And fall to sleep,
I will hold my breath, I will not peep,
As I am laid down 6ft deep,
I hope my family will not weep,
As they realized I am just asleep.

My light is slowly fading,
I don't know what to do,
Everybody hates me ,
But its ok cause I hate everything,
Except for you.

You play the game,
And fill me with pain,
You drive me insane everyday,
You say you love me me,
But I know that isn't true,
You just use me to try to get through,
This sad little life you choose.

Don't know what to feel,
Don't know what to say,
**** this life,
I don't wanna stay,
Every things alright,
Every things ok,
Until you stop,
Taking that pill per day.

I try to make you happy,
I try to make you laugh,
I try to make you feel like you're in heaven,
Even though you put me through hell.

Flying off drugs in my system
I know they be hating **** the system
I know im not right in my head
but when did u notice that’
I take drugs for smiles
When my appearance cracks
They say they hate me ****
What the ***** with that
I only hurt myself
See the halo snap
I only love myself
Had some heart attacks
I love everyone
But who loves me

Hey, who ever reads this announcement can you plz comment some ideas for poems cause I'm brain dead and haven't been able to think for 4 days. I appreciate it.
Thx.
Even tho nobody will prolly comment still thx.

You think your so pretty,
You think u can rock with me,
You say "I love you." your a liar,
Even a blind man could see that,
But I really don't give a ****.

dont call me,
i aint pickin up,
i dont care,
i dont wanna get up,
i dont wanna get up ,
and deal with ur ****,
im done ,
its ****** over,
u were just a cover,
i dont,
give a flying ****,
if your,
sad that we broke up,
it was,
over when it it had just begun,
when u said,
i was the only one,
i felt like,
that u were holding a gun,
to my head,
now ur gone,
when u had what u wanted,
u left me broke,
u lent me hatetred,
u left me so ****** up,
that i dont know,
who i was anymore,
so ******* go get a life,
im done,
come back,
and youll get the blade of my knife.

Wake up in bed, am I dead or alive
Every second of the minute my life flashes by
Seeing things that are reminiscent as a kid
I wish things ended up different than it is
But time can't stop I just live it as it is
But it's cruel to be a kid and see your friends life wiped
Rip to Nic Rip to Blake Rip to Zach
I miss you because I was 15 tuning on 16 when we saw each other last
Now i'm 17 turning on 18 and its hurts to see our past
I can't believe I'm crying while writing this in class.
But it's only my way of closure so I wanna make this poem last.
Like they way we laughed and made these moments last.

Why you lie,
Why you lie,
Why you always ****** lie,
Why you lie,
Why you lie,
Don't you know I can read between the lines,
Why you lie,
Why you lie,
Why you always ****** lie,
Why you lie,
Why you lie,
Don't you know your the reason,
Why I want to leave my life.

I hate my life
I want to die,
I tried before,
A million times,
But something keeps me,
From leaving this life,
I think it is you,
Cause your my light.

But I'm your darkness,
I'm your pain,
I'm the devil,
That makes you insane,
I'm the cancer in your brain,
But its ok,
Everybody treats me the same.

Love is unexplainable in terms
You’ll do anything in your power to make sure they don’t hurt
You’ll treat them like everything and the world even if they don’t know your worth

But that’s ok because you think they won’t make you hurt
You think they won’t make you cry; you think that they know your worth

You think that they’ll see a diamond in the rough and not a dead lies in the grave under dirt

But just thinking about that in your head makes your stomach turn
Makes your heart fade and then makes your brain want to burst
Hope that they will stay, and you won’t talk through the ****

But then they’ll stay and then make your day
Wake up every day to see that smiling embrace
It might drive you crazy but its worth it in a way
Love is unexplainable by words but more explainable by actions
Don’t try to investigate into what they say just look at all their passion

i miss ur touch..
can we repeat?..
i miss ur smile..
it made my heart beat..
i wish i told u everything that we could be...
but instead u left me at 12:00 on new years eve,,,
you burned down the bridges
that kept ahold
the very bridges that helped my soul
only for to here that u hate me..
i miss ur touch..
can we repeat?..
i miss ur smile..
it made my heart beat..
i wish i told u everything that we could be...
but instead u left me at 12:00 on new years eve,,,

Nobody on this earth is perfect.
Everybody has their flaws.
Everybody has their dark secrets and vices.

Babe tell what's wrong with me
Voices pierce my skull
I pray to god that hell help me
I guess I'm wrong
They say gods actually helping me
What's going on
Seems like the devils on my shoulder while gods in my mental
Used to be a opioid adduct used **** with Norco
Hearing voices at night telling me wrong not right
But its right to be wrong but wrong to be right But that's all too political right
Whites killing blacks than  blacks killing whites
School shootings Got parents paranoid when they say
Mom i promise I'll be fine

Were all god's children why do we got to fight
Another topic why do women not have rights
School taught us from a early age
My body my rights
So why are politics
Saying abortions' are just no right
When a parent isn't ready they are not ready
Save the child abuse, emotion abuse
The therapy and pills that consume
Otherwise there be more caskets
Than baby shower baskets
In our life

I'm sorry for every one struggling with abuse/racism/sexisms'/and to all the parents that lost their children in the school shootings. My condolences go to you… I'm sorry

That's all I wanna know
You're lookin' like a joke, dry humor at the most
Steady chokin' on your shade, like a **** in your throat
Well, if you're gonna throw shade my way
Maybe you should throw with a little more aim
It's a cold day in hell when they ***** up your name
They don't got no business talkin' in the first place, I'm freezin'

R.i.p Juice Wrld
Happy Late Birthday
Lengends Never Die 999

I don't wanna feel nothin,
I don't want to hear anymore assumptions,
Only thing I wanna do is smoke my pain away,
The only thing I wanna do is fade away,
Then your life will go a lot better without me,
The only thing that is good about this life is your company,
But that isn't enough for the pain I keep,
The only thing that I ask is that you set me free,
Please.

She picked him over me,
She chose a person who cheated,
She picked him over me,
She knows I love her and could beat him,
She did this to hurt me,
But do you really think I care,
She loves to keep her ***** little secrets,
But she don't know,
he's having another affair.

Stupid us
Thinking we
Were in love

Stupid me
Thinking I
Was good enough.

Suicide if you try to take my drugs
Homicide, go on and hold my gun
Specify, all the lies you’ve told
Look at me, what kind of drugs am I on?

Everyday I wonder why god has sent me,
Just to die,
Just to suffer,
Your my devil,
Your my pain,
If I would've chose to stay,
I would've gave my life away.

Why you mad,
Why you mad,
Why you mad,
Why you mad,
Why do you always throw me away,
Why are you always the main source of my pain,
Why cant you just look and see,
He's just fake and make believe,
But there's will always be love for you and me,
But the only thing u do is throw my love away,
Your the main Source of my pain,
You make my heart ****** hurt so much,
I just want to throw my life away.