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2.7k · Sep 2017
dear untapped memories
Grey Pryor Sep 2017
you ripped out my heart
you tore me apart
you chewed me up and spit me out like your dip
and yet im still waiting
YEARS later after 7 different phone numbers
im waiting
you abused me
and i don't take that lightly
BUT I TRIED TO FORGIVE YOU
you just decided to start over
the past is the past
and frankly im the past
new kids and a new step mom
but im still waiting
this is to my lazy excuse for a father. this has became my coping skills.
1.4k · Dec 2017
You are my sunshine
Grey Pryor Dec 2017
So i used to see it in tv
Someone wrapped in the arms of a lover
I never believed it would be me
But i lay here with your hand under my body
Don't tell me I'm too young or too dumb to know i have fallen in love
I want this more than any other one before
I want her until my lips grow sore
I want her until little hands are involved
And long there afterwards
So sing me to sleep with that Johnny Cash song my mom used to love
And hold me when I'm feeling numb
Let me know that you think I'm the one
My dearest loved one.
1.4k · Sep 2018
Being LGBT//the truth
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
I have been debating right and wrong my whole life.
I have been standing on a tightrope waiting for my emotions to crave it.
Being taught my favorite color since age 2 and the way I was supposed to be.
I have truly learned a few number of things,
the most important being suicide isn't the worst thing.
Failing to completely be who everyone chose you to be is the worst thing.
Not wearing a dress and tights to church on Sunday, not loving flowers or the color pink.
The worst thing is choosing who YOU want to be.
So I think I have found the reason it is more likely for someone like me to **** themselves off.
I am not who they or you wanted me to be.
I am free.
987 · Sep 2018
Maxine (10W)
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
You
swept
me
off
my
feet
and
helped
me
walk.
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
Okay
So you never asked
I dont know if that means you don't want to know,
But it was when we were watching that weird science fiction movie in the theatre.
You tucked you hair behind your ear
And as usual I had tunnel vision on you.
But my stomach dropped
And i knew in that moment while you were focused and smiling
I knew that i was in love with you
I knew that i wanted to make this become something
I knew you were different
I never looked for it to come into my life
I never wished upon a star
I never pulled apart daisies
Love me or love me not
I am so absoluty stunned and without a doubt in love with you
374 · Oct 2017
Temp living
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
So here i write
Wishing to die
Because love is foregin to me
Because you cause me to not breathe
Because for once everything is alright.
Except my mind
I can't win every battle and lately I've been hurting
A wounded vet
And i have given up on the medic
I can see and feel the love
But its just that way for a moment so i don't wnt to put all my hopes in
There's no return price on this bet
I know all love is temporary
But so is my existence
This is about how my parents done kicked me the **** out and my uncle took me in
366 · Nov 2017
I do
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
I do care
I do not hate you
I do love you
I do not regret you
I do want to text you
I blocked you because i cant take it
I cant take knowing I hurt you
I cant take the fact i put in my all
I cant take it that  i introduced you to my family
I cant think about all the what ifs
I could hold you again
I could love you again
I still love you
I'm hurt
You weren't *** to me
You were a love
A kind gesture
A beautiful scar on my heart
And ill remember you
One day ill unblock you
One day ill try to be friends again
But i do want you
Which is why I am letting you go
Because you have enough
And dont need me too
Im sorry. You and me fit well together in my point of view but others see it as toxic. I want you to be able to move on. I want you... I want to be in your life... But its not up to me. I don't get a choice anymore.
361 · Feb 2018
One hit//bad for me
Grey Pryor Feb 2018
I am trying
I know it seems repetitive
I know I'm repulsing
I'm the definition of insanity
Because i keep acting out the same things.
I know I want you next to me
Its just harder than it seems
Especially lately
You need someone in bed with you
You havent been sleeping good
I walked in with you by her
And your soars were like uproars
I know you arent cheating
Not even mentally
I just cant help but feel that lately
I dont want me
So since you sleep by someone else just fine
Ill lay in bed all night with tears in my eyes
I want you to love me
And i know you do
Its just hard to see you want me
When I'm so sick of everything I do
I'm so sick. I need to breathe.
340 · Oct 2017
Things i cant quite say
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
The things I feel for you are more than those 3 words deep
That's why its so scary
Because saying I love you
It doesn't quite get the point threw
Its more like...
I feel incomplete without you
That your huge hands are needed with mine
Intertwined
No space in our bodies
Legs by legs
And lips on lips
And i can't help but hope we don't see a "last kiss"
Because that's just it
If i see an end to it
That means there is a 'end to it'
That's the scary ****
I don't want an end to this
Like marriage doesn't seal this in
Only time will tell
But i hate being completely vulnerable... But I'm COMPLETELY vulnerable
So just kiss me so I shut up
And never truly think
Because ill be up at night
Just thinking of you
And I might over think
This is how i feel as of now. I **** at rhyming all the time. Oh well shoot me.
296 · Sep 2017
are you done?
Grey Pryor Sep 2017
you treated me like dirt
you made me feel NOTHING but hurt
I was ******* drowning
i profoundly loved you
loved
you
past tense
we made close to no sense
why did I even cry
would care if i died?
you only cared if people believed the words that you said
you lead them to believe i cheated
why would you slit my wrist for me
when i couldn't even breathe
some first love
im finally, finally, finally glad were done
this was written for someone in particular but it fits many situations in my life including the battle within my mind. i hope you can enjoy the read.
284 · Sep 2018
Pumpkin Eater
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
I guess
I just
miss
making
you smile
that way
265 · Sep 2017
not even a poem
Grey Pryor Sep 2017
Hey, I haven’t seen you or even talked to you in while.
I truthfully don’t know how to start this letter.
This isnt much of a poem
It doesn’t fit any scheme or style
Maybe this is free verse?
Anyway the way we ended things hurt
I just want you to know
I found someone new
Passionate
Like how you used to be
When I was the only one calling you babe
Im glad we moved on and took our break
Its been 2 years
But most of the time I wanted you here
Now you’re a memory or just a void I write letters to
THIS ISNT ANYTHING I CANT WRITE IDK HOW TO DO ANYTHING INCLUDING WRITING
247 · Sep 2017
the beauty within blinded
Grey Pryor Sep 2017
behind the contour, foundation, lipsticks and lies
i think we all come to a point where we realize
we are stuck
blending out the beauty
and holding on to the snooty comments and remarks
so we mark invisible marks against ourselfs
or for some its visible enough to get some help
till then this world is hell
stuck frantically pacing wondering if we blended well
stop worrying if the lines on your face dont match the tone
we are all busy with what we undergo
but what you dont know is we all stuck in the undertoe pulling us in
we are all living in sin
PLEASE DONT MAKE THIS THE END
i hope one day youll see the beauty within
this is the poem i got accepted with i hope someone can read this and hear the message like an echo in a hallway.
230 · Oct 2017
Heart beat
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
My heart wanders but does not know
It does not know what is about to take hold
It does not know you are around the corner bend
And when I meet you that you will beg to get in
My heart suffers heartache from the last
And my worst fear is that your love won't last
And when a liquid like my blood gets warm, will it turn to gas?
Ill float from the warmth of my heart beat and between every beat i feel you with me.
So even now while you doubt on this
I'm trying to get down to the earth abyss
Because for once im not falling for you
I'm not grasping on floor
I'm just trying to let you know
Since we met i open the doors of my heart
And I'm not sure what reaction is because pain and beauty and so relatively close
I'm not scared to let you close
Im scared because I'm easily left
And even I would run
So I guess this is more of a thank you
This is a way of saying I feel a little more sane
I feel like someone cares
And i can dare to be brave
I can dare to show you I'm worth what i say.
This isnt about my girlfriend. It is about her family.
217 · Nov 2017
Tattoo
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
So I wear my heart on my sleeve
I got it permanent in ink
I got it so everyone knows
Everyone know I care about everybody
This does not mean take advantage of me
It doesn't mean leave me in the dirt
It doesn't mean to leave me on read
Until you are bored enough to talk to me
Im wearing my heart on my sleeve
For me
212 · Sep 2017
closing eyes
Grey Pryor Sep 2017
when i close my eyes
i still see yours
when i close my eyes
i think about holding you again
when i close my eyes
i pretend its okay again

when you close your eyes
do you think of me?
when you close your eyes
do you remember the love i gave?
when you close your eyes
do you still care?
I am trying so hard to be okay. This is about the greatest love of my life. my baby boy, my nephew.
208 · Nov 2017
Loveless spooning
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
I am a mess
Although I stayed fully dressed
I never said no
Her arms around me
Just holding my waist while i sleep
But i still feel so guilty
She wants us to be
But she knows that with someone else I feel complete
She knows that I hold in all my love for another around her to keep from hurt feelings
She knows that one day ill be taken again and it won't be by her
She knows I don't love her the way she loves me
But every time I go over
I let her hold me.
Deanna
203 · Sep 2018
Dear chest pain
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
The aftermath you left me with remains
by a consent look over my shoulder.
The whispers on the metro that have your voice,
even though I haven't seen you in 11 years.
The tick in my head tells me how you've been living.
The tick is the click on my laptop mouse to get to your facebook screen.
No call to say I'm a big sister.
No call to say how you have been doing.
I have come to found out you moved,
Is it near me?
Do I have to worry about you trying to see me?
Or are you moving on and avoiding me?
I write about you like you were once my lover but instead you were my abuser.
You were the one to blow smoke in my face and say how much you loved me.
Then hurt me in a way that future people could see the hurt in me.
Do you ever think about the pain you caused me?
Or are you just writing your name on everyone and passing it on.
You are the virus I conceal and don't let people know about until it is too late.
So I know this is sad and **** but I thought maybe someone can relate or enjoy it. I know only I will read it the way I hear it in my head but I still hope you can feel my anger and passion.
201 · Apr 2019
Give up (10w)
Grey Pryor Apr 2019
All
I
Want
You
Have
Taken
From
Me
For
Beauty.
197 · Nov 2017
Abyss
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
So I was once asked
"What is your worst fear?"
I contempated many things
I thought it over
I wanted to give a sure answer
I replied "honestly, its an abyss"
Also known as
A bottomless pit

I guess I feared that I would become it
I wouldnt care who I take in
I wouldnt care who was hurting
Because I would be so dark hearted

I would just keep taking
Taking and taking
And never putting out
I feared i would become numb to it all

I was afraid of becoming a cold, dark, bottomless pit.

Now that I have grown to understand the depths of which I spoke
I realize i would choke on my own words
I would be treated by others who were so numb
I would become jealous of the lack of guilt
I would become a hatefulled center peice
On the decorated ****** story I live
I would become the real unfortunate story
A girl who lost it all in a month
And the girl who wishes she could just be an abyss.
195 · May 2018
Linger
Grey Pryor May 2018
I'm so sure of our love,
I taste you in my mouth days after a kiss.
I'm so sure of our love,
I hug you at night, asleep, and unattended.
I'm so sure of our love,
I would run away and seal our fate.
All of this because I'm so sure of our love.
189 · Nov 2017
Dear people against me
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
I don't regret her
As much as people may push i cannot forget her
She is the one my heart aches for
I feel so sore without her body interlaced in mine
Tell me how again
How is she bad for me?
When i was with her and she was with me nothing could compete
183 · Nov 2017
Too high
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
I haven't drank
I don't self harm anymore
I don't want to forget
I love you
I love you as high as i am
I love you in the morning while im checking my phone hoping something changed
I love you at night while i check again
I love you while i have someone else take my phone
I love you while i put all our photos in a keepsafe with a password a friend set
I love you as i try to open it and look at you
I love you while I'm going crazy
I love you when im too high and I can only focus on what is important
You
**** I'm sorry.
170 · Oct 2017
Subtle reminders
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
Relationships
Sometimes they are mud and dirt
And alot of the times, it hurts
But you need to keep in mind
Fights and throwing **** is apart of it
If i were to paint the picture it wouldn't be the whole canvas
It wouldn't be the main point

If you ever feel like you cant see the point of the picture
Take your tooth brush out of my holder
Take your out fits out of my dresser drawer
And just leave me
Leave me fighting my own enemies
Because i don't want the thought of that weighing me
I would rather have an end then the painful mistake of trying to keep me
156 · Jan 2018
Dim Lights
Grey Pryor Jan 2018
The font in the back.
The low lights around.
and the all too familiar sound
of the voice of my lover.

a scratched up ring
empty pockets
dainty memories
and a future to be

I asked in the middle of Chili's  
i asked will you marry me
you were afraid id draw attention
you thought it was a joke

you realized a joke would have been a different tone
you wouldn't let my hand go
you said yes
thank you my love for being the best person to spend my life with
152 · Nov 2017
Worries
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
Here's the thing.
It doesnt matter how much someone else can see the beauty
I can't
I can't even come close.
I'm nothing but A model of dust and ruins
I'm nothing but hurting
I can't even breathe the same air as someone
Without the feeling of always suffocating
Help me to BE ABLE TO BREATHE
Help me to cope with my constant anxiety
149 · Oct 2017
Insanity
Grey Pryor Oct 2017
The definition of insanity
'Doing the same thing repeatly and expecting a different result'
You see I've been stuck in this insane place in my mind
With the same insane reasoning going threw my brain.
Counting calories
Eating
Fast food
And whole milk
Its killing me
Its killing me because I am trying to be better by doing the same thing as always
Im trying to get better by believing maybe someone loves me
I try to get better by hoping bigger is hot
But to me its not
I want to be skinny again
I want to have my face ****** in
It makes me feel beautiful when I get told it's good that i lost all that weight
It makes me feel more secure when people ask me for "my secret"
But lets be honest its not much of a secret when you drop 60+ pounds in a summer.
Its not a secret when you get to school and people ask you why you aren't eating
Its not a secret once you realize it isn't okay and go to get help
But no matter what i still have my calculations of how much an average slice of cheese pizza is in calories
I want to look like the worlds idea of healthy but the only way i get there is from being unhealthy
I wish we could come to the agreement maybe healthy looks different on everyone
And we could drop the sigma on body mass idex
141 · Nov 2017
Untitled
Grey Pryor Nov 2017
I truly don't know
I don't know what to do
Im stuck in between
Every atom of me wanting you vs  knowing what's going to drag me down
130 · Mar 2018
March 1st about 8:03pm
Grey Pryor Mar 2018
I was drunk
I was in love
I was happy
I asked again
Still waiting
130 · Jul 2019
Sick
Grey Pryor Jul 2019
When my heart broke
it was because I was told my life might be short.
When my heart broke
I realized I might not want to fight.
To fight life
I feel as if the reasons I had to fight have died.
That is the sickest part of it all.
129 · Aug 2018
On the dotted line
Grey Pryor Aug 2018
I have come to terms and conditions
Sign here to be in a different situation
Same outcome
Same benefits
Just the stress,  higher cost of living,  and restlessness.
Sign here to smile for money and be completely unhappy
You hide behind walls of shame and crave into the pressure
You fall and cry because you signed your life away for it to be the exact same.
126 · Jul 2018
Untitled
Grey Pryor Jul 2018
Meaningless TV and poetry
endless nights not falling asleep
my girlfriend constantly saying she loves me
I know she wants to marry me
And the worst part is I'm happy
124 · Sep 2018
(15W)
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
I need you to breathe.
I need you to give me life.
I need you.
123 · May 2018
Help.
Grey Pryor May 2018
At first you seemed like a breath of fresh air,
if I had only known.
You were a rag with Chloroform pulling me under and letting me go.
117 · May 2018
She Gives Me Butterflies
Grey Pryor May 2018
Before the love you gave me,
I was a caterpillar.
I was scared to do it again
I hid away from potential mates.
I build walls around myself
A Cocoon.
I never knew that one day I would be treated like the butterfly I truly am.
I am the butterfly she admires the colors of everyday
I am the beautiful one she keeps as hers
I tore apart myself due to the hurt
but I still managed to be a butterfly.
117 · Dec 2018
Little Wendy
Grey Pryor Dec 2018
I think I've been missing you
I can't tell if you were a blessing or a lesson
Most moments I loved it
I loved your soft green eyes
and the sweet disguise they were
I miss having someone to call on days like this
Our relationship was always a battle
yes, I won and lost
I lost you in the end
I just had hoped those green eyes were so sweet they would end up
my greatest ally.
117 · Sep 2018
stolen
Grey Pryor Sep 2018
When someone uses you to try to gain back their happiness
they are making you dull.
They are hurting you.
They are depending on you and taking away your own happiness.
112 · Mar 2019
now
Grey Pryor Mar 2019
now
Who are we?
What are we waiting for?
Can we cross paths again?
110 · Apr 2019
Teen Break
Grey Pryor Apr 2019
When we were kids laying in a field of grass
Our only worry was time
But now I worry more
Mainly of you.
Those naive kids wouldn’t drink
They saw too many of their loved ones falling.
Those kids wouldn’t smoke
They had homework due in the morning.
What have we become so far apart yet
Still managing to live the lives we said we never would
Are we something better or a gap in the wall ignored and hurt so many times
We’re numb?
106 · Mar 2019
echoes
Grey Pryor Mar 2019
Sometimes I realize what Iam doing is wrong
So I try to set you free.
You say you don’t want to leave out loud
but what is left in silence echoes louder
106 · Nov 2018
Female to Male
Grey Pryor Nov 2018
I miss her
the person my mother loved
I miss her smile, laugh, and way her body wasn't perfect
I miss the way she made being happy seem so easy
I miss how powerful her voice was and the way people cared
she isn't my family or lover
she was me before he
99 · Mar 2018
Terry
Grey Pryor Mar 2018
Have you ever been so depressed, that you sit in the shower?
Have you ever been so lost that you lose yourself too?
I'm not talking among the stars.
Or in someone's arms.
I plainly mean you are so beyond hoping for that you even give up on you.
I sit in the shower
I sleep more than 8 hours
I am always either hungry or lost my will to try
I am lost
I am holding on
And lately I hope its worth it
But when you reenter my mind
When you find your way in
I see you in EVERYBODY
I START GETTING SICK
I spend all my time either not talking or sleeping
Get the **** out of my head
Stop invading my dreams
Stop making me think everyone I love
Are all my enemies

— The End —