Zoë Bestel

Zoë Bestel Aug 2017

there are those in my life that i want to tell that i love them,
but i'm not in love with them.
there's a love i have for them, a love towards them,
but not a love i want to be consumed in
not a love i want to drown in
not a love that sinks deeply into my bones.
it's a love i feel true in my heart and want them to know,
but not be in it with them.

one day i'll find a love
so blindingly strong
that i must be enveloped in it

and that will be nice too

an original poem by zoë bestel 2017

#love

Zoë Bestel Mar 2016

there goes the sun

it's a shame summer friendships never stay
that the tide always comes to take away
a relationship happiest in the warm
but all melts quickly at break of dawn
when the cold realisation of who you are
creeps into the daylight, casting a scar
rushing to leave you with only the pain
of being alone once again

a poem i wrote a couple years ago but forgotten about but recently found

Zoë Bestel Jan 2016

imposter

at what age can you tell yourself;
you've lived long enough to be worthy?
lived long enough to say how you truly feel?
to have experienced enough of the world
to tell your stories of it?

Zoë Bestel Nov 2015

a day in november

cold toes
runny nose
steaming soup

lost socks
writers block
the first snow

dead leaves
bare trees
mouldy apples

grey skies
stay inside
my duvet fort

Zoë Bestel Nov 2015

Things I don't want

I don't want to wait any longer
I don't want to feel broken
I don't want to feel unwanted
I don't want to feel lonely
But I don't want to keep kidding myself
To imagine, what if

I don't want to love you anymore
Though you'll never know I did

Zoë Bestel Jun 2015

an apology

im
sorry
im
not
what
you
want
me
to
be

Zoë Bestel Jun 2015

just another girl

just another girl
with a cigarette in her hand
just another girl
with no life plan
just another girl
who walks alone
with no one holding her hand
just another girl
watching life burn down

i see her every tuesday
in the pouring rain
by the bus stop
she always looks the same
she never smiles
i sometimes wonder who's to blame
she doesn't get the bus
but is always back again

i wonder where she goes to sleep every night
and if there is someone there to hold her
tight
does she dream that one day
she'll be free?
free to live her life
the ways she wants to be

she hides her shame
like she hides her face
locks away the pain
in a secret place

she's just another girl
who has no where left to stay
just another girl
i see every tuesday
just another girl
who walks alone
but still gets led astray

*just another girl
who couldn't run away

a song written by zoë bestel
www.zoebestel.co.uk