Your standing at a cross roads
And you dont no which way to go
To the left is a road you've never known
To the right is the life youve lived and grown
As the rain pours down along your face
Your confused on which choice to make
Your scared of change and risk
You always belive youll fail the test
Even though your stronger than most
You dont belive you have anythin to boast
A predictiable stable life is what you want,
Descions and stress give you haunt
A fulfiled life is all you want,
My Wandering woman just follow your heart,
Dont worry what others think, its about what you want
Let nature be your guide and show you the way,
Choose a path and dont ever stray
Follow the sun the moon and stars,
Theyll always stay bright for you,
Just look to the sky whenever your blue,
Take a deep breathe and let it all flow out,
Before you make a descions no matter what about,
While your at the crossroads wanderer,
Always remember not to ponder,
Follow your gut and nothin but,
Dont let outside fears take control,
Your demons are no match for your heart,
Even though they may never let go,
Fight through them all with courage and wit,
Think on your toes and never sit,
Youll get through this wandering woman,
Never doubt what you are doing.
Never let your smile go dim,
It will brighten up any room,
Keep your eyes open wide
They are as blue as the sky,
Tread your gorgous soul onward dear,
There is nothing for you to fear.
As you stand at the crossroads before you
Remember these words i said to you,
If you choose the road you dont know
Or the one that youve grown accustom too
Just make sure that youll be happy first,
Happiness is your primary first.
Everything else can wait,
And i myself can always wait,
Ill wait until your seas have calmed,
Until it is safe to climb a shore,
Until your storm has subsided,
And you can no longer deny it.
Never the less ill always be by your side,
And for you ill hang up my pride.
You'll always have a place in my heart,
You always have right from the start.

The lord I give you my life
Because you had given yours
I put my trust in you
Because I know youll always be there

I love you
Not because you asked me to
Not because you created me and gave me life
But because no one could match your love for me

Your guidance is more than what i ask for
Your love is unfailing
Your strength is untouchable
Your My perfect lord i couldnt ask for anyone but you

I think of you now and then
I pray I say what I need to say
Sometimes even more Im short of words
But I can always carry a conversation with you

My Life isnt perfect im not perfect
But theres something perfect about me
And that is you
You created me just how I am

So I know im fine as long as I have you
My readers let the lord in your life
And you will see what Im talking about
The Lord loves you all.

Why must i be angry,
Why cant i be happy,
Im stuck with this disease,
It slowly eats at me,
Causing pain and suffering,
Instea of the good things im enjoying,
The pain, the evil,
Cause that is my seal,
My call, my path,
I leave behind a trail of wrath.
See it on the ground, an on their faces,
I am the thing that thrives in dark places,
I listen to the rock and the metal,
But i have no purpose and im like the kettal,
Only talked about as if im a joke,
I have a purpose, i hope you all choke,
This is my life, its not yours,
Shut up and leave or you blood will pour,
Flow down the streets, feed the rats,
Cause thats where ur body will be left at,
The forgotten place,
The evil space,
The longforgotten sorrow,
Youll find me tomorrow,
Sittin right here, not a change in mind,
But thats because they left me behind,
Suffering within my own head,
Please kill me or let yourselves be dead,
None shall survive,
None shall thrive,
Just take this from me,
And let me be,
Take my anger,
Leave me with laughter,
Im tired of being mad,
Id wrather be sad,
But i dont care,
Just dont sit there and stare.
Im stuck in a state of semi anger,
Just dont touch or youll go over,
Over the side,
Theres nowhere to hide,
Your dead now,
I dont know how,
But ur gone so it doesnt matter,
How you hit the ground, look at the blood splatter.

Stuck between two names,
Stuck between two destinies,
Will I go up in flames,
Or will I be consumed by the beast in me,
I want find my place,
In this world that empties me,
But I want to disappear without a trace,
But that I know can never be,
One or the other,
I must choose,
Should I find love with another,
Or all of it will i lose.

skipping stones
is the same as hoping thrones

well dont you know?
pardon me ill say it again

youll never know where im going
youll never be complete

and he said son
i havnt you in oh so long
how about dinner
at around 8 oclock
theres a secret sundown just for you

he says
ill meet you there
hot footed up the flight of stairs
lighting up when he got there
he shouts
i been lost at sea
hope youll forgive me

4:00
its been months since ive seen you
alot has changed but not us
i just redid my makeup
4:30
the mirror wont leave my hand
i want to impress you
5:00
30 more minutes and youll be here
i changed my clothes again
5:30
im standing on the sidewalk
still holding this mirror
i just put my hair up
i think it shows my cheekbones
6:00
youre just stuck in traffic
or something
6:30
i havent left this spot
i want to see you drive up
i put my hair back down
it compliments my eyes
7:00
theres heavy traffic this time of day
you stopped to buy me flowers
or something
you know i love surprises
7:30
today is the day right?
of course it is
ive been counting down for months
8:00
its getting cold
he'll be here any minute
8:30
any minute
9:00
i go in for a sweater
soon he'll be my warmth
soon
9:30
soon
10:00
soon
10:30
a tear rolled down my cheek
its okay though
he'll dry my tears
11:00
alone

a flashing glance
eyes locked in place
moistened lips
readying to find a home

you trust in the space
thats being closed in on
nothing turning into a touch
an action into attraction

some chances youll
never have again
mistakes youll
do over and over

it grows
the anticipation
space closing
closer
closer

loneliness
want
lust
fear
desire

dooms us all to love

Ever since that fucked up night
Im not sure If I've gotten worse
Or If I've gotten better
But I know that It'll be alright
because i was sworn with a curse
If I will let her in between my sheets
she will stick around in my head
and be the ringing in my ears
that will stick around for years
So that's what I did cause
I needed her here
I guess you could say
She was the best drug
And I've fucked with yay
and I've fucked with H
and you can fuck with me
but if you fuck my friends
when they say no
I will fuck up your nose
sternum, and existence in whole
So just get away and
move back to from where you came
I don't think I can stop shaking in anger
when you walk this way
So when this song will say
fuck you, fuck your family
It speaks for me and you can tell
so keep your head down
and keep on frowning when I look at you
Cause ever since that fucked up night
Im not sure if Ive gotten worse
Or if Im getting better
but you can be fucking sure
if you ever do something like that again
Youll be in severed into peices
and my floor will be wetter with
your blood than it has been with
alcohol
She was the best drug ever
but defending her by killing you
might be the best high Ill never have.... unfortunately