My droopy eyelids ach as if I saw the sight of the sun,
Walking silently, but swiftly; motionlessly into her arms
I hear the fragile air passing through her lungs
I feel the delicate pulse of her neck
The fragile but weak heart beat; beating down the seconds
I thought I felt nothing
Thinking it would only satisfy my cravings
as her life slowly became mine I dared not to look
But her faint smile overwhelmed me
The sweet sanguine fluid flowing down her body
Onto my lips
The only time I feel alive again is in this moment
Until my cravings are gone and the despair numbs me once more
Her vision distorts me from her sight
Not knowing who she is or why she let me gaze upon
Her image, but it's one image I will never forget
For each second I felt her neck
The first time I felt my heart
And for each pulse I felt
The more human I became.
I hope you dont think
My lack of consistence makes me weak
Cause if I stink
Persistence has a smell and I fuckin' wreak
Stuck in my speach,
Cause "I dont give a fuck" is hard to teach
So each week,
that goes by the life inside,gets weak
So life I find,
sometimes is outta reach
But... Time passes,
the days get longer and longer
Lookin' for answers in a pile of ashes,
as the resistance gets stronger
It's time to unwind, but I end up crashin',
cause I wandered
Keep it sublime, let the clock move slow like molasses,
while I ponder
love is a lie
love is what eats your thoughts up at 2am
love is what makes you curl up in your bed with tears smeared on your pillows and blanket
love is what makes you do things you've promised yourself you'll never do
love is what you build yourself around with and when it's gone it makes you want to disappear too
love is what you throw up after a night full of alcohol and hazy memories
love is what leaves you when you already feel so alone
love is what makes your heart beat fast and knees weak
love is what keeps you from loving yourself more
love is what tears you apart just from listening to that song that once meant the world to you
love is what you make out of it
love is what makes you human
and we are liars
The pain gets stronger and stronger
Each and every minute you are not near.
Distant haunting screams now fill my ears
As my eyes start searching, there about to tear.
I can never make it without you
And losing you is my only fear.
Vows given to you many years ago
Promising, right behind you I will instantly also go.
Never shall we ever be apart
And if so, that is when all the killing will start.
Deepest of all connections we do share
Complimenting each other we are the perfect pair.
So weak I am for I give you all my power
I’m writing this poem and it’s all about you
And look you have been only gone for a half an hour.
Please hurry, have fun and come back home to me, OK
Because there has never been a day
Where we haven’t seen each other every day.
Searching high and low for the fountain of youth
Hoping to fulfill the only wish you ever did
All because you said,
“Daddy, I wish you were like me,
so we can be together forever".
and then questioned me with,
Why can't you become a little Kid”
The thought of you crossed my mind today,
for the first time in weeks.
I wondered what sort of demons thought it would be funny
to do something like that to me.
I tried to play it off easy,
shaking it away from my mind.
After all, it's been much too long since you went away
and I'd look like a weak fool trying to pick myself up again
from the starting line
if there even is one anymore.
But I'd like to say I'm already across the finish,
that this race of forgetting you is over.
for that one brief moment when you managed to drill yourself back into my head,
I recognized the familiar voice of a past love.
I let go long ago,
I've got a car full of gas and places to go.
I've got sights to see and people to meet,
I've got things to do and love worthy to be found
and you're not slowing me down one bit anymore.
Thanks for the little reminder,
but no, I will not take you back.
You're reaching out in a last desperate attempt
to try and convince me that I need you.
I can only wonder why
you still seem to have a part of me.
I'll live with this burden for the rest of my days. Shaking off one memory at a time.
Some times the slightest touch
From someone you never knew much
Makes your heart go wild
With the pitter-patter
And nothing else matters.
Dark hair with a blond streak
Brown eyes that make me weak,
Dark brown eyes full of laughter.
You've stepped in my life
And now I'm falling, outta time
Gentle, strong hand on my waist
Pull me closer don't make me wait
To feel your lips on mine
To feel your body pressed against me
Feel your heart beat
I am something everyone searches for
No matter who you are,
Deep down, you crave me.
I can make your sun shine
Or I can bring you grey clouds
I can make you feel high
I can make you feel on top of the world
Like nothing could ever harm you,
Like you're invinvible
Or I can tear you down so low
I can make you do things you swear
You'd never do
I can turn the strongest people weak
The bravest people into cowards
I can be the reason behind your smile
When you wake up
Or I could be the reason you cry at night
When your head finally hits the pillow
What am I?
On that bright day his mind was unusually calm
He stopped by the beggar to offer him some alms
Feeling at peace with himself without a trace of qualm
He took a deep breath, with life he was coming to term.
Goodness he pondered was quite an achievable feat
A small spark that made him offer the old man a seat
Each familiar face he smiled at such easy was to greet
Inside him he grew healthier being good was great benefit.
Why men suffer jealousy fight for one-upmanship
Instead of trading for goodness most precious human keep
Just not burn to earn his food comfort and restful sleep
But live in shining goodness make life a rewarding trip.
Being good with one’s own kind he felt wouldn’t do
Other lives around him must kindly be treated too
A crumb of bread for the street dog on its head a little pat
Pints of milk and a little care for the weak and ailing cat.
As he walked the road thoughts like these lighted up his face
He found waiting on wayside many things begging goodness
Determined he would reach them all do them a little good
He sprinted along in a sprightly gait his mind in deep brood.
Back home when she opened the door he gave her a broad smile
She glowered a little askance for he hadn’t done it a while
What brings you this sheepish smile what for the elation?
Don’t even think you can ever make on me a good impression!
I know you're doing just fine
I'm sure of it,
I however have been miserable :)
In your absence and all that you did to heal yourself
You tore from me, and with it have become whole
and i am left here
Blowing in the winds of perpetual unresolve
sheltered from the pelting rain of ignorance and sorrow
only by temporary fragile and weak relationships
Staggering to my own two dwindly legs
to face each day so promising with the guilt of selfishness on my back
YOU have healed...
I have Hurt,
I am falling
for an escape
I've become numb
Storms inside me
I'm so tired
Monsters in me
I am too weak
to keep fighting
I'm so desperate
I'm still drowning
Can't keep swimming
Someone save me
when I'm dreaming
She is flying
she is smiling
but awakes to
I am running
a new story