It started on my lunch break at work,
I ordered and you gave me a smirk.
Something inside me stirred,
You couldn't like me, that'd be absurd.
I smiled too much,
I hope you didn't notice it when our hands touched.
I left with your face in my mind,
As I left that restaurant behind.
I told my co-workers all about you,
But they wanted me to do what I couldn't do.
They urged me to go get your number,
But I was a firecracker, and you were thunder.
The next day, you came into my work
And this time I got to play clerk.
I tried to keep myself from grinning,
But at this point, my mind was spinning.
You left your change behind,
And the receipt, you declined.
I tried my best to be flirty and cute,
But I failed at going down that route.
You walked out and looked back at me,
And the inside of me filled with glee.
My co-worker said you were interested,
And if you really were, I'd be privileged.
I figured someone as cute as you would never be into me,
So I let things be.
Another encounter without
A phone number.
Then my friend directed me to your Facebook,
And when I got to it, I shook.
I wasn't sure if I should add you or not,
But despite my better thought,
I added you, hoping you wouldn't think I was crazy.
What comes after is a bit hazy,
But you complimented me,
And a smile was all that night could see.
You asked me if you could take me out,
And inside, I felt myself scream and shout.
I can't wait to see you again sometime,
Because you are one hell of a dime.
That smile, those eyes
They could make a girl like me die.
I've been looking all along for someone like you,
Maybe we could start something out of the blue.
I think I've quite possibly found what I've been looking for
In the Taco Bell right next door.
My heart heavy
Knowing the truth
Only setting me back
Reality sets in
I can't fight it off
Farther, and farther
I can't reach the bottom
When will it end?
Ill continue to spin
Until fate sets in
Urged to inhale
The breeze of death.
A constant battle
Playing a game
Is it all in my head?
Someone love me?
Someone want me?
Loneliness seeps through my soul
I can't bare this existence
With no one around
To hear my screams
Ill be gone...
Before you know it.
With no one to catch me.
As I spiral into infinity.
Every night she would lie in bed and finger the stars
Pressing her rough cherry lips to the moon.
Sometimes it seemed as though
Everything was attacking her.
The expectations of the world pressed down
With coarse intolerant hands.
Nights seemed different.
Her eyes would bathe in the sadness of the moon
And her heart wouldn't be attacked.
If she urged her mind into the sublime
She could feel small.
Just as she had always dreamed.
During a time not long ago
When children played tag in alleyways,
There lived a man, a hero,
In worn clothes with very humble ways.
\The neighborhood kids called him John.
No one was sure if he even had a last name.
He was a mystery, a puzzle this John.
Guess his last name and you win the game.
\John walked up the same alleyway everyday,
The kids would listen for his whistle
And the tap of his cletes gave him away,
Not bothered by Life's sharp thistle.
\He greeted us with his eternal smile
Which he wore like the cap on his head.
We always urged him to stay awhile
He would nod,"Maybe tomorrow," he said.
\We decided to give him an identity
As we sucked popsicles on a hot day.
He'd no longer be a nonentity,
He became John No Name in our child's play.
It was her graduation day
It was my busiest day
It was her important day
It was my DEADLINES day
But I promised her...
My maternal instinct urged to react..
I threw my files away
I drove like crazy...
Almost hit a pregnant cow..
It stopped in the middle of the road...
Staring at me... You are late MOMMY!!!
ahh cynical cow...
I rushed to the school hall
I came darling... I came...
There she stood sobbing...
I came Ali... I hugged my daughter
She was mad.. She had tears on her cheeks
She had tears brimming in her innocent eyes
I did not apologize… selfish I was
I wanted her to understand instead...
Mommy is late but Mommy is here…
I put my hand on her chest
Mommy is always here...
Doesn’t matter how late…
She smiled a little
She smiled a bit more
She hugged me tight
And laughed and giggled…
My sweet daughter…
I LOVE YOU MORE..
I created a monster.
Seeing what I did,
I can't help it.
The heat of anger swells in my veins.
I helped you,
Gave you reason.
And now it is thrown back in my face.
You are not better than me.
I really do not understand.
Tears of hate jump to my eyes.
We used to be so close.
And now I cannot stand you.
I honestly blame myself.
This hatred and anger in my soul,
It is my fault.
I created a monster in you
And you will always be
“Do not be afraid”,
The poet said.
“Come, follow me,
Take my hand” he urged,
As he stood on the burning bridge.
“I will guide you into places
Where you have never been,
To see sights that you have never seen”
And guide us he did,
This wonderful man,
With words and rhythms
And rhymes and reasons
That we had never heard,
The lines of which we had never learned
And when he took us home,
At the end of our long journey,
We felt refreshed and alive,
As if the sky had washed us
In a way it had never done
Whilst we sang a song we had never sung.
And this poet even put us to bed
And he watched as we dreamed
Of worlds we had never seen,
Of words we had never spoken,
In a way we shall never forget
And with a love that we shall never regret.
And the poet said,
“Do not be afraid”
I buried you in the backyard of my soul
In self defense I sang a requiem,
I theorized- what harm could do a hole
If dug by me and filled in at the end?
I held your funeral, mourned cold at your grave.
I sat vigil until the morning light.
And my heart I hardened, should it have forgave
Your absence and distraction, dead as night.
I urged the moss to swallow up the stone
Which said, "Here lies another lightning strike."-
The newness of the wound couldn't condone
The pungence of the churned up soil's bite.
And once the grass had taken, loosely, root,
And from the corner of one's eye the place looked old,
I hurried by, each day and night, a mute-
To make it old my heart I would have sold.
But no matter how stoic I try to be
I find that in my love of you I dwell.
Perhaps I shouldn't've looked so tenderly
Upon your cold face as the spades of soil fell.
What fake, plastic, pathetic
Alone and lost caged
within their aliases
Their urged embraces turn to
meaningless sex; a false sense of security
Rich, spoiled, tragic
Their egos towering, fiery and hot
hiding from rejection
guarding their sincerity
Rest, you sad
Are you afraid?
I didn't know how hungry I was
until you leaned over and kissed me
there was no build up
no soft kisses before the hard ones
its an explosion
as both our hands
re-explored chartered territory
reunited with each other
your hips urged
and mine responded
your hips pressed and rubbed
and I responded
your hands pulled me tight
and stroked me
your fingers entered
and my back arched
I want you
with my body
I want you
with my heart
But you pull away from me
and we sleep
just to pull me close again
how can I say no?
my body is screaming yes
clothes are lost
I've never been so
naked with anyone before
you know me better
you see me more
you know what my body wants
but you won't
you know me better
you know me completely
you know what my heart wants
but you wont