She would often take long walks,
Long walks on a forest path, she hated walking around city blocks.
She would walk with such grace,
As her brunette hair brushed her dress trimmed with lace.
She would walk into a sunny glade,
The only place that wasn't filled with shade.
There she would lay in the evening sun,
The only place she didn't have to run.
She would dance all the time,
This was her place where she could be free to rhyme.
Then she would sit down and put flowers in her hair,
Here, she didn't need to hide from peoples staring stares.
Then she would begin to walk when it was time to go,
Before she would leave, the wind would begin to blow.
Knocking out the flowers in her hair,
She would then be exposed to their dark stares.
The flowers drifted in the wind,
And landed on the soft grass, may this be a reminder.
That I won't give you a dark stare,
If you my dear, decide to put flowers in your hair.
So you finally came
back from where you were hiding.
Where was it?
Was in the far away cracks of the mountain, so deep.
With the caves of ice and diamond.
Where nothing that breathes can live?
Was it in the far away seas?
In the spaces between the dark waves.
And light eyes staring?
Have you come back to see if your cold can numb my heart?
to leave it dormant and hollow?
To push your lips against mine and fill me with a dead ice.
No, not this time.
When you left I carried your ice with me, wanting to keep you close.
But you stayed away to long, and nothing lived inside.
I wanted to see the lilies again, the iris's.
Hear the bird song breaking through my dreams.
So I found a sun, and he showed me how to make fire.
Your ice didn't disappear, it just changed
Broke open into water.
and flooded the thirsty valleys.
The vibrant colors are back.
And the birdsong that breaks through my dreams
There was a time I believed in angles
I thought everything was true
I thought I had all the answers
With every line delivered on queue.
The stage seemed always set for me,
And all my props and lines did too
Eventually I came to see
The lime lights vastly dimming hue.
Torn from my starring role,
My only golden years
I lose a sense of innocence
Due to bigger fears.
My little stage
Is now a memory,
Merely written on a page
The fact that every actor must face this
Seems completely deranged.
In these moments
I'm just so confused
and yet I don't know why
I'm so scared to love you
Because why would you love me?
even though you tell me all the time
I can't even love myself
and why should anyone else
I'll tell you why I don't love myself
it's because I'm not pretty and useless
I don't know why you love me
when I can't see what you see
I can only bring pain
from battles that were lost
and my scars hid their secrets
But how could you
I can think of a million reasons
why I love you
but you tell me
you can't see
How could you
It's the way you smile
and how I get lost in your eyes
the feeling of your touch
you have me mesmerized
And now I understand
how to love someone
who can't even
your energy competes with mine,
a battle just to feel alive.
i know that i can't beat you,
so i only live to please you.
you cast away my sorrows
you numb all of my pain
they say i have everything to lose
but there is nothing for me to gain
you're my only support,
yet they say you tear me down.
i've been told to look forward,
but i like this view from the ground.
i seek you in the shadows,
constant struggle, endless fight.
and every time i find you,
they rush to turn on the light.
i smile at the thought of you
dancing in my veins,
my body is just a vessel,
you are my soul, my heart, my brains.
you let me be myself
though i don't know who that is.
i've lost track of who is using who--
but that is half the bliss.
i lean my head back,
let the world drip, and melt, and shatter.
i can't remember-- what is reality?
i suppose it doesn't matter.
you made me trust that you would join me
in the depths of my despair.
but lately it seems like you dragged me,
like i wasn't already there.
There with the discarded shoes
false teeth and hair
lays the rag doll
the child that loved it has gone
Her muffled cries
forever will be etched in time
no more cuddles
for the death camp doll
All were told the were being displaced
by those bastards who said
that by there Ideals
they were the master race
The camp is silent now
all the huts are empty
all that is left
is the death camp doll
By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
Please don't walk away
I want you to stay
It's been too long
I can't wait
When are you gonna come back
Let's get back on track
What we had before
We don't need anything more
you liked me once
you can do it again
I don't want to be just friends
I want you here by my side
And think of you every night
I just want you a second time
The last thing I wanted to do was say goodbye.
But I'll know you're sill with me every time I look up to the sky.
The way the stars shimmer, they'll remind me of your laugh.
The way the sun shines, it'll remind me of my angel that has passed.
I miss you so much.
I can't wait to see you again someday.
And I hope you know I'll never forget you. Not a single day.
I never have been
and never will be
A drop in the ocean
of suffering and pain
my tears I cried
And for what?
to have you not notice me
and I can't seem to shake the feeling
of desperation and utter silence
My body cries for you
I need you
but you don't need me
You're my choice of drug
bringing me pain and joy
killing me and bringing me to life
all at the same time
You make me feel
anger and happiness
but it is because you are not mine
and it makes me want you more and more
You are hers
you always have been
and always will be
I will be long forgotten
like an old memory
the dream I chased
I tried to give up
and not to care
but you were
the morphine to my life
I wish you peace
on your journey of life
and maybe someday
our paths will intertwine
it comes in waves
more so than any
thing i've put in my system
a brutal break
incapacitated by addiction
time went by
you went your way i went mine
but life don't let
you off so easy
fighting that tingle in the spine
thought myself further than i am
i'll avoid meeting
end hiatus greetings
but i'm only humbly a man
stronger now than ever
mind and soul
in confidences i now stand
you'll float on in
just like i've dreamt
but it's me who'll have the upper hand