This is me now,
I have no armor left.
You've stripped it from me.
Whatever is left of me,
whatever this is, whatever I am,
I am yours to keep.
Whatever it takes,
whatever you need me to do,
don't turn away, say you'll stay,
I see the stars and they're not so far.
We will get it back,
I'm ready to get back in it,
it just takes steps and time,
Believe in love and the immensity of it.
Believe that it is love.
How do I love thee?....the beginning words of one of your favorite sonnets.
I could never stop counting the ways or comparing thee to a summer's day.
Te amo bebe....Je t'aime nebe.....Ich liebe dich, baby.....all languages = same.
No duress here.....I choose to live life on a maybe you will or wont love again.
Is it anyone's bees wax but mine?....A big old hell to the no way on that one.
Please pick as many gifts as you wish on me from Sharper Image or Nordies.
Time for annual meeting Mr. Frustration......Pls accept what I'm happy to buy.
Any other lady would be chomping at the bit, thrilled I'm using no limits cards.
Got a big surprise for you my Pet, hope you like it and there's no need to ship it.
It's a little somethings I bought just for me and you with thoughts of our future.
Bought matching wheel chairs so we can ride off into the sunset to Gray land.
Ms. Betty Ponder, I adore and give you my heart.....I love you and always will.
If you choose to cast me aside.....history will most definitely repeat.......I return
alone to that place where I went the last time you walked out of my life.
Taking with me happy memories, the scent of your body after perfumed baths,
the sound of your laughter and sexy voice captured forever on recordings, the
way your face looked as you gazed up at me with deep passion in those eyes and
all the many qualities about you that make you my one and only unforgettable
shorty and now and forever.............the gorgeous Ms. Betty Ponder.
Exuberant bursts of smoke trails litter the hazy fields of battle
Where the wounded and those done suffering are a symbol of freedom
In each small entanglement and the devastations of great loss
each face may not be remembered, but their hearts are not lost
As the tears of loved ones fall hard from above
To sift through the earth where their bodies now slumber
And with each fresh release of a soul proud and relinquished
Brings forth new life in progress and the cultivation
Of time filled with lessons and blood, tears, and toil
To build anew strong, a foundation, from which to stand true
A remarkable journey of souls side by side
Comrades in a cause for which pride is an emblem
Integrity, honor, and the will of great progress
To span over lands beyond which eyes can see
In the formation of a nation strong in liberty.
I see you around sometimes,
it's both bitter
because I know you're ok and you're alive.
because I know I can't say a word to you,
that I can't ask you "what's up" anymore.
I sit here in tears,
With an incredible ache in my heart,
With pain in my soul
thinking of all the wasted moments and words...
Oh how I wish I could redo some moments.
But there are no rematches,
no do overs,
only rewards and penalties..
And I lost big time.
I lost not just you,
but a sense of direction and focus.
Of all the things taken away,
I miss my mind the most.
I wish I could write the perfect words to say
I miss you,
I love you.
I wish just saying them like that was enough because it's the God honest truth..
I miss you,
I Love You,
so so much.
Come back to me..
Come back to Us,
Me & You,
It's been cold for the past few days,
it's been dark a little longer,
and the sun takes it's time to rise.
The days are now slowly changing,
summer to fall,
Fall to winter,
I can't help but notice that I too am changing with it.
My heart is slowly freezing over,
my thoughts stay dark a little longer
and I to take my time to rise in the mornings, because I know you won't be there.
Everyone tells me to move on, even you.
The hardest thing that I heard you say is
"I'm not your girl anymore".
It was like a knife to the heart.
I still care endlessly
and my heart still has the same love for you.
I sit far, far away, miles apart but yet
I hope you know you are never alone.
I keep watch over you,
that my guardian angel watches over you too.
You won't ever know that I was there,
checking up on you everyday,
for as far as you know... I truly disappeared.
I'm not gonna pretend that you're alone in the nights,
I know he's there.
You're probably hanging out and making nice
and he has the nerve to ask my girl to dance
and you'll say yes,
but in my head you were always mine
and that's how I'll remember you.
As mine and me as yours.
I won't let go,
even if you have,
I'll keep the faith for the both of us right now
and if you don't come back like you're supposed to, well then..
You may be out of sight,
out of my path now
but you are never out of my mind.
I'm a man of my word and for as long as I can,
I'll make sure you are safe and sound
give you the lights,
all the lights to guide you home.
Collection from a long time ago..
i am a little soda bottle,
but not an empty one,
there's much more than air in my neck,
i'm full of the most dazzling drink,
you've never had.
so many tiny bubbles,
ready to burst at the surface,
its just no one's taken the time,
to open me up,
and have a sip or two yet.
When i was a little girl i thought i was in love
I thought love was just having a boyfriend
I thought that love was just saying he's mine
But i have never been so wrong
When i was 13 i thought holding hands was love
I believed that when you kissed it was love
My mom said my dad said he loved her and she knew that was love
The first time someone said they loved me
I panicked because it felt so wrong
It felt wrong to say i love you when you dont
To this day i still dont know what love is
Yes i have said it to people before
But that did not mean much
Love cannot be forced
My mom says love comes when the time is right
Stop wasting time looking for love
Live your life and make mistakes while you can
Love will find you
I think the worst part is
being totally helpless,
and having to sit here
and wait patiently
like a good girl
while other people
get to decide for me
wether or not
it is acceptable
for me to love him.
As if they get to choose
how I feel
and how I get to act
on those feelings.
It's like they see themselves
that can pull whichever strings they want
and demand me to follow suit,
without saying a single word
of any kind of protest at all.
And once upon a time,
I may have even danced for them,
but my cheeks have gotten tired
from painting on forced smiles,
and my heart is wearing thin
from all the tug-of-wars
between their limits
and my own freedom.
So I think that it's time
for this puppet show to end.
And I'm sorry,
but these strings are being cut–
so if there's an encore,
it'll finally be up to me.
The Sun's not shining today
Winter casted clouds aren't allowing any light
To warm up a standing dead
Not quite as graceful as I remember it,
Back in the days when I used to hunt rabbits
With my father just to spend time with him;
We'd forgotten our guns at home on every occasion
But it falls,
Under an overcast sky
Tantalizing to the touch
Tactile, white and intricate
Full of holiday, youth and spirit
A reminder now;
Cold, fragile, weak and
Not quite as graceful as before
A perfect metaphor
For what my life has become
I have a friend in Rapid who I haven't seen
In months less than it feels
We used to build tree forts
Bridges across rivers
We used to pretend we had tremendous powers
To control the weather, earth and fire
What I'd do to have them back
Toy story was our favorite
We'd watch it every night
Later on even re-enacting it
I haven't seen him in such a long time
Maybe a foot of snow by now
It's largely all my fault
It's because I'm not sure how
I can explain to him that over the course of a few years,
He's since aged to a happy 15 and I've,
I've somehow hit my mid-life crisis
In the same time period
How does someone to from a vibrant young youth
From 15 to 54?
I'm not sure
And I don't bother with explaining
So I never said goodbye,
I couldn't face him now
"Where have you been?"
I've been attending an on-going funeral
My innocence was found hanging from a tree
I won't tell him that it was found hanging in one of our old forts
He'd go out and look for it
Make an adventure back to when we had tremendous power
I can't have that
I'd break down and cry
I'd become angry knowing I died so early
With so much in my hands
I'd hang myself coming face to face with what I lost;
Be a Doll could you,
Be sure to classify it as a murder will you?
Surrender at Dawn: The Day
Nothing to prove, time slowly crawling into my veins,
My lips touch the smoke exiting my mouth,
Morning dew you are I see, Wondering just what is inside of me,
We can joke now about last night...it's our job.
Can you feel it?
Wave goodbye for the night never knows if it lives only once.
Can you see her? Pale perfection, nothing more.
It's all coming back later, so don't you worry about little insignificances and mistakes you made.
You haven't made any mistakes this far;
Can you feel it?
Why don't you show me the way, show me the day;
I've never aged any other way than how I know.
I can feel the power flowing from my closest,
The nearest thing to me is one inside itself.
Me, what I've done, cannot be summed.
Soon as day grows weary, Soon as time closes shop,
The infinite dreams lie ahead.
Over the horizon, it's coming soon;
Can you feel it?
What could happen? What will become of tonight?
What will become of us?
You and I, it's drawing closer to us...the unavoidable.
The sun sets slow but early, the wind growing a dense cold,
The steady silent chill in every November night,
I feel the cold in my bones, I feel the anxiousness in my hands;