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a doctors nothing more than a man in a coat
he makes promises to fix you to keep his life afloat
it isnt hard to see
they think lifes a game, and they'll sell you drugs if you let them happily
taking bribes from corporations, they do it so simply
then they push you out the door niftly
truley leaving you empty handed
placebo takes effect
take the drugs til theres nothing left
while the doctor has the check
you should save that money for your rent
cant no man cure you, you're cured
cant no man undo damage done, thats what i heard
its what i know, and what I live to be true
so the next time a doctor tells you what to do
take it light heartedly , he's in it for the bribe see
Theres this chemical found
in the books you love
that makes the smell of turning the page
stimulating.
Reminding me of every word I've ever learned
that wont fit the smell of a number two pencil
with the language given.
I will try.
Because I was taught elementry things that I still dont understand
like how to give up.
What is taught isn't always blowing through your sense.
So lend me your ear and hear this.
Help me remember the miracle
of tragic wealth,
where oppurtunity in the ventures of wallstreet
is worth more than everybody else
and somehow still
no child gets left behind.
Leaving only our parent's nuerosis that become our friends
inability to write poetry.
The form of a child is something to be ashamed of
and you better believe that the ink can't speak
because growing up
that lesson that did sink in
under your skin is how you've never been able to say what you mean.
So run along lil duckling
traffic wont wait in this brisk pace
of a life you better learn.
We don't have time for nature.
A mother we grow to think we were born into
but out of?
Oh into,
the biggest lie to convince us
that such a thing as original exists
when the closest to original you'll get
is the collage of your human experience.
Turning school children into ducklings
reality into god
war into novels
spanish harlem into charity abroad
body language into a farewell to your fear
and journal studies into truth
but if I wanted to talk about the absolute
it's poetry I'd read to you.
Because when I saw god
I had to
touch
my
self.
To even come
close
every bead of sweat evidence of
the good work
the lessons learned
and all the things that I must burn.
To keep pace in this place
climbing a catalogue
I
must
escape.
So
when my time comes
I won't
be afraid
to
turn
the pa
ge.
theres a darkness in my skin
furrowed somewhere deep within
the place thats made when you're really young
where every song and story begun
I could never sing louder
than the yells and the shouts
the fear in my eyes
tried to blur it all out
but my armor was soft
made of light and love
so some of it
seems to of
snuck in
still fighting now
but my army has grown
imagination and life
now stand by my side
and Im no longer alone
and I never will be
ever
so I fight this divide
one foot on each side
but the enemies are advancing
and I cant keep dancing
on two different stages
Im no longer turning
but burning
the pages
of a story that was never mine
expectations in fragments and phrases
go up in the smoke
but this time as they poke
my armor
I smile, slowly
and blow them away
til
there
g o n e
What do you do when you have to let go?
When theres nothing left to grow?
Do we move on?
Or do we stay and remember whats gone?
Letting go...
It brings tears and brings your worst low.
Im sorry I was the cause of this,
And im sorry we didn't get one last kiss...
Im sorry I complicate things,
But I know what it could bring..
Letting go...
Its tough.. it brings tears and breaks you down to your all time low.
Its always been the same risks get took and secrets get kept never to be spoke of.so many lines have been cross for me theres no way back.
Tears roll down eyes my heart breaks your changing by the mintue.we don't talk like we use to theres a gap between us.
My love has never changed what ever is going on we'll get throught it some how.please don't give me on up us.
Its always been the same risks get took and secrets get kept never to be spoke of.so many lines have been cross for me theres no way back.
Tears roll down eyes my heart breaks your changing by the mintue.we don't talk like we use to theres a gap between us.
My love has never changed what ever is going on we'll get throught it some how.please don't give me on up us.
Across the hallway, the lights fade away
You think about it, every single day
The winds blow out the leaves,over your name
The neon halo flies, out to the sky
You close your eyes now, darkness arise
The burden of your pain, slipped on by
I say
Cover me night in silver moonlight
You're shining with the stars
The night is silently bright
I reached for you, you drifted away
Left behind and theres so much to say
Time flies on to the day we meet again
Carry me over to the land of tomorrow
Fill me with hope take away my sorrow
Crash into my mind with the musical morn
Laugh away now, i will join you at dawn...
Theres a sickness inside
a false idea
that wants to be nursed
by the same hands thats wretched me from the truth
the truth
is my home
I could be locked into a room with mothers warm linen
clutching you around me
but theres the wild
as it was never strained from me
and it makes me want to overthrow
the comfort
the security of what is that was never materialized
I want free-free-free-dom
I can accept the discomfort
like wet clothes
holding me like a heavy hostage as I roam
I want freedom, I want mobility
because deep inside of me, I know the truth, without it needing to be performed
so much so that it haunts me
every time you kiss me
even in my dreams
dowsed in the warmth
struck with the urge to pull back from a burning flame
as it encircles around my soft flesh
my hard peircing soul
wants to run from the devils gold
so dont you l-l-l-ove me
love me love me
love me
I am free
but the bars of my heart strings push you aside
like a werewolf
my instinctual nature has me tied
in the wilderness
I go back and forth
on the roads that will bring me further from you
when I feel my dreams
consuming all that I see
Time's such a funny thing,
sometimes it goes on forever,
sometimes it doesn't last long enough.
We live by the hour and plan by the minute,
we moan no matter how slow or fast it goes.
I wish there was no structure,
we could live freely with no worry.
But time's ticking away and theres nothing we can do,
Except live every minute to the full
and never waste a second.
Walking down this road for so long.
Searching for that ray of hope.
Always straining my eyes looking all nightlong,
trapped between these walls i tried to cope.
I lose myself little by little with every step,
I almost forgot what i was searching for.
Then i a glimps of something so i quickend my steps,
My heart quickened as i ran across the floor.
"Theres a way out!" i thought,
I started to laugh a thing a never done in a while.
I started to run towards that little light that filled my heart with hope
But then the ray started to get thiner and thiner.
I ran faster and faster but i wasn't fast enough,
I tryed to grasp the light...but i was to late.
I fell unto the ground tears rolling down my face,
So i crawled up into a ball thinking theres no way out.
Then i realized i was trapped in this ever lasting darkness,
Cursed to forever wall down this never ending pavement.
So i stopped and waited for that day were i can see that ray once again.
