Here's a temper tantrum I'd like to write down:
There are not enough words to describe,
Not enough words that could help me articulate,
Not enough words that can possibly substantiate,
The insane amount of perturbed I feel,
If I was capable of doing so,
I'd take this time to apologize for being a brat,
Unfortunately, at this time, I don't believe I can do that,
Considering I feel my soul being sucked out by endless stupidity,
I'm not good enough,
I'm not young enough,
I'm not tiny enough,
I'm not enough,
This may not be my time,
And maybe the next shot won't be it too,
But I guess I'll just have to decide to make do,
Besides, I hear that good things come to those who wait,
Or something like that,
Fuck, who cares?
I'm still too pissed to concentrate.
I cannot stand the taste of salt
On my tongue as the night drags on
And although it is my own fault
I cannot stand to know you’re gone;
Sheets covered in raindrops – no,
Those are pieces of my heart
And I find myself alone tonight
(Perhaps deservingly so);
Didn’t mean to yell, to fall apart;
I’ve always feared the light.
My lips are unbearably numb;
Is this how I’ll miss your kiss?
Is this what I’ve become?
Lost your love in the abyss,
The depths of my own mind,
Where voices ring loud:
“You are not worthy!”
Oh, I do apologize;
Words like these won’t make you proud,
But neither will girls like me.
I am acquainted with early hours
Of the morning, and yes
One a.m., I miss the flowers;
Midnight has already seen the mess
That is my forlorn heart
And yes, two a.m.,
You may wipe clean my canvas face
For sadness is not a work of art;
Were my lips not meant to part again?
Perhaps I am simply a soul misplaced.
if love was all it took
to bring a soul to life
imagine plight of death
how haters could survive
His eyes pierced my soul
His crooked smile made my heart break
His hatred for life made me weak
He was like dark chocolate, a decadent need
He was everything I despised in a man
Arrogant, snide, rude and aggressively mean
He was beautiful, a sight to behold
He was everything and nothing all at once
He could sense weakness in everyone he would meet
His eyes were knowing and clouded
His disdain for people was attractive,
like the pull of gravity
He was the perfect fallen angel, scorned,
dark and vengeful
He pulled me into the darkness buried deep
within my heart
He made me fall like Lucifer to the black
His charm sucked me in, he was a sneaky
as a snake
He was all I ever wanted, the one thing
I didn't need
Temptation, however, never tasted so sweet.
Craving (Part I)
She's calling you like a fog rolling in
Beckoning to you as a book turns it's pages
And you're craving her like a bullet to the chest
She feels like chocolate ushering itself down your throat
Looks like sound painted across the sky
Tastes of sun on the beach
Gnaws at your mind like a dove
A release like prison chains
Hunt (Part II)
Trace her foot steps
Catch her sideways glances
The soft sound of her laugh
Like rain on the sidewalk
Capture her soul
A bird caged with clipped wings
Teach her to sing a song of freedom
Show her how to fly again
Possession (Part III)
Pull her in close
Stay her trembling body
Feel her warmth
Through soft silk
A question on finger tips
Response through her kiss
Bring her back to the cage
And make her feel safe
Lay her down gently
Slowly peel away
The walls she hides behind
Take away her defenses
Gradually unravel her from her skin
And the heart is yours
Free for the taking
Graveyard Valentine (Part IV)
But she's not what you think
Your expectations were too high
All these ideals in your head
She won't live to be
Maybe she's only human
No angelic being would fall this far
Her soul was offered to you
Bare and shuddering at the vulnerability
So you take it in your hand
And its essence repels you
What filth she's turned out to be
Life is a right to be earned
And she has failed
So you take it from her
Cold steel laughs
But she did love you
One last blood stained kiss
And a rose in a jar
On your bedside table
To remind you of her
And the others who disappointed
I think you've missed the point
Unknown, so far yet right before us
Paths divided we choose our destiny
Leaning on the hopes of adventure
Forging onward, we all secretly pray
That life will give great tales
Of heroic feats
And golden days
Moments of grand designs
Times where endurance is our only ally
But we endure all the same.
People say these are lies
Empty rooms, but
Look past the flat world we inhabit
Into the adventure of our lives
The running water and quiet forest trails
Soft sunlit evenings and mountainous storms
This world we live
The greatest map ever made
Holds chances for legacy to be born
But only if you grasp it
Take it in your hands
Feel it burn
See its light break through your fingers
Glimmering it desires a main character, you
Let it drip down your arms
Across your chest encasing your soul
Look onward my friend
And join me on this adventure.
As my soles strike the concrete
My soul soars across the skyline
And I catch myself considering
The constant conflict of life,
And the concept of beauty by which
Then I see a skyscraper
And my mind goes ballistic
With a sudden epiphany
Each window holds a story
Of a person or a family
Facing challenges like me
And the whole of humanity
I stand there
As I consider the potential
And I begin to entertain
The ludicrous notion
The world isn't broken
If all of those windows
Set aside all adversity
We could face any problem
With the highest degree of certainty
Up on the hill the fire roars,
hisses and spits out sparks that reach to the skies.
Dancing away from the flames like souls from a battlefield.
One by one by one they fly.
Amongst all the chaos there's someone.
Sitting back from the heckling crowd.
A man who fears no man or evil
nor any a soul in the clouds.
His reasons long tempered by living.
Long days with the sickle and plough.
If it wasn't for hard work forgiving.
He wonders if he'd be here now.
There is no one I want to talk to more right now than you.
There is no one I want to see die more right now than you.
No one I want to see have their dreams crushed, hope shredded, body bruised,
standing before the alter with the glory of Athena, hold in the soft cradle
of my arms as you draw your last breath,
You are the name on my lips as I drift into peaceful slumber.
You are the screaming nightmare thrashing in soaked blankets, as I rip apart
my chest, desperately seeking the heart you stole.
"You stole my heart" - as if I could condense your achingly beautiful soul into
that crusted cliche, this drivel of words, jumbled, trying to make sense of
You who I will never get over.
You who I will never drive completely from my mind.
You who I will never heal from.
You who I will never forget.
You consume my future, as you consumed my past.
But I can no longer hate
You. Nor hate another, nor love another, nor ever feel any semblance of anything
You shattered my passion when you shattered my heart.
I've never been able to find either since.
I don't think I'll be coming out
From the whole in this ocean
Of hopes and desires I made up
It's splitting me apart
And I don't know what to do
All I know is that one of them is me
And one is you
He's going to be a star some day
As I waste my efforts trying to
Climb the mountain of his soul
I want to be on the inside
I want you to just let me in
'Cause I think it's warm enough for the two of us
Please, I don't think I have much left
So can we please begin
If there's a future for us then
I don't want to have to wait forever for it
It's so damn difficult to keep standing still
I want to dive right in and be alone
Alone with you
I won't break my promises
I just want you to let me in
My life's starting to tear me into two
And I don't know what to do
And I don't know which one is me
And I know one was made by you
And I'm kind of scared but I don't want to say it
I just want to be with you