To say that the metaphysical mystique of the human race
is an imaginary condition is a gross denial of evolutional
principle . What then is the nature of problematic prosthesis,
the personification of sartorial perfection , or the picturesque
visage of spectral grace ?
You stepped off this earthly dirt too many days too soon.
A brightly shining light burnt out, at quarter till noon.
A fortunate few there to say goodbye
to hold your hand, to sit and cry.
But why?
Why today, why right now
Why is it that your beating life was something nature wouldn't allow
to carry on and flourish
You had a soul to nourish.
So much future cut short
Do not abandon do not abort
this mission you've been given
Please, give us something to believe in...
But I guess it is too late
This sad truth has been fate
All along, your song
Would end.
Now to mend, the hearts that are still here, my dear.
I hear the best cure is time, so I'll sit and I'll wait
And remember this date.
As a day to remember your life and your love
To hope somewhere you're peaceful. Somewhere above.
If the water
could calm my soul,
let it take me under
and sweep me away,
into the dark.
A meaningless mass of emptiness,
with just enough awareness
to know,
that I am at peace
with myself,
and with others.
If only that were the case,
right now.
I am at war.
The water is salty
and rapidly flowing.
Hyped up on adrenaline
that spreads like fire through my veins.
This burning sensation of rage,
blind rage,
creates this burden of war,
and insecurity,
that I do not want.
For the first time,
I have been taken advantage of,
during a time when I wasn't myself.
I had a concussion,
and I was taken advantage of,
by someone who I trusted.
And well,
it's safe to say,
now I don't trust them anymore.
This is my war.
It is a war I believe
to find what is real,
and I think the end result,
is that deep down
I have insecurities that I didn't know about,
and those are being dragged painfully to the surface
of the rushing water
of my mind,
and keeping me steadily
in a place I do not wish to be.
I know,
I know very well
that I will come out stronger because of it,
and more secure.
I will know
how to let go,
and take control of myself.
It only takes
one thing,
which is the will power to end this.
I have the will power,
and I will end
my war,
in the most peaceful way I can.
Until then,
I fight.
On top of a hill,
with the river bursting its banks below,
flooding the ground
until it takes all the chaos away,
and leaves me,
at peace.
Writing whatever comes from the tip of the iceberg in my brain.
Sanity has banished me, willingly jumping down the drain.
You'd think that it'd cause strain,
I mean I do have to rearrange and explain myself more often than not.
I was gonna say something else, but I forgot, haha.
There's a lotta blahblah, but I shoot straight for imagination, fascinating conversations.
Thinks can get kinda crazy, with little to no persuasion.
Sometimes, I think I should proceed with more hesitation.
But instead I just project the thoughts for manifestation.
Gotta lotta love to give, and I'm happy to do it.
I can be your best friend, who'da knew it?
*Known, I know, exploding in my own zone with thoughts of fantasy.
Yet always happily tied down in this intricate sea of reality.
Don't forsake the give and take,
Embrace the love then reciprocate.
Life becomes all the more worthwhile when work turns into play.
I may end it here, so you, have a fantabulous rest of your day! :D
Just kidding, I want to keep going.
I want to explore more with my oars and keep rowing
Flowing into the unknown consciousness.
Emotions are based on perspectives, and let right now be BLISS
Love,
Ryno
I said,
I believe because
you inspire me.
That's a powerful trait--
not just creatively,
but also to be a stronger person
in mind,
body
& spirit.
<3
She says,
I wish
I had your eyes
to see myself with.
The I say,
This is why I write
you poetry
& get lost in your eyes--
Why I can't help but long
to be in your presence,
because it is a gift
for those around you,
though you may not be aware.
As a poet,
I'm always trying to capture
fleeting moments
of the cosmic beauty
you bestow upon the world
everyday.
I didn't know true happiness till you came into my life.
I didn't know true heartbreak until you walked away.
It came and went quicker than night and day.
When I close my eyes I can hear you laugh.
I like to smile because it reminds me of how we laughed together.
When I'm alone I imagine your arms wrapped around me in an embrace.
Because you gave me the best of hugs.
When I play piano I can see you over my shoulder smiling away.
Your smile always made me happy.
But when I hear your name my body breaks down.
I am unable to move, think or breath functionally.
A shiver down my spine, goosebumps on my arms.
The tears I shed for you make me feel sick inside.
Like my heart is rotting more and more with each thought of you.
My whole being is being ripped away and torn to shreds.
Everyone can see through me and my X-ray heart.
They can see me decaying inside getting darker and colder.
I can never shed a tear for anyone but you.
I will never love again because of you.
Walk by me again and see my X-ray heart.
I dare you to try and say it's not you.
I will open my mouth and darkness will pour out.
I will begin to burst and bleed.
I will fall down upon my knees.
And finally I will be free.
See you in the afterlife.
05-15-13
You may not see it,
The pain in my eyes.
I watch you leave,
Silently praying you'll return alive.
I may brush away your words,
I may stiffen with your hugs.
I may ignore your rules,
And show you no love.
But deep down,
At the bottom of my broken heart.
I love you with my all,
I love you with everything.
I don't want to lose another parent,
I don't want to see you go.
I dread the day where I will have to say,
"Goodbye."
Happy Mother's Day, my wonderful Mother!
These things that make you say
Lets go
The same things that make you go
Whoa, whoa
Sinful little pretty girl
Your skin is just Heaven
Think I can take you for a whirl
As long as you promise to keep beggin'
In the night, as the rain hits the roof
You're waiting for me in shadows
All the lights turned down too low
Never knew this is where we would go
There's not an ounce of apology
In your soft, seductive, sex tone
You used to feel ashamed about this
But not anymore because we're alone
Nothing can stop the flow of blood now
Dripping from limbs and into the floor
You're pretty crazy, I won't lie
But when were through it I'm always wanting more
It's all because you are an animal
A being outside of what most people know
When I'm with you I refuse to let go
You're dark power lies within your sheets
You say you want to die
Yet you would scream if someone came up behind you.
You look both ways when you cross the street.
You lock your doors and windows at night.
You put on your seat belt.
You would run for your life.
You would try to get away if you were at gun point.
You would cry at a near-death experience.
You say you want to die,
But it’s on your own terms.
may twenty-third
nobody remembered
nobody bothered to notice
a birthday without bliss
unlit numbers of candles
i'm fine it's not that i can't handle
inevitable
yet unendurable
popped balloons
within the soul of a dark cold room
laughs giggles shouts
greetings from all the way throughout
but not a single hi or hello
not a single birthday greeting though
"you die a day near your birthday"
each legends always say
and that's what i look forward to every may
it's still may twenty-third
and if it wasn't me someone might've cared
-djs
