Birds of the night
casting shadows in the moonlight
shining so bright
as they in stealthy flight
paint a picture so right
for with them, the dark is also in flight
and we are left to enjoy the light
shining from the moon so bright
all through the night
I don't want to run
I don't want to shoot
I don't want to run from the police
I don't want to loot
I don't want a gangster's life
I don't want to have to look over my shoulder at night
Growing up in the big city
Born of a family in the dirt
Never much money to anybody
But it seems none of my cousins really learned
But I'm not like them, I'm not about that
I never was keen of violence
Always hated hate and loved love
Never got how they all missed this
Never understood how they could want that kind of life
Because I'd be a bum on the street
Begging for a penny or two
Before I was to go out and hurt someone who didn't deserve it
Or trick someone into thinking something false
I don't like to deceive, I hate it
But do many people think it's right
Crime doesn't pay, you can't win
There's nothing to a life of sin
At the end if the day you're left with shit
Your hearts turned to an empty black pit
Maybe it's to please our father or mother
Succeeding or being right, it's one or the other
We work for our grades whether wrong or right
We stay up late to do homework in the night
Teachers, they care, but students do not
But pleasing our elders consumes all our thought
Who even cares if we're spending time learning?
We want our A's whether or not we're deserving
They make it out as if it doesn't even matter
Learn or cheat? We're choosing the latter.
She said its easy as pie
Just do it right and no one will know
But as I looked down
At his half sunken face
I thought to myself
Its easier said then done
And as I bent down
To grab his cold pale ankles
A funny thought came to my head
Just last month I saw him and said
You are one in a million
The only one in the world
But as secrets slowly creped out
And as gossip spread
One girl came before me
"You know what they say," she rasped
Her lips curled as she glared
"The good ones never stay long."
And as her sharp words cut through me
I tried to keep my bleeding heart together
I ran as fast as I could back to my home
Right back to my room
I was down in the dumps
Felt used and unloved
And as I heard his hand touch the handle
I stood in guard
And waited for his last words
"I will not have my heart broken again," said I
And at last, as I stood over his crimson body
She strolled right in
With that same evil smile
I felt cut and dried
And it was all my fault
With nothing I could do
And as I covered his stone body
With the earths damp dirt
I thought to myself
He was one in a million
The only one in the world
It hurts that you still don't get what it is that I need , even after I spell it out for you.
Why do you make it so hard for us to work, with your selfishness and lack of interest in the things I do.
I just don't even wanna
Look at ya face.
I try to be there for you with anything you need, but for the things I ask of you, not even a backward glance.
Over and over we argue about theses issues, each time you vow a change if I give a second chance.
But right now I don't
Wanna look at ya face.
It is hard when a person that you love with all your heart is also the one that fills you with endless rage.
They say anything that is worth having is worth fighting for, but more often I wonder if we can survive after the "honeymoon stage".
Cause at this moment I don't
Wanna look at ya face
Love is a crazy roller coaster ride of emotions. Some times we need to go all in and suck up the fact that we're scared and just hold on tight. Other times we need to realize it is just better to sit this one out.
I have the right to think what I want,
I'm entitled to opinions, just as you are,
You can't just stop me from my thoughts.
I have the right to do what I want,
It's my own choice,
So what's your problem?
I have the right to be who I am,
I don't live to please you,
So please deal with it.
I'm just like you,
A normal girl,
Or maybe not,
Who wants to live my life without regrets.
But sadly I can't,
They're always staring,
Always judging,
Not understanding.
Now, when will you ever
Stop
Judging
Picking
Attacking
On everything of me?
this fork in the road meets me
take the left or turn to the right
the one less travelled or the one worn down
i'm just glad that the choice is mine
i'm just glad to be standing here
so what if this should be the end?
if i could call on inspiration any time i want
this might not be the end of my journey
if i could wring out all that has been encased deep within my heart
this might not be the demise of my determination
i hope you can see that some day
maybe i have come to the limit of myself
you wanted to see me reach ever higher
but i've already got more
more than what i could have ever wished for
you say this cannot be the end of my time
but this is what i have to say
i've borrowed more than what i've been promised
i've been given a lifetime and two
where all that i've got is more than what i have ever needed
and who is to say that i haven't lived at all
when all that i've ever done is what i wanted
nothing more
and certainly, nothing less
I have the right to remain silent.
Anything I say can and will be used against me.
Least accordingly.
When asked about my feelings toward you.
I say nothing because I might be accused of using you.
But my heart.
My mind stays centered on you.
I have the right to bare arms.
But if I reach out for you I might set off an alarm.
Because my love stays ready and willing to love you.
So others guess and speculate because I hadn't admitted your love makes me weak.
I hide behind a blue sky
Saw the birds flying in the current, high
Wishing for some star shine
I really love the morning time
Yet here I am inside
On the couch, with a slouch, hoping for a way out
When the door is right in front of me
But I'm convinced I'm too busy
I am climbing the digital tree
Forgetting to breathe
When I want to smell the airy breeze
Come up for air and stay there
Soul open, eyes closed, alert and aware
I imagined a place where...
I go to close the screen, but I hesitate
Is today really the day?
Couldn't I just sit here a while
Another year, read another mile
Like this, post that, fake a smile
Until I forget this epiphany ever existed
This future I've too long resisted
Now my mind and body is twisted
Unaligned and with no compromise
Or a sign things will be alright
It's a leap of faith, I read it all the time
Stay in the present, unravel the twine
Meditate often, remember your past lives
Stretch, Run, Play, repeat, then rewind
To release your fears and let in the light
To be out there and catch the sunrise
You're not alone, you know it's time to go
A moment can last forever
These pathways stay together
The brain is a place of endeavors
Where you can forget to remember
But when two halves become as one, trust inside
The words that speak from between your eyes
Let in spirit lest the ego try
To find a foothold in your mind
Start with the stars, and then the sunrise
Look up at the clouds and follow the silver line
Love consists of over-estimating the differences between one woman and another.
